Summary: It's hard to let go, especially when you're suddenly reminded of an old flame. Takuto and Hikari were a couple when they were just teenagers, but that was the distant past. Now they have to tie up some loose ends and move on. However, you can never forget your first love.

A/N: The idea came into me suddenly one night. I had found the chapters dealing with Takuto and Hikari to be too brief, and again, I felt the need to get inside the characters' heads. Originally this was just going to be a story, but after listening to Hikaru Utada's "First Love," I thought this would make the perfect song fic. --Hana Li

Major props to tamashiix for her review. Thanks for the compliment; I try my best to empathize with the characters.

Disclaimer: Full Moon wo Sagashite belongs to Arina Tanemura and "First Love" belongs to Hikaru Utada.

First Love

Saigo no kiss wa
Tabako no flavor ga sita
Nigakute setsunai kaori

How could he have forgotten about her? Hikari, that wild girl. She loved to tease him and stir up tabloid rumors. Although she was younger, she was already a skilled player in the game of love. On the other hand, Takuto had no idea how to deal with the opposite sex, despite having hoards of female fans since the age of twelve. So he let her take the lead. He knew that she was only using him, that their relationship was just for "fun." However, he couldn't help but have feelings for her. She was his first after all.

Ashita no imagoro niwa
Anata wa doko ni irun darou
Dare wo omotterun darou

She stared at the ring he had given her so long ago. They were only teenagers, and it wasn't like she was going to get married. Takuto was supposed to be her rock star fling, but he turned out to be much more. When she was around him, she wasn't Hikari the young model or Hikari the mischievous beauty; she was just Hikari. He had been able to get past the emotional barriers she put up in order to succeed in a demanding industry. Unfortunately, she didn't acknowledge her feelings until it was too late. He was the first person who liked her for who she was.

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashi love song
Atarashi uta utaeru made

Hikari believed in miracles and second chances. She wasn't going to let this slip, even if he did turn out to be the wrong guy. It was selfish of her to hang on to an old flame when she was engaged, but she wore his ring, not the other man's. Her chemistry with this guy, who seemed so like Takuto yet different, let her disappear into the past. Forget about unfinished business; let's run away and be together.

Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugokidasou to shiteru
Wasuretaku nai koto bakari

He couldn't keep Mitsuki waiting, but he had loose ends to tie up. It was harder than he thought. She was being persistent. He wanted to get things over with; Hikari was just a teenage crush. However, when he felt her lips upon his, old emotions came rushing back. They were so strong, hers too. How come she didn't show it when they were together? Takuto was caught up in the past, in a time when he was naive and carefree. This was what could have been if things had turned out differently.

Ashitamo ima donno ni wa
Watashi wa kitto naiteiru
Anata mo omo teru mm na hai

It was crazy to kiss some random guy off the street, but that was how Hikari behaved. Anyway, he turned out to not be a stranger. Even if he denied it, she knew Takuto's touch. It caused her heart to rush, out of lust and fear. He possessed the ability to look past her perfectly crafted image, and it unnerved her so much that she pushed him away. Not this time though. She had to hang on because as much as she feared showing her true emotions, she feared letting them go.

You will always be inside my heart
Itsumo anata dakeno basho ga arukara
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashi love song
Atarashi uta utaeru made

Although his heart belonged to another, he would never forget Hikari. He used to see her as fearless and out of control. In reality, she felt the need to control everything and was afraid to relinquish it. She threw herself at guys with reckless abandon in search of love and broke their hearts because she couldn't share a piece of her. He was glad that he could help her see that, but she couldn't love a dead man. Their reunion had caught him off guard, and he would have to fix a few things with Mitsuki. Nevertheless, he was grateful because it gave him the conviction to sacrifice everything for the one he loved now.

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka darekato mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember to love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima ha mada kanashi love song
Atarashii uta utaerumade

It would take some time to get over Takuto because she never had the chance to say "good-bye" until now. While he had changed so much, she stayed the same. It was pathetic, considering that he was so stubborn back then. This was the first time someone had broken up with her. Who knew that the tables would be turned, by Kira Takuto no less? She took off the ring and put it somewhere safe. There were no hard feelings because he had taught her a few things. Like how to live. She was young, and she should enjoy the present as not Hikari the stylist to the stars or Hikari the rich man's young fiancee, but just Hikari. And someday she'd find someone who loved her that way.

Now and forever