A Bird's Reality
A/N: Last chapter ya'll! This chapter might get a little confusing and go a little fast, but it's worth it to finally know what happens at the end. So...ENJOY!
Chapter 11: Love You
Robin sat in his room thinking to himself what happened last night. He was shocked that he was able to tell her…to tell her the truth. He was glad she didn't scream at him or blasted anything. What he didn't like was the fact of her crying, but he knew he had to go on and tell her what the reason was for him acting the way he did towards her. He sat there on his bed with his head in his hands remembering the way she looked at him in confusion and hurtwhichgot tohim. He loved the way she accepted it thoughand that was the thing he loved about Starfire, how she didn't let her anger get out of control. He looked over to the team picture he had resting on his dresser. He smiled at how close they all were and how it's been since itbegan. Instead of taking himself to a flashback he just decided to take a shower instead. As he ran the water for his shower he looked at himself in the mirror. "Well Mr. Grayson it's time to let the truth be told."
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Robin walked in the living room noticing that everyone wasn't there. "Now where can they be?" Just as he said that he saw all of them come from the kitchen holding their breakfast. "Yo Robin! You gonna eat or what?" Cyborg said as he went to go take a seat at the table. "Yeah dude. Your plate is in the microwave." BB concluded as he too took a seat at the dinner table. As he passed Starfire she gave him a big smile as she went to go take her seat. Raven was close behind Star and she didn't want to look at Robin at all.
Robin finally got to his seat with his breakfast, which was bacon, eggs, and oatmeal. "So…who made breakfast this time?" he asked as he ate a spoonful of oatmeal. "Cy and Raven did. It was their turn." BB said, "BB, there aren't any turns in making breakfast. We just tell you that so you don't get a chance to make it." Cy said as he put a whole piece of bacon in his mouth. "Dude! That's so not funny!" "Yes it is!" "Would you two cool it this morning?" they turned to see Robin frustrated at their argument so they stopped. "Starfire and Robin? Are you two okay?" Robin looked over to Beastboy surprised and asked, "Why?" "Well I heard some whispering last night from the two of you when I went to get my sock in the hallway." Cyborg looked at Robin, Starfire, then at BB. "BB what was your sock doing in the hallway?" "I sort of dropped it when carrying my laundry to my room." "That was three weeks ago." "So...I kind of forgot about it." Robin was looking at both Cyborg and BB who was talking. "BB Starfire and I were just…" Starfire to his surprise cut him off, "Just talking about how it must have been the end of the world since you have gotten the three girls to show interest in you." Everyone started to laugh except BB who was hot with anger, "But we care for you no matter what!" BB heard the alien girl say to him as she gave him a hug, all he could do was laugh also.
After breakfast BB volunteered to wash the dishes and they gladly let him. Robin walked beside Starfire, "Why did you lie about last night?" "Well our friends do have rights to know what goes on with their teammates, but they do not need to know everything that goes on." "I see. Thanks anyway for getting me out that sticky situation." he told her while giving her a smile. "No problem friend Robin!"
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"So you did it." Robin turned to Cyborg who was sitting on the side of him on the couch. "Did what?" "You told Star the truth." "Yeah. It was hard especially when she started crying." "She cried?" "Yeah. So did I. I mean…I couldn't take hurting her…but I knew what I had to do." "I know what you mean man. How did she take it, besides the crying?" "She took itwell actually." "She did?" "Yeah. She told me she knew that my feelings were changing and it had to be dealing with another person." "Wow. I was sure she would have blast you to pieces." "You did?" "Yeah. I mean she is a powerful alien chick from another planet." "Thanks for your thoughts Cyborg, I really wanted it." "Are you being sarcastic?" "Oh nooo Cyborg, I would neeeever be sarcastic to youuu." "You're being sarcastic aren't you?" "Of course I am." Looking aggravated now Cyborg asked Robin, "So what about Raven?" "What about her?" "Okay. You really need to stop doing that." "Doing what?" "That!" "Ohhh…like asking stupid questions?" "Yeah." "I didn't tell Raven yet." "And why not?" "Because every time I start to tell her Starfire comes out of nowhere orRaven runs away." "Well you won't have to worry about Star anymore." "What about Raven?" "Just make sure you don't let her run away."
After Cyborg left Robin sat silently on the couch wondering how he was going to tell Raven. He knew she wasn't for all that lovey dovey stuff so he knew it was going to be difficult. "I know she feels the same about me, but she doesn't show it much. Around me I can tell and feel it." He heard someone coming towards him, it was Starfire. "Robin you have a lot on your mind?" "Yeah Star I do." "Wish to share?" "It's better if I don't." "Huh?" "It's not like I do not want to discuss it with you, it's just that I don't know what to discuss. I'm confused." "Well I shall leave you now to figure it out." Starfire left him to work out his problems.
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Raven sat in her room trying to do the same thing. "What was BB talking about when he heard Star and Robin talking about something? Why am I still on the answer to that question when Starfire cleared that up! It was kinda weird though because she cut off Robin who was probably about to say the same thing." She got up from her bed and looked for something to throw on to go to the park and walk a couple of times around the track. "Why did it have to be Robin? Why my leader, my friend, my best friend's boyfriend!" She couldn't take it anymore; she heard one of her statues break. "Ugh! Why can't I stop this feeling! Why can't I just go on with my life!" she got on her knees and held her head in her hands as she cried to herself softly hearing car alarms go off suddenly. "I'm tired of this; I'm tired of all of it!"
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Cyborg came back into the living room hoping to find Robin there, but he wasn't. "Man…where did he go now?" All of a sudden the phone rang so he went to answer it, "Hellooo." "Is Cyborg there?" "This is him speaking." "Hey! This is Bee!" "Bee?" "Yeah. Is there something wrong?" "No. What did you call for, someone in trouble?" "No. I called for you." "Why you called for me?" "Because I wanted to ask you if you wanted to go to the movies tonight." "You did?" "So? Yes or no?" Cyborg didn't know what to say, but of course, "Sure! See you at eight!" "Cool! See you then, bye!" "Bye!" As he hung the phone up it suddenly rung again, he picked it up, "I told you yeah." "Excuse me!" "Wait, who's this!" "This is Jinx, who's this!" "Jinx!" "Yeah!" "My bad, I thought you were someone else. This is Cyborg." "Oh hey Cy! Just the guy I wanted to talk to!" "Really? Why?" "Cause Cy, I wanted to know if you wanted to go to the amusement park tomorrow night." Cyborg didn't know what to do, he was speechless, "Um…Cyborg…you there?" "Yeah." "Yeah you there or yeah you'll go?" "Both!" "For real? Oh thank you Cy! I promise you won't regret it! Bye!" "Yeah Jinx, bye." he said as he hung up the phone. "I can not believe I just did that!" "Got girl problems too Cy?" He turned to see Robin with a grin on his face, "How do you know?" "What did we just talk about on stupid questions?" "You heard everything didn't you." "Yep and I think it's time for you to make a decision on what girl you want." "Robin…but…" "I wouldn't want to label you as a hypocrite now would I?" Cyborg looked at Robin annoyed then said, "I guess not." "Then do the right thing buddy!" Cyborg watched as Robin left, "Gotta always ride my back on something."
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Does Not Belong To Me
Love will not be mine,
I do not deserve it.
I do not have faith within it,
it will never be mine.
I keep it hidden among my other emotions,
it has no way out and know way in.
Out comes nothing from this heart of mine,
if it did it would be wrong just as a sin.
Love is strange to me and I'm afraid I don't understand,
I'm afraid of it because I do not know of it.
I know it brings heart break which I can not stand,
it brings joy which I can barely show.
He came along and woke this emotion,
this emotion I am warned to feel.
How I wish I could tell him so, but I can't,
it can never happen, it will never be real.
To express emotions is a risk of hurting him,
I can not bring myself to do so, to protect him.
Love is an emotion I can never be,
because it does not belong to me.
Raven looked into the notebook andlooked at the wordsshe wrote. She looked it over and over again hoping it would make sense to convince her that she didn't love him. As she keptreading it over and over again her confidence went away slowly. The last time she read it she knew that she couldn't hide the truth. What she wrote was out of pity for help and guidance from someone, but she did notfind it. "I can't make it go away. As much as I want it to, it won't." She sat on her bed once more looking at the floor trying to hold back the tears. "Please just go away…please…I do not want to hurt him…just go away!" All of a sudden one of her books on the bookshelf busted.
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Everyone was in the living room, all except Raven. "Has anyone seen Raven?" Robin asked the group, "She's in her room." Cyborg told him as he sat back down on the couch, "Isn't she gonna join us for the movie?" "Well I don't know Robin, why don't you go and ask her." Robin looked at Cyborg stupidly and walked to Raven's door and knocked on it. "Um…Raven?" In her room. "No…not him…not now." "Raven? You okay?" She finally decided to answer him, "Yes…I'm fine. What do you want?" "I wanted to know if you were coming to watch the movie, since it is movie night?" "I can't let him see me like this." "Yeah…I'll be out in a minute. You can go now." "Oh…okay." Robin said as he went back to the living room were the others were. "So she's coming or not!" "Yes Beastboy, she is coming. She said give her a minute." 5 minutes later. "Dude! Where is she, it's been like an hour!" "No it hasn't!" Cyborg said to BB. "Okay. You can start the movie now." They all turned around to see Raven standing behind them, "Don't you want to sit down?" Starfire said as she moved over to make room for Raven. "Thanks Star. You know, you didn't have to wait for me to start the movie." "Don't be silly Raven!" "Well I know how BB can be impatient." "That's why we're teaching him to wait." Robin said while giving BB an annoyed look. "What!"
The movie now started and everyone kept their eyes on what was shown on the screen. It was an action movie called, "Never Die", (sounds familiar doesn't it?). All that was heard from the television were explosions and gun shots. All the titans stayed on the edge of their seat to seewhat was going to happen next. They saw the hero of the movie fighting against five assassins at one time which made them go ohhhh and ahhh. The movie lasted about an hour and fifty minutes. At the end the hero died and the one he loved killed herself to go meet him in heaven. The titans looked at each otherdumb-foundedand then back at the screen, then back at each other again. "Okay. So what was the point of the title?" Raven said, "I have no idea." Cyborg replied back. "I mean if the hero dies, why is the movie called never die?" Robin said looking curious, "I do not know Robin." Star said back to him. "Dude…that movie was…great!" Everyone looked at BB and laughed. "What are ya'll laughing about?"
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Later on that night Cyborg went on his date with Bumble Bee and told Robin that after the date with Jinx he was going to choose one of them. Robin hoped he would and he wished his friend good luck. "Where's friend Cyborg going?" "On a date with Bumble Bee Star." "Oh okay!" Starfire said as she flew away happily to the roof where she found Raven meditating or trying to anyway.
"Raven!" "Yes Star." "I wanted to know if…" "No I do not know where Robin, BB, or Cyborg are." "I was not going to ask that because Cy is with Bee, Robin's in the living room, and BB is with the Chi chi." "Thanks for the info." "I wanted to know if you would like to do the hanging out tomorrow? Just the two of us!" She couldn't help to feel guilty for falling in love with her friend's boyfriend, so she wanted to make up for it. "Sure Star. What do you have planned?" "Oh thank you! I shall be taking us to the movie, the shopping of the mall, and the spa relaxation!" "You sure you want to do all this?" "Oh yes!" "Okay. What time are we going to leave?" "Right after the breakfast if you do not mind?" "That's fine with me." Starfire gave Raven a hug and to her surprise Raven hugged her back which made Star hug her even more.
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Raven stayed on the roof until 1:00 midnight, in which Cyborg and BB already been back from their dates. She thought she had enough time of trying to meditate and she was ready to go to bed. As she came down from the roof she decided to have a little herbal tea to calm her sown. She went to the kitchen and made her some and poured it in her mug. "Hmm…that's better." "I'm sure it is." She quickly turned around to see Robin looking at her. "I…I thought everyone was asleep." "Well you thought wrong." "I guess I did." "Why were you up there so long?" "I had to meditate and clear my head of some things." she said as she took another sip of her tea. "Things like what?" "Things like how I'm gonna sleep like a baby tonight." "Be serious. You can tell me anything." "I can, but I won't. Good night Robin." As she turned to leave he grabbed her hand, "If you won't talk maybe I should." She heard him say as he led the two of them to the couch where they sat.
"Robin I really need my rest." "Raven don't give me that." "What…you think this is an excuse?" "I didn't say it, you did." "I can not believe you." "Just listen Raven…please, I'm begging you." "Fine Robin. You got my undivided attention." Still having her hand in his he said, "Raven something's been wrong with me and you know it, so does Star and Cy." "They do?" "Yes Raven and I know you have a problem too." "Really? Tell me what this problem is." "I will…but not right now. Right now I need to explain myself to you." "Please not this, not now." "Robin…maybe you shouldn't…" "Shouldn't tell you about myself, I don't think that would work for me." "Continue." "Raven I have this…feeling of…something I never experienced before." "Does that make sense?" "It's not suppose to! Anyway, I have been knowing you for awhile." "Yes Robin, you been knowing all of us for awhile." "No Raven, really knowing you, better than anyone else on this team." "Yeah." "When I said we had a special bond I wasn't exaggerating at all, I meant every bit of it." He now took both her hands into his, "Calm down Raven, just calm down." she thought to herself. "Robin…" "Raven, I care a lot about you, I really do." "I care about you tooRobin, it's just…" "Raven…the way I feel…about you…" "Robin don't." "Don't what?" "Just don't…please?" "Raven I can't hold my feelings in all my life. I thought when I had Starfire, my life would've been great, but it wasn't." "What do you mean had Starfire? You still have her." He squeezed her hands tight, "No…I don't."
Raven's face dropped, "Wha…what do you mean…you don't?" "That conversation BB was talking about. It was me and Star breaking up." She couldn't believe her ears, she let go of Robin's hands. "Why!" "Because I wasn't happy Raven…she wasn't the one I thought…I was in love with." "Robin…don't do this." "Raven I can't describe how I feel when I'm with you." "Don't let him say it, don't let him love me!" "Robin maybe we should end this conversation." "Maybe we shouldn't." "But…" "Raven I might not know how I feel when I'm with you, but I do know how I feel about you." She stood up ready to run away but he stood in front of her moving closer to her. "Robin…please." "Raven I know…that I am…in lov…" "No!" "Raven!" She started to run to get to her room, but he ran after her this time in the hallway, grabbing her wristhe turned her aroundto facehim. "Raven! What's wrong!" "Robin let me go!" "Don't be this way!" "I can't! Leave me alone!" "Why won't you let me do this! Why won't you let me love you!" "Robin I'm sorry…azrath…" "Raven don't!" "…metrion…" "Raven!" "…zinthos!" All of a sudden Robin went flying to the wall across from them. Raven ran again this time getting to her room door running inside ofthe room; she didn't notice the tears that came down her face. "Please Robin…just leave me…don't love me."
She heard him banging on her door, "Raven! Open the door please!" She backed up from the door ready to go any where but where she was rightnow. Then her door opened with Robin standing in the entrance, "Raven…please…" Raven started to back away from him. "Robin no…I can't." "Yes you can. You have to believe in it." "I don't!" "Yes you do!" Robin grabbed her shoulders and looked into her eyes and notice she was crying. "Raven don't be scared…believe in yourself…believe in us." She looked deeper into his eyes now seeing he was crying also which had her cry even more. "Robin…I can't…" At that minute she felt his soft lips on hers, "He's…he's kissing me." she thought to herself as she kissed him back as the kiss deepen. Realizing what she was doing she pulled away from him, "Robin…I don't want...to hurt you." He put his hand on her cheek wiping away the last bit of tears, "Raven…pain sounds a lot better...than not having you." This time she kissed him first and he kissed her back letting it deepen once more. Like in his dream he heard her moan for more which he gave her. All he wanted her to do is to say those three words to make it final. As he laid her upon her bed while still kissing her they stopped to catch their breaths, he saw her smile and heard one of her statues break. They both started to laugh, "Robin?" "Yeah Raven?" "I love you." "I love you too." was the last thing they said to each other as he kissed her again, this time not stopping. Robin could feel her embrace around his neck tighten as he too tighten his embrace around her waist. The heat, around them they felt, as they released their love to one another, not letting anything hold them back.
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Cyborg woke up that morning thinking about what Robin said and how he should do the right thing. As he passed Starfire's room he knocked on it to tell her to help him make breakfast. "Cyborg…that's you?" "Yeah Star, come on." Starfire came out her room looking at him pleadingly, "Must I have to?" "Yes Star, you need to know how to cook earth breakfast." "But I wish to go back to sleep, I am very tired." He didn't hear a word she said and he pulled her out of her room telling her to meet him in the kitchen.
Cyborg came to Beastboy's room door about to knock on it, but decided not to. "I really don't have time to deal with his tofu speeches this morning." So Cyborg passed up BB room letting him sleep until breakfast was ready. He now came to Raven's room door and knocked on it gently, "Yo Robin? Breakfast's gonna be ready in about 30 minutes." Cyborg listened to get an answer, "Okay Cy, in 30 minutes we'll be there." he heard Robin reply to him. Cyborg walked away now to the kitchen with a sly smile across his face, "Sly devil."
Robin laid there in Raven's bed looking up to the ceiling. He noticed that Raven rested on his bare chest sleeping like the angel he thought she was. He could feel her breathing and he loved it, he loved the fact he was hers now and she was his. Letting his fingers play in her hair he saw that she had on his bracelet the whole time. He moved the hair from her face to reveal her sleeping smiling face. Robin couldn't help but smile at how she looked, he never seen her so happy before. He took his hand and brushed her cheek slightly and then kissing her on her head, "I love you Raven Roth." As he said this he fell asleep again withhis head on hers now knowing that his life was not a fairy tale that would end anymore. Robin fell asleep finding his reality to his real life that he was meant to live, it might not have been perfect, but it was all he wanted and all he had.
A/N: Did ya'll like it! I know the end was a little throwed off, but hey! Thanks for all the nice reviews, I really appreciate it! Next story I write will probably be a bit longer and more understanding...until then bye!