It's waaaay past my bedtime right now, so consider yourselves lucky I got a chance to post this and please review. It's only a suggestion.
IF YOU DO NOT LIKE MILD SUGGESTED AND OTHERWISE SEXUAL THEMES, DO NOT READ THIS CHAPTER. IT'S NOT TOO BAD, THIS IS JUST A SMALL WARNING! NO PAIRINGS WITH INTERCOURSE INVOLVED ANYWAY!
Sesshoumaru stared into the horizon of the setting sun. He stared off in the direction that he knew the Were Hunters resided. He'd been doing that for several days now. He looked so fearful that he put everyone on edge. Evening to dawn, he would never lose his gaze in that direction, until he began to spend his lonely days in his tree, staring in that direction. His insomnia caused his eyes to twitch at times, and his face grew pale as more of his sleep was lost.
Today, his hand was wrapped around his leg, and his claws were digging into his shin. He shook involuntarily.
Every time he looked in that direction, he felt sick to his stomach, sick enough to throw up. He knew that even though he had eaten Zanmaru, Tima was still alive, and she was almost as bad as he had been…
"Sesshoumaru."
The taiyoukai glanced briefly at his brother, then turned back to the lair of the Hunters.
"Hey. C'mon, turn over here…" Inuyasha pleaded. He leapt into an adjacent tree branch to his brother's.
"Um…I see your hair's growing back a little."
"Only an inch or so," Sesshoumaru replied.
"Look, I know how you feel…"
"You cannot even begin to fathom how I feel," hissed Sesshoumaru.
"I may not know it all, but I do know what it feels like to be hated, scorned and feared for simply being something that isn't controllable…"
Inuyasha sighed.
"I'm sorry you have to feel the pain and regret that I felt. I'm even sure you've gotten it worse than me…"
"Inuyasha…I…oh, never mind…"
Sesshoumaru put his head on his right knee, digging his claws into his hakama.
"Sesshoumaru, Kagome says to come down. She's gonna cut your hair straight. It looks awful now. And please come down to eat. You look terrible, you're underweight and…and…just come down!"
"Can she…come outside…?"
"Damn it, Sesshoumaru! Stop worrying about the Hunters! You're with us now!" Inuyasha said in a desperate, but irritated tone.
"Don't worry about them…don't worry about the hunters, you say?" repeated Sesshoumaru. "Don't worry about those who recapture me from you, cut my hair, and beat me until I have no more to give and beyond; those who impaled my hands and feet, who turned the elements against me…"
His voice rose steadily as he continued.
You want me to forget the damned Hunters who, after taking pleasure from another's pain…who would rut in front of a virgin so voraciously as to arouse him! To forget who they tempted me, nearly drove me insane with lust, then left me to cope with it! Didn't know about that, did you, Inuyasha! You didn't know they did that! YOU DIDN'T KNOW THAT TO THIS DAY I REMAIN A VIRGIN, DID YOU?"
By that time, tears had started pouring down the taiyoukai's face in torrents.
"…I…I d-d-didn't…sorry…" Inuyasha stammered.
"Zanmaru and Tima…I never wanted to see it…to feel it…to experience what I did…" Sesshoumaru hiccoughed. "And when they found out…oh, God…Tima did it all…all but what my body wanted. I didn't care then, my body needed her flesh…and…I couldn't have it. She didn't ell me what it was she was doing until the end…didn't tell me why I was delirious as she took me into her…her mouth…"
Inuyasha was amazed. Not only was his brother (and important and handsome ruler) a virgin, but he didn't even know how sexual intercourse and it's various other sides worked.
I think he needs to talk to Kagome. She'll be able to deal with it…
"Come on. I swear Kagome can help…"
"Hmm…it's really ragged, and I'll have to cut it shorter, but I think it's gonna be okay…"
Kagome made small snips until she was certain Sesshoumaru's hair was even.
"Okay, you're done."
"…Kagome…"
"Huh?"
"That is your name. Kagome…"
"Yeah?"
"I…need to ask you…can you tell me about mating?"
"WHAAT!"
Sesshoumaru paled considerably.
"G-gomen-nasai! I didn't mean it, don't hurt me!"
His elfish ears drooped down a bit, giving him a lonely look.
"Why do you need to know!" Kagome snapped.
"I'm sorry! I'll leave!"
Sesshoumaru made for the door…
"Sesshoumaru, come here! What's going on?"
"I…I…they…touched me…"
Kagome gasped.
"They touched you?"
"Yes…and I am a…I am a virgin, I know nothing…"
"Oh, man…oh, man…"
Kagome took a deep breath.
"Well, Sesshoumaru, it's like this. Girls and boys reach an certain age at which…they…um, change. Boys grow…there…and girls grow at their…chests…
"So…um…then sometimes, boys and girls get to like each other a lot. When they do, and they decide on a long-term commitment…they decide to do it…um…have sex."
"Mating?"
"Yes, mating."
"Go on…"
"So…um…well, I took health class, so I know, but…um…well…has your…that…ever…um…gotten hard…?"
"Hn? What is a…ahh…I see…"
"Yeah…has it?"
"Yes…" Sesshoumaru said, swallowing hard. He then proceeded to tell Kagome about what Zanmaru and Tima had done to him, beyond verbal and physical abuse.
"Oh, that's awful, Sesshoumaru!" she said in dismay and pity. "In fact, in my home, Tima and Zanmaru would probably have gotten life in prison for all they did!"
"That is not part of the conversation," Sesshoumaru said softly. "We must concentrate on the here and now."
"Oh…Right…"
"So, um…when two people 'mate,' the boy puts his…that…into a girl's that…"
"I understand…Kagome?"
Sesshoumaru tilted his head.
"Are you a virgin as well?" he asked curiously. "You do not have to answer if you do not wish to…"
"Uh…yeah, I am."
"I apologize for this. Women your age are usually…well…betrothed."
"And it's not strange at all that you aren't mated?" Kagome shot back.
Sesshoumaru sort of glared at her in reprove, then turned away.
"I am but 19, but yes, I should have mated. In fact, I should have already sired a suitable heir."
"Why haven't you?"
"I…I do not believe I should mate for regulation. I believe in mating for love. And I have yet to find a loving Inu Youkai. That aside, I believe we mate much too young…"
"Oh…well…did you really feel as bad as you said when Tima 'touched' you?"
"…yes…"
"…well then…if you want…you can use me…" Kagome said. She was frightened beyond belief when she said that, but it was the only way she thought she could help. And she really wanted to help him…
"What!"
"I said…you can use my body…"
"With all due respect Kagome, I would never…You need not degrade yourself further by doing this…you are…"
"What? A human?"
"No…you are a virgin."
"Why don't you two have a good rut?"
Both youkai and ningen eyes turned to Inuyasha.
"Inuyasha, I didn't mean it like that. I mean, he went through…"
"I know what he went through!" Inuyasha spat. "And I feel horrible for that, but…just giving the bastard your body to do as he pleases? You both disgust me!"
"But Inuyasha, I would never force myself upon her…" Sesshoumaru argued pleadingly.
"Get out of my group! Get out! You don't belong here!"
Inuyasha curled his fingers and slashed at Sesshoumaru's face.
"Argh!"
The taiyoukai's face was marred by four extremely deep gashes. In the center one, even his cheek bone had been cut through slightly.
"Stop it, Inuyasha!" Kagome cried.
"Or what, you bitch? You won't bed with me? Please, oh please do it! You make me sick!"
Inuyasha slashed his brother's fair-mended chest. Sesshoumaru howled as his newly healed breast was split open once more.
"GET OUT!"
Sesshoumaru collapsed in a dead faint and Inuyasha growled, picking him up and chucking him into the forest.
"You! Jaken and Rin! Get out now!" he screamed, spit flying from his mouth. "GO!"
Rin began to bawl as she saw her Lord Sesshoumaru with a pool of blood steadily surrounding him.
"R-Rin…" the demon slurred softly, barely able to endure his pain, "c-come on…it'll be…'kay…unh…"
He tried vainly to rise, but collapsed back down. Inuyasha, still driven by mad rage, viciously kicked his brother in the chest.
"You ass. You're so…ARGH!"
Rin bit Inuyasha's leg and clawed at his thigh.
"You leave Lord Sesshoumaru alone!" she screamed. "You go away!"
"Get off!" Inuyasha snarled, kicking her off.
Instantly, he felt a set of trembling claws at his throat.
"Y-you will not touch Rin," Sesshoumaru growled. "She h-has n-not done a thing to you…"
Sesshoumaru's claws nicked his neck slightly at Inuyasha's neck, sliding through the skin like water through a sieve.
"Make me. I dare you!"
Sesshoumaru struggled to stay up and squeeze his "point" into Inuyasha's neck. With a growl of pain, he fell back down.
"I…I have l-lost t-t-too much b-blood…unh…"
Sesshoumaru paused to cough, then began again.
"Inu…yasha…I…I acknowledge Kagome as your mate. I have acknowledged it for a long time….so…I could…never…m-m-mate w-with…"
He passed out before finishing, but even then, Inuyasha realized one more how frightened and sensitive his elder brother had become. He sighed.
"I'm sorry, Sesshoumaru…" he whispered.
"And I'm sorry, Rin."
So saying, the Inu Hanyou carried his brother bridal-style back into the hut. He moaned in pain and discomfort as Inuyasha set him down.
"Kagome…" Inuyasha began, turning to Kagome, who was on the other side of the hut. "I…I'm really sorry…I know it isn't enough to remedy my nastiness, but I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me…"
"Inuyasha…"
Kagome ran forward and leapt into his arms.
"I'm sorry too! I should never have said that! I didn't know what I was thinking…I was just thinking that I wish there was something I could do to help Sesshoumaru, because he's so hurt…"
R and R please!