Chapter 7

"Every night I save you." Looking at him she remembered the look on his face as he looked at her after she had returned, the way his eyes held her as if, if they ever left her she would vanish. Looking at him now she wondered if she could save him. She wondered why she wanted to save him. She watched as he sat on the chair his shoulders shrunk in defeat, this was not how she knew Spike. He seemed destroyed other then a few phrases which sounded like her spike. Her spike why did she think that. He was not her's she was not his. A soul, he had got a soul for her.

"Every night I save you." She whispered, she knew he could hear her even if Willow couldn't. she watched as he turned his bandaged face towards her.

"And every night I fail. I always fail. I'm sorry." He whispered softly, the sorrow in his voice broke her heart. She went to him and knelt by the chair. He went to touch her but stopped, his hands shaking, she hadn't noticed but his hands were covered in blood, his blood. How had he taken his eyes out? As soon as she thought of the question she knew she didn't want the answer. She could still make out the burns from the cross he had repeatedly placed on his torso and legs, her tan coat tight across his waist.

"It's nearly dawn, I'm going to take Spike back to mine today, you go researchy for me. We won't tell Xander anything okay you get Tara onto this though. But only us three should know Spike is back." Buffy said as she helped Spike stand. Willow nodded as she already flipped through a book looking for the Dadann.

"Leave me in the sun, I want to feel it tingle." He sighed as she helped him.

"Don't you pull a Drusilla on me, I know you aren't that bad so William Austen, why did you never tell us your real name?" Buffy sighed as they slowly made their way to her house.

"You never asked." He sighed softly as she opened the door as they we walked towards her home.

"Come in Spike you are welcome in my home." She said as she helped him cross the threshold.

"Oh thank you. I'm sorry" he whispered as she helped him over the threshold pf her house.