Summary: After his brief encounter with Takuto, Wakaouji-sensei confronts demons of the past.
A/N: Poor Wakaouji-sensei. No matter how hard he tries to move on, the past always comes back to haunt him. At least he found his true love. I always did wonder what went through his head when he saw Takuto in the flesh. I hope you enjoy my interpretation (wow, that just sounded really strange since this is a rather depressing fic). Hana Li
Disclaimer: I do not down Full Moon wo Sagashite.
Forgiveness
It wasn't possible. Kira Takuto was dead– but there he was, standing right before my eyes. He was the splitting image of the talented but obnoxious boy– my band mate– except he was a young man now. Before I knew it, the name slipped out of my mouth. "Takuto. . ."
My mind may have been playing tricks, but why now? Are you punishing me, Takuto, for returning to the music business? Every ounce of logic in my body says that this can't be happening, yet I know it's him. There's no mistaking those eyes, that voice. You are Kira Takuto from Route L.
He first appeared to have forgotten me, but then I saw the pain in his eyes. It was like the look he gave me right before he jumped. The image of those sad blue orbs haunted me every day. I couldn't let him die, not after Aoi and Hazuki-san had their lives taken away so early. The idea of loneliness was unbearable, but regret turned out to be much worse. Takuto, do you still hate me?
I tried to redeem myself with Mitsuki-chan. Do you remember how you said you'd protect her? With you and Aoi gone, I vowed to stay by her side. I had lost enough loved ones, and so when she came down with throat cancer, I gave her a choice– like I should have given you. It was the only thing I could do, but it wasn't enough. She ran away to become a singer. I had no choice but to break a promise I made to myself– to never be involved with the entertainment industry again– in order to fulfill a promise I made to two friends.
What were you trying to tell me, Takuto? Why did you appear and suddenly run away? Could it be that you're protecting Mitsuki-chan as well? I blew my chance to apologize so I'll do it now. I'm sorry, Takuto. Will you ever forgive me? Because I can't forgive myself.