Here you go! My thanks for this story comes from the inspiration and suggestionsof my reviewers! I'm so sorry it took sooo long to get this out...but i have been having so much trouble with my friends and I got in a huge fight with the guy I like, and I went on vacation...but enough with my life...

And on to the next chapter!

Chapter 8-Worried (Chuckie's POV) (A/N: this is a day after the last chapter)

Look at this, at what you do,

Look inside to find the truth,

Try and understand what we're trying to do,

Look, please, we're trying to help you.

My 1 friend's band's lyrics (the punk pozerz)

I walked down the hallway to her room, thoughts running through my head. I never knew that things could get so confusing. I knocked gently on Kimi's door.

"Kimi? Can I come in?"

"Enter." She says.

Kimi is lying on her bed with schoolbooks surrounding her. She looks like she is in a trance, staring ahead.

"Kim? What's wrong?" I ask curiously

She just pointed to her computer.

I went and looked.

She was on AIM and there was Phil's away message popped up.

'SINGLE NO MORE! Yess…bbs'

I went over to Kimi and asked her a question that we used to ask each other when we were younger and wild,
"Kimi, where does it hurt?"

And she pointed to her heart.

"It's not fair Chuckie…" She said so softly that I could barely hear her.

I nodded. Who was it?

"Who is it?" I asked gently.

"I have no clue. I don't wanna find out either. Angelica, Savannah, and everyone else have been trying to IM me, but I don't wanna hear about everything."

Ring-Ring…the phone rang…

I quickly picked it up, not taking my eyes off of Kimi.

"Susie? Oh...yeah…she doesn't wanna know…Can you please come over? And bring Angie?" I ask, as Kimi keeps mouthing, 'no!', "Thanks. See you soon?"

"WHY THE HELL?" She swears angrily, in a rage now.

"What's wrong?" I ask innocently

"Angelica is gonna kill me! She freaks at the little things; like when Tommy and Dil were gonna go to Savannah's party by sneaking out!"

"Little! You think this is a LITTLE problem?" I freak out

She bites her lip, and softly says, "It's not a problem. I have it under control."

"KIMI! THIS IS HUGE! You don't know how bad this really is! You need to knock some sense into yourself! This could…this could kill you…" I trail off, seeing Kimi in tears.

I go over to her and put my arm around her.

"I'm so sorry, Chuckie…I should've told you earlier…" She whimpered

"Well…Phil was doing everything to help you."

"I hate him." She mutters angrily.

"No you don't. You just are angry with the girl that's going out with him."

Brinngg!

An instant message pops up.

Muzikfreak92: Kimi?

I type for her.

DramaQueen10: Hey, Phil. What's up?

Muzikfreak92: Umm…n2m…

DramaQueen10: Really? That's not what it seems…

Muzikfreak92: Ya…um…I got a girlfriend

Now Kimi is reading is reading over my shoulder.

DramaQueen10: Cool. Hey well g2g ttyl bye.

And I exit the program

"What'd you do that for? He's probably all confused now!"

I scrunch up my face and ask, "What do you mean?"

"We would each sign off saying something tacky or funny. Like a blonde joke, or something like that. And you signed off way too quick after he said that."

Oops. She's giving me a death look, and keeps knocking her head lightly against the wall.

Luckily, the doorbell saved me.

I traipsed downstairs to open the door, and I saw Susie and Angelica already sitting on my couch.

"How did you guys get in?" I ask, confused

"Um, we've known each other since like, birth, practically. You think we don't have keys?" Angelica answers, sounding edgy.

"Oh yeah," I say, "Kimi's upstairs and she's really upset. With this whole thing…I just really don't want her to…y'know, cut."

Susie nods sympathetically while Angie winces.

We walk into Kimi's room, while she's humming "nobody likes me…"

"Hi, Kim." Angelica says plainly

Kimi just nods. Susie and Angelica find chairs and sit, while I sit next to Kimi on the bed.

Susie takes a deep breath and asks, "Kimi, do you want to hear who Phil is going out with?"

With tears in her eyes, she stays silent.

"Yes." Her strained voice said.

Angelica winces again and says…"We would've never guess she would date him, judging by the grade difference. As much as it pains me to say this…Savannah is going out with him."

She nods, in another trance.

"Now comes the hard part." Susie softly says

"W-what do you mean?"

"If you really want us to understand you, you have to show us how you feel. Kim…show us your…your cuts.

I nod, and I see that Angie is doing the same.

"Ok." She barely breathes.

She slowly pulls up her pant legs and her sleeves.

It scares me to the point where I want to literally cry.

There are so many cuts…some are fresh and red, some are pink and trying to heal.

We're all breathless, staring at them.

"K-Kimi…why?" I choke out

"Because of everything…Because of how I'm not what everyone wants me to be. Because of mom never being there for us anymore. Because it takes all of the pain away. Because of Phil forgetting about me. Because of trying to fit in. Because of last summer. Because I barely have any true friends."

There was silence for a couple seconds, then,

"Because I hate my life!"

Kimi's bawling; Susie and Angelica are in shock.

"Kimi. You got me. You got Angie, Susie, Lil, Tommy, me, and even Phil. When you even think of cutting, you could talk to one of us. You don't have to this. You don't have to hate your life." I force out.

"Please, Kimi, we can help you." Ange murmurs

My watch beeps erratically.

"Damn it!" I swore, "I'm sorry…but I really gotta meet Tommy at the Java Lava right now, he's really out of it right now. He won't tell me over the phone, but I can tell something's wrong; he's been so out of it lately. I'll see you guys soon."

And I rush out of the house.

I quickly get to the Java Lava; Tommy was already waiting for me.

"Hey. What's up?"

"You will never guess who is staying at my house right now."

I make a face and ask, "I'll bite. Who?"

"Lil!" He stresses

"WHAT!" I say so loud that dad and Betty look at me.

"Yeah. She's so shaken up…her parents are getting a divorce, you know. When her parents told her, she ran crying to me. It was so…heartbreaking."

I nod in response.

"And as for another thing, before Phil ran outside to tell Lil about the divorce after school…and we almost…kissed."

My mouth gapes, "Oh my gosh! You can't be serious!"

"Yeah. And we were watching 'hide and seek' yesterday, she grabbed my hand…and we didn't let go for the rest of the movie."

"Wow. It's about time you two make your moves."

He seems a bit uncomfortable, so he says,

"Change of topic. What's new with Kim?"

"Well…when I left Angie and Susie were trying to knock some sense into her. By the way, did you know that Phil got a new girlfriend?"

"No way! Who?"

"Savannah!"

"No way! I thought she only dated older guys!"

"I guess not…it's sort of an age gap though, a freshman going out with an eighth grader. It's a little odd. When did his interest spark in her interest spark anyway? I have always thought of him and Kimi together, like the best friends they were."

"Me too. I guess because Savannah is older and popular? I don't know."

"Everything is so messed up. Who would have thought, 3 years ago, that we would be dealing with things like this? All we cared about then was video games and candy."

"Everything has gone so…weird."

We just nod, thinking, 'what next?'

Then it clicks in my head.

"Tommy, we have to make everything work out. We have to get Phil and Kimi together. We have to get Mrs. And Mr. Deville to work things out. And, as much as you don't want to hear this, you and Lil need to get together." I say, and it sounds even better out loud than in my head.

"Chuck, besides the point of me and Lil getting together, I say you have a pretty good idea there."

I smile inwardly; there is no doubt Lil and Tommy are gonna get together, with our plan or not.

BZZT-BZZT

Tommy's cell phone vibrated, and before he answers, I know for a fact that it's Lil.

I mouth, "See ya later." And head out.

I decide to walk back to my house, to see how Angelica and Susie are coping with Kimi.

When the house comes in view, I see Phil knocking on the front door.

"Phil?" I ask cautiously.

"Oh, hey Chuckie. What's up?"

"Umm, I was about to ask you the same thing, like why you're standing outside of my house."

"Well…it's about Kimi. She's acting weird. Like I tried to talk to her online and she just signed off. Maybe it's because I got a girlfriend. I don't see why she'd act this way though."

I roll my eyes. He is so clueless! "Well, maybe you should know that little things affect Kimi…those were some of the reasons she…cut," I cringe, but keep explaining, "And maybe the fact that Savannah told everyone she knew and everyone knew you. Complete strangers knew you two were going out before one of your best and closest friend…can you imagine how she feels now?"

He suddenly realizes what he did.

"She hates me, doesn't she?"

"No. Maybe. I don't know…but somehow you gotta make all of your wrongs right. If I you don't," I shiver, "Well…I don't want to even think of what could happen."

"How could I have missed this? I forgot to tell her. Oh man, I'm such a jerk."

I show him a little sympathy, and say, "No you aren't. Come on, you have been there for Kimi when no one else has. She trusted you, no matter how hard things got. Just go home, and go online and talk to her. Make her trust you again. I would let you go inside…but Angie and Susie are over and they are trying to get Kimi not to cut…so…"

"Yeah. I get it. Thanks for the advice Chuck. It might actually work." He says, and jogs back to his house.

I smile to myself. I now know for a fact that Phil really likes Kimi, as much as Kimi likes Phil.

claps to herself yay! amazing that I can fit in Tommy and Lil romance, as well as Phil and Kimi romance. I wasn't really expecting Savannah to be Phil's gf...but I was dying to twist something...anyway, review...please! give any comments or suggestions... and you can help me see where this story is going...cuz I have no clue! until the next chapter (Which is Lil's POV)...

Ihearu