Disillusioned

How would the world of Teen Titans change if the Apprentice series ended differently? What if Slade was indeed right, and the remaining Titans had no clue of the probes in their bodies and the rift betwen Robin and the group continued to grow?

Ten years into the future... what has become of them all.

Robin or Apprentice, has been given the responsibility of leading Slade's Arsenal, his army so to speak. Slade sees ill and has been weakening over the past ten years.

The Titans have recovered partially with a couple new full time members such as Bumblebee, Aqualad and Speedy. There is a tension creeping through out the tower. Starfire and Aqualad suffer through the pains of the past. Raven can't stand the tension and the under current of negative emotions flowing through the tower. Worst of all, she can't take Beats Boy's lack of trust in her and her ability.

There's more to her own lack of trust in him. Changeling seems borderline erratic, tense. What's going on and who is Terra?

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"Je cherche une me, qui pourra maider"

"I look for a soul who is able to help me. "

Chapter 4: Reclusive Solitaire

Raven. I know something is troubling her. it seems she always wants to shut me- us out...

I can't take it anymore! I know she'll loose it, she'll let Rage consume her and betray us all...

I won't give up until I get a smile...

The simple pleasure that used to be to see one smile. A friend. Nothing made me happier then the joy of those around me. Laughter...

So much has changed. She has changed. Just when I think Raven and I are fine, she pulls away still further from me.

As have Starfire and Cyborg.

They're all pulling away and leaving me alone.

Terra.

I smile sardonically at the though of her. She's such a free spirit, a will of her own outside of Slade's influence. So open and vibrant.

She actually laughs at my jokes. Jokes I thought I no longer had the heart to tell. She's so pretty and...

I know it's wrong. I know she's the enemy, but if I could be me for one damn moment with her.... I guess it's worth it. It's not like I'd sacrifice my team for her. It's not like I'd fight against them for her.

But...

She actually laughs.... and I love the sound of laughter.

She laughed softly as wind caressed her golden hair. She leaned against the back of the chair, sitting backwards, straddling it. The silver of her uniform glinting under the soft light.

Changeling smirks at her, titling his head. "You slay me...." she breathed, sighing and watching him, smirking.

He looked down at his meal and frowned. "Terra.... why do we... have to fight."

She frowned. She sighed and curled blonde hair behind her ear. "Because what you and your teammates fight for... is an illusion, a mockery of their abilities... What is justice, Changeling?" She whispered, reaching to him and touching his.

"It's not just that, Terra... we're friends..."

"Friends who don't trust each other?" She whispered, pulling her hand away and resting her hands on the table again, meeting his gaze. "Not much of a friendship to me."

He gave a stern glare. "terra-"

"A least we at the Arsenal don't delude ourselves. We know what we are... we know where the line is drawn. And we can depend on each other for that, no strings attached." She sighed, tossing money onto the table.

"This tango we dance is dizzying, love, but sooner or later, we'll have to face different music." she murmured.

Changeling sighed, paying for his own meal and standing before her. "terra... I really like you... but why don't you join us?"

"Im having the time of my life! I can fraternize with the enemy and still be able to sleep at night! What is there not to like about the stance I take? While you... you suffer every day batting around your conscience just talking to me... allowing ideals imposed to you by the very man who betrayed you rule your every action, leading you into still more and more turmoil, mayhem, and depression..."

Her arguments were so seducing.

"I'm not the one with the problem, Changeling..." she leaned closer and stroked a wisp of his hair as her lips hovered near his. "You are." And kissed him softly.

Terra pulled away from him, resting her hands n her hips, eyeing him. He sighed and looked away. "I like you... but I love my friends too much... I could never betray them..."

"But they think you will.... Raven thinks you will." He turned to her and she rolled her eyes. "She has empathy, remember?" she called back as she walked away. He frowned as he watched her.

She laughed richly. "See ya 'round!" she waved, leaving their diner.

The green impish male made his way back to teh Tower, deeply contemplating.

He woudl never... would he? Was he comprimising the team just by having diner with her?

It wasn't like he was giving her information to rule the world with. Just someone to ... talk to. Since he found it so damn hard to talk to anyone here.

Sigh.

"I shouldn't have lost my temper..." He whispered as he entered his room. He removed his shirt and sat on his bed.

"I wouldn't... is that why? she should know..." He closed his eyes.

He liked Terra. But he would never do to his comrades... What Robin did.

Was that so complicated?

He closed his eyes as he laid n his bed. Finally..... this day was over. And so, he drifted into a restless and fitful slumber.

Tomorrow things would be clearer, no?

They had to be, things always seemed darker n the day of betrayal.

"I would.. ever..." he murmured.

Next Chapter: The sunsets on the Day Of Betrayal that sting each Titan so... Changeling seems to have an amiable acquaintance in Terra, one of Slade's Arsenal. The depth of this relationship seems to cause tension between him and Raven. No one else has noticed.

Terra seems to be mysterious and has an ulterior motive lost on the naive Changeling.What is the ulterior motive and ultimate goal of the Arsenal, Apprentice and Slade?

A/N Terra came into the series after Apprentice. She is a key character in my fic so incorporated her in a slight alternate form but still pretty much the same basic arc she is known for. -