It's Not Meant for Me
Hello!!! I'm so in a creative mode!!! I wanted to stop the suspense for some and give you the second person in our romantic angst ficcy here. I promised Vegeta's lil princess that I woundn't draw out her story and I won't. So her you go.
Disclaimer: Go to chapter one.
He laid in bed silently as the woman beside him slept soundly. As she muzzled closer to him, he blinked slowly and thought with a sigh,
This is that point where I 'should' get all warm and fuzzy inside but yet again, I feel nothing.
He remained as still as he possibly knew how until he noticed the woman's steady breathing turn into a soft snore. He then attempted to lift his heavy body out of the bed without waking his partner to no avail. In a sleepy, raspy voice, the woman asked,
"Raven hair, where are you going? It's the middle of the night." He turned to look at the women with an expressionless, but expected face and said in a monotone voice,
"I can't rest so I'm going to the roof to get some air." The woman looked at him with dark, almost navy blue eyes and yawned. She stretched and turned over as she mumbled in her sleep-intoxicated voice,
"Make sure you warm up before you come back to bed. I hate it when you feel cold as ice." The black-haired man nodded as he grabbed his favorite jeans of the closet doorknob and slid them on.
As he softly landed on the roof, he closed his eyes, relishing the soft wind whipping his hair around and idly thought about the woman sleeping below in his bedroom.
Tsubaki and I have been together for three and a half years and I can honestly say my feelings for her are no more than physical. Yes, she's beautiful and highly intelligent but she so cold and detached emotionally. I'd swear if I didn't know her I would think she was like me, an android. When we talk, it's like talking to a co-worker or a businessperson and not my girlfriend, the woman who may someday be my wife. I think the only reason I remain with her is that she accepts me the way I am and understands that I didn't choose to be like this. She also forgives my sister and my past transgressions and I know that will be hard to find.
Juunanagou remained on the roof until he saw the sun attempting to devour the darkness that brought him solitude and began to hear the city below awake progressively as more light shed on it. He went back into his condo and flared his ki slightly to warm his flesh as Tsubaki requested before he left. As he lowered himself onto the bed he looked over to the woman who has shared his bed at least three nights a week for the past three years and wondered if he put his mind to it could he go beyond just caring for her and begin to love her. As soon as the thought entered his mind, a little voice asked him,
'Are you capable of love?'
The light drowsiness his mind allowed him to feel immediately washed away as he pondered on the question.
I am I capable of love? Of course…I think. Juuhachi is capable of it, why shouldn't I be? She would die for Krillin and Marron. I would die for her and Marron!!! However, would I die for them as a sense of obligation or because I truly love them? I don't know. Why would Dr. Gero allow her to feel love and not me? Maybe because she's a woman and… Juu, get that out of your head!!! You have to be able to feel love. I am after all still human or at least partially human.
The man laid in bed and watched the sunrise over the city's skyline. It was one of his favorite things to do but for the first time he realized that he didn't have an emotion to convey why he enjoyed it so much. He looked over at Tsubaki and knew that she looked almost angelic with her auburn-highlighted brown hair sprayed across her pillow but he still didn't feel anything. He lifted off the bed to get a full view of the woman and show how soft her features were and how flawless her skin looked, but he felt nothing. He saw the trace of her toned body through the sheet and noticed the only emotion he felt was lust and passion. Tsubaki turned over, grabbed his pillow and inhaled deeply. Juunanagou knew for sure that this woman loved him but he didn't love her back. With that revelation, he walked out of the room and with to his living room as he sat on the sofa he said to himself,
Maybe Gero didn't want to erase so many emotions in Juuhachi because she's a woman and women are more emotional but he really could've kept some of mine around too. Looks like the old doctor never meant for me to love. That really sucks because now I have to let Tsubaki go.
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Looking out on the rest of our lives
If we're going to be together or apart
About the only way that I know how to come
Is right straight from my heart
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Yes, it's 17!!!! I know it doesn't sound like the typical loner 17 but that's so on purpose. I feel there aren't a lot of people who give him his props. If 18 is multi-faced why isn't her twin brother? I'm tired of him living in the woods and not associating with civilization. 17 deserves to be forgiven!!!! Anyways enough of my ranting on 17's behalf. Please R&R…
Vegeta's Lil Princess: I'm honor to know you!!! You're an inspiration.
BrandonB: Wuzzup!!! Yes I'm back, I plan on staying around for a while too. Thanks for the review. I'm going have to get back to your story.
Utanbisaya: Thanks for updating all my fics!!! You are so nice. I hope I haven't lost you with this chapter… You may want to read 'My Favorite Girl' also because there some interaction with Bra and Goten.