Hey Guys: Just wanna let you all know that I really appreciate your support in my effort to create a fic worth reading. Unfortunately due to circumstances beyond my control I am now forced to put this story on an indefinite Hiatus. I promise I am not abandoning the story without finishing it. But at the moment there are too many things happening in my life that prevent me from keeping a regular update schedule, and until I sort these things out I will not be updating. I apologize to all of those who have been faithful readers to my story for any inconveniences or disappointment this may cause.

Chapter 16:

"Maxwell…" Wu Fei gently started, his voice calm and soothing, yet concerned. "Yuy hasn't hurt you has he?" He asked me, his onyx eyes promising the steely-blue eyed pilot pain if he had. "No..." was my quiet response. I felt like I was still lost in the dark place from my terrifying vision. "He hasn't... He hasn't hurt me." The truth was too many others had hurt me. And I was afraid of being hurt like that again.

Of course I couldn't tell 'Fei that. It was too hard. The last thing I wanted to do was remember the pain and suffering I had experienced as a child. And to tell Wu Fei... Anyone... Would mean remembering. However Wu Fei would never accept that.

"You said you dreamt about Yuy" He began logically, trying to sort out why the dream had upset me so. " What exactly happened in your dream?" Came the question I dreaded with every fibre in my being. It was a question I didn't want, and desperately sought not to answer. What would Wu Fei 'Justice' Chang do to the man I cared about, heart and soul; if I told him that in my subconscious vision Heero had killed me? Or rather brutally beat me as so many others had and then killed me? Every instinct I owned screamed at me not to tell him. Unfortunately, my heart rebelled and before I realized it I was telling him.

"Well..." I began hesitantly. " It started with me being trapped someplace that was completely dark. I couldn't see anything. It was so lonely and frightening." I shivered remembering that haunting place within my mind. " All I wanted to do was escape from there... Escape and hide from it." Run and hide, the two things I always did when something frightened or upset me. And that place had frightened me more than I would like to admit. It had reminded me of myself. My true self.

True I had a fair few friends, but none of them knew anything about the real me. None of them except Wu Fei. And maybe Quatre. That dark, foreboding place had reminded me of the child I had been. The child I still was inside. The lonely, starving orphan who had been forced to live on the streets. The frightened, trembling soul who had watched, mortified, as everyone he had ever come to know and care about died around him.

It had also reminded me of the teen. The adolescent who had been forced to become an adult before his time and fight in a war he didn't belong in. The youth who killed in the name of revenge against those who had hurt the child. The person many soldiers under Oz and the Alliance, as well as those involved with Gundam had come to know and fear as Shinigami. The God of death.

Trying not to slip back into that dark place as I remembered vividly what happened next in that sinister vision. I continued speaking, using the warmth of Wu Fei's body and the strange comfort I felt while being in his arms, to speak the nightmare. " But I couldn't escape… I could only run… The darkness wrapping its ice-cold arms around me. Suddenly.. Heero was standing in front of me..." I stopped then remembering how I felt my heart leap for joy as he softly caressed my cheek, a soft shadow of a smile flickering across his lips.

"Then what?" My comforter gently urged me to continue. I snuggled closer remembering how that calm fleeting expression had turned to a dark and sadistic smirk so swiftly. " Well..." I swallowed, not wanting to tell him but already committed. " In the beginning he was smiling. Not that smirk that he got when he was destroying mobile suits.. A soft, gentle, caring, genuine smile. And he gently reached out to touch my cheek. As if to reassure me. It felt like coming home.." And it had felt like coming home… after being away from it for so long.. Much like it had felt when I found myself living at the church with Father Maxwell and sister Helen, before it was destroyed.

"But?" Asked Wu Fei, sensing that there was more to it than I was letting on. I took a deep breath fighting back a fresh wave of tears. "The next thing I knew he had hauled back and hit me, sending me sprawling to the ground.. I sat up confused and looked at him… All he did was smirk as he walked the short distance between us and kicked me in the ribs.." I bit back a sob. "I..I asked him what he was doing and he... He..." I trailed off, not trusting my already quivering voice.

"He what?" The one person I told all my problems to calmly pressed, trying to get to the bottom of my emotional distress. "He... He told me that I was nothing more than... Than a lowlife street urchin. That I don't deserve to be anywhere near him... Then he... pulled out his gun and he..." I paused momentarily.. Still trying to come to terms with what had happened in my terrifying nightmare. "He tried to shoot me… I managed to move so instead of killing me it hit my shoulder.. Then he aimed his gun at my forehead..." I brushed a stray tear from my face. " I asked him why he was doing it.. All he said was that I don't deserve to live, and then he pulled the trigger… That's when I woke up." I sniffled trying hard not to cry, but failing.

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Glossary of terms and references used to date:

Shinigami: 'God of Death.'

Shounen-Ai: Boy-boy love

Yaoi: Extremely glorified boy-boy love

Koibito: 'Lover'

Hai: 'Yes'

Ninmu ryoukai: Heero's famous line 'Mission Accepted' or 'Mission Acknowledged'

Omae o korosu: Heero's other famous line ' I will kill you' or 'I'll destroy you'

Nataku: In Chinese Mythology Nataku was a being created in the Kunlun Mountains , which took human form by combining human spiritual energy and blood. In may legends Nataku appears as a hermit or a warrior.

K'so: Shortened from kuso this is your basic curse word meaning 'shit' or 'damn'

Nani: 'What?'

Daijôbu: 'It's Alright' or 'It's okay'

Yu-Gi-Oh! Reference: After posting this chapter it was brought to my attention that Seto Kaiba and Heero Yuy were voiced by the same VA... I am not sure on that but I will find out for sure.

1 Enuka: I suppose not many people know this but I actually pulled this name directly from the English voice cast-list. Enuka Okuma is the person who played Lady Une