Drumroll please...The truth about the fight and Kimi's cutting are going to come out in this chapter! Thank you all for reviewing!

Chapter four-The truth (Phil's POV)

We're the best of friends,

And we share our secrets,

She knows everything that is on my mind.

Lately something's changed…

Jesse McCartney, Why don't you kiss her?

Idiot. I'm such an idiot.

Today will change my life forever. I'm so stupid.

What have I done?

Today started out as normal as anything. I slammed the sleep button on my alarm clock three times before Lil screamed at me to shut it off and come downstairs for breakfast.

I went downstairs, ate three cookies with milk, went upstairs, got dressed, and went outside with Lil and we talked while we were waiting for the bus.

"Hey Lil?" I asked my sister.

"Mmm?" She answers.

"How's Kimi doing?"

She glares in response. I hadn't talked to Kimi a lot since basketball season started.

"Ok…" I change the subject, "Umm, what's new with you?"

"Well, Tommy and I were talking the other day and we're going to the movies on Friday…" She starts; I cut her off.

"Are you going out with him yet?"

"WHAT?" She freaks. Her face gets all red.

"You have liked the kid forever, sis. I think he has a thing for you, too."

"No, we aren't."

Unfortunately, we didn't have enough time to fight about it because our bus came.

It was later when I was walking with the guys when it happened.

We were all walking to third period. Everyone was tired and bored so they decided to pick on the first person they saw. Unfortunately, that person was Kimi. It accidentally slipped out that Kimi cuts to the guys at Brock's party after one of our winning games.

"Hey, Phil, isn't that the cutter girl you told us about?" Anthony Jandea, one of our main players, asked me.

The rest of the team agreed.

"HEY, CUTTER GIRL!" He called to Kimi.

I was so stupid. I was the only one she told. She didn't even tell her brother, let alone her friends.

Kimi swirled around and headed our direction.

Without a word, she punched me in my stomach.

Then I did a stupid thing.

I punched her back. Hard. I missed her nose, but I got her lips instead.

She pushes me down to the floor.

One of the guys pushed her down.

She punched me in the eye.

I pulled her hair.

She punches my arm.

I punch her chin.

She then had me in a headlock.

If I weren't delirious, I would've believed that she muttered that she loved me. (That was most likely my dream delusions.)

The next thing I know, I'm heading to the nurse's office.

Mom wouldn't believe that I didn't start the fight.

She thinks Kimi is her other daughter.

Man oh Man, my stomach is killing me. It hurts to open my eye.

I peer over to Kimi.

Her lip is bleeding, and she has her arms folded across her chest like she was ready to pounce again. I see a trace of a bruise forming on her face, around her chin, actually.

The nurse comes and checks Kimi out first.

"Hmm." She inspects. She hands Kimi an ice pack. "Put this on your lip for a while."

She turns to me and hands me an ice pack, too.

Amazing. I used to think Kimi and I were best friends until we drifted at the beginning of school.

The best of friends; we used to share every single secret.

It really scared me when I found out Kimi was a cutter.

Flashback

Kimi and I were in her (Kimi's) room and we were just talking.

" Here. The only way to play hot hands is to lay your hands out flat."

"Oh come on. If you're going to teach me how to play this freaky girl game, at least shut off that noise coming from your stereo."

"Ha ha. I thought you liked Linkin' Park. What happened when you were horribly singing to them the other day?" She questions.

" Yeah, buy just not their old c.d. I can't stand listening to something old over and over."

I jokingly moan.

Kimi gets up and switches the c.d. to American Idiot.

"Now this is more like it. Green Day rocks! So you lay your hands out flat…"

This goes on for another four minutes.

"I finally get the point of this game. It goes like this: if you start to play this game, you really must be bored and mindless. Especially if you are a guy."

I sum up.

Kimi rolled her eyes and she puts her hands out, palms up.

That's when I saw them: little red and pinkish healing marks.

Cuts.

There were a lot of them.

I stared at them for almost a minute.

I just couldn't believe it.

She noticed I saw them, and then she pulled her arms straight to her side.

"What. The. Heck." my cold and disbelieving words that came from my lips.

I thought I was about to pass out.

Kimi bit her lip and started to cry.

I went over to her and stroked her hair while she was sobbing.

I just didn't understand why.

"Why Kimi?" I asked

"I can't tell you, okay!"

That really shocked me.

When she calmed, she said,

" If you didn't notice, I'm not the most beautiful or smart girl in our grade."

"Yes, you are."

"I don't fit in!" She cried "Not at school or even at home! I'm just the girl everyone sees, but they don't know who I really am or even what my name is! You, Lil, Tommy, Z, and Chuckie are my only friends. You and everyone else have loads more friends then me."

She started to cry all over again.

Before I left Kimi's house, Kimi made me swear that, besides the guidance councilor, I would never tell.

The next day at school, we went to the guidance office.

End Flashback

Now I've told her deepest and darkest secret.

How stupid am I?

We never had a true fight, physical or verbal.

This was our first fight.

Ever.

I wish that this had never happened.

"Okay. It's about time that you two should head up." The nurse tells us.

I'm nervous, really nervous.

This never happened in my wildest dreams. (Kissing Kimi in one of my dreams did happen)

I should have never told.

She trusted me.

"It's all your fault!"

The words screamed in my head over and over after I heard it with my own ears.

She looks beautiful, even with her marked up face.

We solemnly head up to the office. I noticed that she wouldn't look at me, even if I were on fire.

I still can't believe we're here.

Right now.

After fighting!

A part of me is wanting to say I'm sorry and tell her that I like her, but I know it wouldn't be that easy.

I figure I would have to do something way bigger than that.

What should I do?

Oh.

I got it.

Hmm...so that's how it started! So it really is true, Phil liking Kimi. If any of you are wondering where Susie Carmichael is, she'll be in Chapter Six. R&R!

Ihearu!