Note: Written for the Goodbye challenge at the yuridrabbles livejournal community.
Pairings: SirenexClaudine, SirenexAndrew
Warning: Spoilers for all but the end of Claudine.
Disclaimer: Claudine is copyright Ikeda Riyoko and Shuueisha. I am using the characters for non-profit entertainment purposes only. The title of this drabble comes from the quote, "The dreams of youth are the regrets of maturity," from the movie Legend.My heart, that traitorous organ, has made its choice. And it has made a liar of me. Though I told her that the whole of my being was in her possession, I realize now that I spoke falsely, or perhaps merely too hastily; naively thinking that the sum total of my emotions were invested in this one woman, I gave myself to her, and led us both to heartbreak. But I know now that my heart belongs to another, and I can stay with Claudine no longer.
I pray that we can remain friends. To lose her would be to rob myself of one of the greatest sources of joy in my life. To lose a dear friend.
I know that my leaving will devastate her, and that it is selfish of me to want them both. But I have made my choice. I have regrets-- no longer will I succumb to the idealistic fiction that a decision can be made without them-- but they are bearable. I will be happy, though it pains me to know that she may not be.
Forgive me, my sweet Claudine. I have betrayed you, and now I shall twist the knife deeper. I'm leaving you, though you don't know it yet. I don't want things to go back to the way they used to be. I cannot be your lover any longer. I'm sorry.
Goodbye.