And Then There Were Two

by TWbasketcase

Monday doesn't turn out as planned and two members of the club stick together. Through hell and high water they go until they come to a realization.

21. The Promise That We Made

Title: And Then There Were Two
Author: TWBasketcase
Chapter Summary: Well I guess the most logical place would be to start where we left off, so we will do that…this time in Johnny's POV.
Disclaimer: I do not own the lyrics to the song, 'Iris'…the Goo Goo's do. So don't freakin' sue.
A/N: Just wanna shout out to my girls; Tracebo, DarkoBender, Moonjava, Hannah, BraveWolf, Two Bit's Twobit, Ailcia, KushelKitten, Lusmeitli, RealDramaQueen817, Jessesgirl29, and last but not least my dear Billy Crazy. You guys are awesome and I hope you all like this chapter. We are getting closer to the end now, so be sure to let me know what you think:)

Chapter 21 – The Promise That We Made

She looked at me with wet eyes, "John I'm your friend…I wouldn't hurt you." The sincerity of the words just took a crack at my heart; and for once in my life I actually trusted someone's words. It's kind of a new thing for me. Her eyes were just staring holes into my face and suddenly I was just so overwhelmed by it I felt like getting down on my knees and kissing her feet…just telling her I'd do anything for her…just because she touched me that much. I usually don't take chicks this seriously but when one goes out of her way any way possible just to watch over you its different…insanely different.

"I know that's why I love you."

Love.

Love.

LOVE?

WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST SAY? Oh dear lord…I felt my eyes widen and my jaw drop; man if I could count the amount of times people have told me that my mouth would get me into trouble someday, it would take me years. Now I kinda wish I woulda listened.

Her eyes widened and she stiffened, "What?"

I furrowed my eyebrows and decided to play dumb, "Huh?"

She narrowed her eyes – oh shit – and folded her arms, "What did you just say?"

"What are you talkin' about?" I asked rolling my eyes around, "Whatever I said it was probably just the concussion talking…Al…my dad really fucked me up."

She nodded her head slowly yet never took her eyes away from me, "Yeah…okay."

My heart sank and suddenly I got real nervous; what the fuck did I just do? This is just turning into one crappy ass day that's for sure.

"Why did you say that?"

My heart pace picked up, "Listen just forget it happened okay! I'm hurt and that's what the topic of conversation here."

Her face fell and she nodded; she folded her hands in her lap and looked at the ground and let out a small voice, "Okay."

I closed my eyes and clenched my jaw; god dammit! "Look Ally, I'm sorry okay? I'm just fucked! I'm fucked right the fuck up and I don't know what to fucking do anymore!"

A tear rolled down her cheek and she nodded, "I know…me too."

I grabbed at my face in frustration, "No! You are not fucked up! I'm fucked up and all I do is end up dragging you through hell and high water and back and I am damn sick and tired of it, okay?"

More tears left trails down her face and she sniffled, "…No."

"YES! Do you not realize that just a week and a half ago me and you…us…we sat in detention and decided to stay friends…and ever since then everything is shit!"

She let out a sob and put her hand over her mouth.

"I introduce you to my friends and they try and to take advantage of you…then…I kick the crap out of my friend…who I thought was my best friend…for you!"

She closed her eyes, "I'm sorry…"

I scowled, "Don't you say sorry! It doesn't change anything! Then I almost get the shit kicked outta me for bringing ya back to my house and you sleep in my fucking bed the whole time…and you know what I did while you did that?"

She just looked at me blankly and obviously hurting, "No…"

"I sat there and I watched you…the whole god damn time, thinking, why? Why the fuck did I do this…how could I let something so shitty happen! I…I…fucking wanted to die just for that to take it all away…that was too much…but no it didn't end there!"

She watched me spill my anger with wide eyes and wet tears; I felt so bad for hurting her but I just couldn't stop myself.

"I brought you home…and then on my way home everything is blank…I wake up in a fucking hospital more fucked up than I EVER have been…I can't even think straight or move properly…and still you show up."

"I needed to see you…" She spat bitterly, "I needed to know you were okay!"

I fumed, "And then you totally rack my head by kissing me…and then you just skip out leaving me with nothing…NOTHING! You come back in the morning and take me home…and even THEN you STILL stick around!"

"You see me weak and you see me hurt…YOU SAW THE WAY I LOOK AND YOU JUST STARED! I felt like dying once again! Then to make matters even better, I'm so utterly defenseless that when my old man starts beating on my mom…when you're around…I do nothing but hide…and you saw it…and you still stick around!"

She started breathing heavier and she kinda looks like she is getting really pissy with me…but I just need her to listen; that's all I want, "And then to top it all off my old man comes and beats me down when I'm at my worst…and my mom…MY MOM…took the shit and got me the fuck outta there…and you weren't there…I needed you…" I felt my eyes watering up but I didn't care anymore…I couldn't get any lower than I already have been.

She scoffed angrily, "What do you want me to be your superman or something?"

"NO! But I needed you…yet here I am wondering why."

She let out another sob, "You wonder why? Because I am you're fucking friend…I care about you…I tried! After all that shit with Dez I still tried to look out for you even though through each day after that night I felt like a dirty whore! I hate myself, and my parents, the whole school…each passing person near me except for you and now it's blowing up in my fucking face! Fuck you John!"

My body tensed and the words stung worse than a slap in the face, "You don't mean that."

She widened her eyes as she got to her feet, "Don't I?"

I shook my head, "I don't know why you stuck around…I don't know why you wanted to be my friend…I'm shit!"

She shook her head sadly and wiped her eyes, "No you are selfish." And with that she spun on her heel and headed back towards the car. She was leaving me…alone…in my own misery…alone.

I stood up slowly and clutched my ribs, "Hey Allison!" She stopped in her tracks but didn't turn around; I could tell she was seething, "I'm glad you did though!"

She turned her head around slowly as the rain started to fall softly, "What?"

I kicked the ground with my foot and scratched the back of my head, "Through all that shit…I'm glad you did stick around."

She took a few steps towards me and then stopped when she was about five feet away; she shook her head incredulously, "What the fuck are you saying!"

I smirked, "You saved me…you stuck around and that means more than anything. More than anything that did happen, and more than anything that could have happened."

The rain started falling harder and by now I'm soaked, and so is she. Her hair clung to her face and here clothes were just hanging heavily off her body; she didn't say anything…she just stood there confused and disbelieving.

I turned to start walking in the other direction but stopped a few feet away, "And before we part our ways or whatever…I just want you to know…I meant what I said earlier. I wouldn't have said it if I didn't mean it. And if that still makes me selfish that's too damn bad…" I trailed off and turned around walking briskly through the rain. The wet grass was soaking through my old boots but the rain felt good.

The rain feels good when your heart is cracked in half. The shitty thing is though that I fucked it up for myself. Me and my stupid fucking inability to express emotional shit easily; I'm such a tart.

"John!" I heard her call. I had to keep going though…no sense and letting her shut me down.

"John!" She called again but this time she sounded closer…she must be running or something. I stopped in my tracks until I heard her come up behind me, breathing hard, "John?"

I sighed; but she grabbed my elbow and spun me around. I looked at her in the eye, "Don't do this okay? I already told you I couldn't handle anymore…"

"Shut up," She snapped cutting me off; she had rain rolling down her entire body and the ends of her hair were dripping, "I said shut up."

I furrowed my brows at her and tried to open my mouth to speak but she cut me off again, "I love you too."

I sat and stared at her disbelievingly, "What?"

"You heard me…I just needed you to know."

Suddenly any pain that I felt previously was gone and everything felt soft again…did she just say that to me? This is fucking twisted dream or something…it must be…

I stared her in the eyes for what seemed like an eternity and suddenly I just couldn't take it anymore…she lunged at me and I grabbed her in return and our mouths met. I held her tight no matter how much it hurt my ribs 'cause at that moment I just didn't give a fuck. I reached my hand up to her wet hair and just held it tight in my hand. She felt so soft and it was better than any medicine anyone could have given me.

Our tongues danced and we just stood there forever. The rain poured down soaking us; and for an early April day it felt pretty damn warm.

She pulled back from me and looked me in the eyes, "It's about damn time you did that."

I smiled and looked down at the ground, "Yeah I'd say so…"

I looked to the sky and watched as lightening struck…followed by loud roars of thunder. I don't think anything else could have suited us any better. We were like these two fucked up peas in a pod…its funny how things turned out. I never woulda thought it woulda got this messed up. But I guess through all the bad shit that did happen something good did come out of it…no matter how twisted and morbid the story was.

But now for the first time in weeks I felt good…everything is gonna be okay.

I looked back to her eyes and she gave me a small, nervous smile. I licked my lips and blinked, "Can I have another one of those?"

She let out a small chuckle, "Sure why the hell not."

Damn I must be in heaven.

TBC

End notes: Well I guess it was about damn time! It's pretty bad when you scream at your own damn story for those two idiots to get together! LOL Anyways, one more after this…then maybe I'll write an epilogue chapter or something that takes place like six months down the road or whatever. I just hope you liked it. Let me know what you think or whatever, then maybe I can figure out what I'm gonna do. Ha! Until next time guys,

UPDATE: Song lyrics were taken down so I would not get in trouble with the site and get my story deleted. Thanks all.

Kristen