Title: Learning to Fall

Rating: PG

I sat on the burgundy sofa in Sonny's house with the storm raging outside, thinking about my best friend and lover, Jason Morgan.

I was alone in the dark

Never let down my guard

Closed the curtain on my heart

My heart had been broken many times in only 28 years. I had loved and lost many people in my life. I had even vowed to never fall in love again...

So the world could not see

All the demons in me

Told myself I was free

I had hated falling in love with a man only to have that man take my heart and shred it to a million pieces then stomp all over it...

Then you showed me how wrong I could be

Then, I had met Jason. He had changed my life in many ways and the changes were for the better...

Now I'm standing on a mountain of rubble

That once was a wall

Took years to build around me

And you came along

And you tore it down

Like it was nothing at all

Now it's a little scary

Learning to Fall

Falling in love again, now that was hard for me...

When you looked in my eyes

Past the fear and false pride

You saw goodness inside

At first, we strongly disliked each other, he even tried to pay me to leave town after he found out I was sleeping with his boss, Sonny, while Sonny and his wife were broken up. I held my own though. Who knew that, now, Jason could look into my eyes and see a girl who had her heart broken time and time again and still love me?

I can't believe how I feel

I believe love is real

And I'm ready to heal

I didn't even realize how hard and how fast I had fallen for Jason until after my baby girl was still born. Jason was always there for me. Holding my hand, comforting me, telling me that my daughter was in Heaven and will always be there to talk to.

You show me how right I can be

I look into Jason's eyes and all I can see is love for me reflected back. He has shown me that I am worthy of love and that I can make right choices. The best right choice I have ever made was loving Jason and allowing him to love me back...

Now I'm standing on a mountain of rubble

That once was a wall

Took years to build around me

And you came along

And you tore it down

Like it was nothing at all

Now it's a little scary

Learning to Fall

Now that I have fallen in love, for the first time I am happy and content. In my eyes, Jason could do no wrong. I love that man more than I have ever loved any man in my life...

I was holding on, now I'm letting go

I was holding on, now I'm letting go

I was holding on, now I'm letting go

I always felt like I was holding onto my heart. Just to make sure that no one could come into my life, take my heart in their hands and break it all over again, until Jason...

Now I'm standing on a mountain of rubble

That once was a wall

Took years to build around me

And you came along

And you tore it down

Like it was nothing at all

Now it's a little scary

Learning to Fall

Jason is my rock. He is there for me when I need him most. He is my world, my life and the love of my life. I feel so blessed to be able to love him. I love Jason Morgan, forever and always.