1Hi I was thinking of writing a suicide songfic and this is what came to my head. Some people can only handle so much before they break from the pressure.
I tried to kill my pain
But only brought more
How can he love me like he says he does. All of those words that made my body feel so warm inside. All of those soft touches and sweet kisses. Where are they now? Was I that pathetic.
(So much more)
I thought love was supposed to be special but I can't feel it anymore. I can't see the fire in your eyes when you look at me. Only when you look at him.
I lay dying
You told me of your past and how you were lovers with him. But you always reassured me it was over and that you could never love him again and that I was the only one.
And
I'm pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I'm dying, praying,
bleeding and screaming
I'm beginning to doubt you now. I saw you. I know that you didn't mean for me to. But I saw that kiss you shared. I saw that and all the touches after it. It all happened in my own house to. In my house and on my bed.
Am
I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?
"Bakura" that's all I can do is whisper your name to the night. Because your not here not anymore. You saved me once Bakura. From these thoughts. But now they're back and they hurt. They know you don't love me anymore.
My
God, my tourniquet
Return To Me Salvation
My God, my
tourniquet
Return To Me Salvation
I'm so tired of crying. All of these wasted tears. I could end it all with this dagger. Your dagger. See, here they are again. Those thoughts that won't go away.
Do
you remember me?
Lost for so long
You've forgotten me but that's okay. I've forgotten myself. But it's hard Bakura acting like I don't know. While you lie with me I wonder if you're thinking of him.
Will
you be on the other side?
or will you forget me?
I miss you already Bakura....will you miss me? I know I'm weak and I'm sorry I couldn't handle this.
I'm
dying, praying, bleeding, and screaming
Am I too lost to be
saved?
Am I too lost?
I
wish you could be here and say those words one last time. That's
all I want to hear.
My God, my tourniquetReturn To Me
Salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return
To Me Salvation
Return to me salvation
The
thoughts are back but I won't let them go this time. This time I'll
do what I should've done before. Something you never did.
I
want to die!
"Goodbye
Bakura" A quick but deep slash across the little bluish vein. There
I did it. I wonder how long this will take, I don't think much
longer. A river of blood surrounding a fallen angel. That's what I
am...a fallen angel.
My God, my tourniquet
Return To Me
Salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return To Me Salvation
I
can't breathe I think the blood is in the way. Oh well I'm tired
so I'll take a nap and never wake up.
My wounds cry for the
grave
I
just want you to know...
My soul cries for deliverance
I
love you and always will. I just hope you won't be too disappointed
in me.
Will I be denied Christ?
I love you Bakura.
Tourniquet
"I
love you"
My suicide
There done.....what do you think....Well r&r
