"Night Chi.." He said, but I was already going up stairs. I slammed the
door of my bedroom, than I got my diary from under the mattress. I started
to write every single thing, no details missing. "I don't want to ever
forget about tonight" was t3he last thing I said before I fell asleep. I
was conscious though. I started to think how it would be after school,
school? School!! I forgot about school. I started to pack my stuff.
Phone rang. "Hello?" I answered. "Hey Chi, where should we pick you up tomorrow?" It was Kakarotto. "Well umm I don't know, first you have to ask Sister Harmony if I can go." He snort "Are you kidding me?" "No, I'm serious, even Dad has to ask permission" "Well I'm not going to" "But you have to!!! Otherwise they wont let me go with you" "No way I have bad reputation with that Sister Harmony, so just wait for us in the big trash can that is on backyard, k?" "Wait I'm not even aloud to go in there, how am I supposed to.?" I got cutoff. "Just do it damnit!!!!" "All right, all right if your going to get that attitude with me, than never mind you moron!!!!" than I hung up.
It rang again not just once a bunch of times. I didn't want to pick up it was probably Kakarott. I knew he was mad, I could tell, and if I didn't pick up Dad would. So I did. "WHAT?!!!" I snapped. "Little bitch!!!" he paused "You think you are the shit huh? Well not with me you're not! And you better not hang up on me EVER, hear me EVER or fucking else!!!" "Leave me alone!!!" "Shit I'll leave whenever I want to leave you!!!" "What are you my damn stocker?!!!" "I'LL BE YOUR FUCKING STOCKER IF THAT PLEASES ME, UNDERSTAND?!!!!" "Can't talk to you right now, sorry, call me when you're not so hot headed!!!" I hung up again. It didn't matter he couldn't do anything over the phone, right? Wrong.
Next morning I woke up and tried to forget about Kakarott and company. I just had enough. I was scared of him, that couldn't be good. I know it because at school they told us that whenever we felt uncomfortable with anything we shouldn't be forced to do it. And let's face it Kakarott and his friends made me do things I didn't want to do all the time, and that was just one night. I couldn't picture what they'd force me to do next. I had to put all my personal problems away and force a big cheesy smile for my father, he deserved it after all.
"Have fun honey!!!" "Wait your not taking me Dad?" "No, one of you're friends is going to take you to school, since you two are going to the same place he offered" what friend? Yamcha? But he was boyfriend. And unfortunately he was the only friend I had before I became his former girlfriend. So who could it be.? "Now be nice girl and go, before you are late for school, he is waiting for you outside, don't make him wait hon!" he is a guy. I felt my stomach ache. I didn't want the person that was thinking of to be the one to taking me to school.
"Dad, is it Broli? Because I'm really not in the mood for." I got cutoff by my dad. "No, it's not Broli" he pushed me to the door. "Now honey don't make this young man wait, he is being awfully nice by offering to take you." He pushed me out; at least that's what it felt like. And shut the door. "Dad?" "Good morning Chichi" said the driver as he turned to face me. "Hi, I'm sorry I don't remember you" I said trying to be friendly. "I told you not to hang up on me" it was Kakarott. Man was I in trouble. "Ohh boy" "You bet" he said. "Get in" he said as he shoved me in the driver seat.
"You're going to drive us to school" my heart started to beat in a heavy tempo. "I don't know how to drive" I cried. Was I silly or what? Two minutes with that man and I was already crying. "Why you such a baby?" "I'm not a baby I just don't want to get killed just because I hung up on a.." I think what I was about to say was not really that necessary to be said. "Idiot!" "Pardon me?" I backed away I knew the guy was dangerous. "Move!!!!" I didn't know what he meant, or where to move. "Move damn it!!!" I rushed to the back seat, and seated as far as I could from him, just crying. "Shut up!!" I cried even harder "shut it damn it!!" And I cried in silence.
As we droved to school he said." You're paying for what you did yesterday, you know that?" I didn't dare to answer. "I'm going to make your life miserable until you apologize!" I filed myself with courage. "I'm sorry" I tottered. "Why you so mean to me girl?" that was it! Now I was the mean one?! "I'm mean?" "Hell yeah, and you show me no respect!" respect? "Well I would give you respect if earned it!" I said fully confident now. "I don't have to earn it girl, I own you" I was shocked, I wasn't a possession for him to own!!! "You don't own me!!!" he laughed. "Just kidding, I just don't like when people hang up on me you know, it was like you were trying to step on me and let me tell you that will never happen! Neither you nor anybody is ever going to step on me"
"I wasn't trying to do that" I got closer. "I just, I fell like I'm being manipulated by you guys." "Manipulated?" "Yeah, you guys make me to all kinds of stuff that I don't want to do." "Fine, lets not get ice cream than, if you hated ice cream you should have said so." "It's not the ice cream, I don't like to break rules" "you don't huh?" I went no with my head. "Well I guess you can kiss good bye our friendship, because all me and the guys do is break rules" he chucked "That and other stuff". "See what you are doing? You are manipulating me" "No I'm not, I'm just giving you the choice"
"Well what can I do to make you want to do 'bad' things like us" "Nothing, I would never so something bad on purpose" "But you have done bad stuff" "No, not really" "Yes you have" "Tell me one thing" "this was just in one day, you slandered us by saying we where raping rag-doll, than you drank alcohol, and you are under 18, you kissed me" he paused and laughed, I just rolled my eyes. "And you had a boyfriend, than you entered my property without my permission, shall I go on?" "No, I get the point, but still it isn't the same" "Why not?" "It's just my bad things are in another level."
"Really?" "Yeah" "Does it make you a better person? No, does it make you a worse person? No, than I don't see the difference." "Let's just forget about this" "Fine are we still friends" "Sure, why you want to be friends with me so much Kakarott?" "First of all you're funny. 2nd in a way you are like us, you don't have any friends, and the fact that I just started to like makes it all worth it" "you like me?" "yeah, your different than other girls, you are naïve for once, and sincere and all that stuff those other girls can't be" "Ohh" I said not really understanding "So will get that ice cream after school, and you have to be were I told you to, understand?" I nodded. "Don't get a tattoo too?" "Hahaha no, that would hurt you, you know." "I know I still wanted" he chucked.
"Baby steps Chichi, baby steps" I listened closely. "1st we've got to do something about that attitude" "what's wrong with my attitude?" "You won't let it out" "What do mean" "You are being like the chicks from school, just be who want to be, say what you have to say, be honest, you know?" "But I do that" "No, you don't" he got out a cigarette from under the seat; I moved and sat next to him so that the smoke wouldn't reach me. "Well ok, I can do that" "cool, now all you have to do is show some spunk, which I know you have it in you, I saw the way you stud up to Rebaka in the cafeteria" "That was a long time ago like in the beginning of my freshmen year, how do you know?" "Well she was my girlfriend back than" "Rebaka?!!! But I thought you liked people who where original, and she is unquestionably not an original"
"I know, it took me a while to figure that one" he threw the cigarette out the window; I knew the subject made him uncomfortable. "I can't believe you went out with her, why did you?" he concentrated on the road "I don't know it was like an obsession for me I guess" "Obsession over someone so cruel and conceited?" "I don't know..I don't know" I looked at him closely; I could tell that he still had some sort of feeling towards this Rebaka girl. "C'mon you tell me. I'm your friend remember?" "Well first I thought she was hot, because she was so innocent and" he bounced his head once. "Naïve" I faked laughed "her naïve?? Hahahaha please!!!"
He looked at me concerned. "She wasn't always like that" he paused trying to remember. "She was kind of like you, but she was stronger, and more ambitious, hell she was gorgeous" that stupid sentence about someone I hated so much made jealous as hell. "And my world rotated around her only, back than" I just kept listening it made me jealous as hell but, I knew he needed to get that out of his system.
"God I was stupid!!! I fell like an idiot into her tramp, she was a lion dressed in wool" "what's that supposed to mean?" he looked at the road. "Look she was like this huge faker; she faked to be innocent and defenseless. Than I made her my girlfriend, and she just fucked me the very first day, I didn't know much about that shit back than so I thought it was normal, than time showed me the real her." Conversation was getting interesting. "Turns out she was a fucking whore. Turns out everyone knew but me, turns out she was faking just to get my money, how stupid and pointless it that?!!!!!" I backed away a little he was getting angry. "Fuck a guy for money, that's fucking trippin'"
"You're money? Why? Didn't she have any or why would you let her dot that?" he looked at me disappointed like if I were Rebaka. "I was so stupid man, even do every one told me what she was doing I wouldn't listen, I didn't want to believe I stayed with her because I hoped that she would go back to the sweet naïve girl she used to be, silly me." "So, you ." I got cutoff "so I got obsessed I guess" "Obsessed with the sweet girl?" he chucked. "No" "Than?" "Sex I guess." "Just that? You could get that in a cat house, why stick around?" "No, she did it different than anyone; I think I still want her, which is sick 'because she is a fucking whore and she makes me sick to death."
"Well get a stripper. I'm sure they do a better job" he laughed now calmer. "Maybe but, I fuck a lot and I've never met someone who fucks as amazing as Rebaka" He looked at me. "That girl can fuck" I just turned red as a tomato, I wasn't used to talk about sex at all. "Have you ever tried drugs? Any kind?" "NO" "Well she was like a drug to me, and they say you never leave drugs, she even said so herself, she said she was like a poisonous drug, and when I dumped her, she warned me that I would never forget her, its true, I'll never forget her, I'll never forget her damn taste."
Phone rang. "Hello?" I answered. "Hey Chi, where should we pick you up tomorrow?" It was Kakarotto. "Well umm I don't know, first you have to ask Sister Harmony if I can go." He snort "Are you kidding me?" "No, I'm serious, even Dad has to ask permission" "Well I'm not going to" "But you have to!!! Otherwise they wont let me go with you" "No way I have bad reputation with that Sister Harmony, so just wait for us in the big trash can that is on backyard, k?" "Wait I'm not even aloud to go in there, how am I supposed to.?" I got cutoff. "Just do it damnit!!!!" "All right, all right if your going to get that attitude with me, than never mind you moron!!!!" than I hung up.
It rang again not just once a bunch of times. I didn't want to pick up it was probably Kakarott. I knew he was mad, I could tell, and if I didn't pick up Dad would. So I did. "WHAT?!!!" I snapped. "Little bitch!!!" he paused "You think you are the shit huh? Well not with me you're not! And you better not hang up on me EVER, hear me EVER or fucking else!!!" "Leave me alone!!!" "Shit I'll leave whenever I want to leave you!!!" "What are you my damn stocker?!!!" "I'LL BE YOUR FUCKING STOCKER IF THAT PLEASES ME, UNDERSTAND?!!!!" "Can't talk to you right now, sorry, call me when you're not so hot headed!!!" I hung up again. It didn't matter he couldn't do anything over the phone, right? Wrong.
Next morning I woke up and tried to forget about Kakarott and company. I just had enough. I was scared of him, that couldn't be good. I know it because at school they told us that whenever we felt uncomfortable with anything we shouldn't be forced to do it. And let's face it Kakarott and his friends made me do things I didn't want to do all the time, and that was just one night. I couldn't picture what they'd force me to do next. I had to put all my personal problems away and force a big cheesy smile for my father, he deserved it after all.
"Have fun honey!!!" "Wait your not taking me Dad?" "No, one of you're friends is going to take you to school, since you two are going to the same place he offered" what friend? Yamcha? But he was boyfriend. And unfortunately he was the only friend I had before I became his former girlfriend. So who could it be.? "Now be nice girl and go, before you are late for school, he is waiting for you outside, don't make him wait hon!" he is a guy. I felt my stomach ache. I didn't want the person that was thinking of to be the one to taking me to school.
"Dad, is it Broli? Because I'm really not in the mood for." I got cutoff by my dad. "No, it's not Broli" he pushed me to the door. "Now honey don't make this young man wait, he is being awfully nice by offering to take you." He pushed me out; at least that's what it felt like. And shut the door. "Dad?" "Good morning Chichi" said the driver as he turned to face me. "Hi, I'm sorry I don't remember you" I said trying to be friendly. "I told you not to hang up on me" it was Kakarott. Man was I in trouble. "Ohh boy" "You bet" he said. "Get in" he said as he shoved me in the driver seat.
"You're going to drive us to school" my heart started to beat in a heavy tempo. "I don't know how to drive" I cried. Was I silly or what? Two minutes with that man and I was already crying. "Why you such a baby?" "I'm not a baby I just don't want to get killed just because I hung up on a.." I think what I was about to say was not really that necessary to be said. "Idiot!" "Pardon me?" I backed away I knew the guy was dangerous. "Move!!!!" I didn't know what he meant, or where to move. "Move damn it!!!" I rushed to the back seat, and seated as far as I could from him, just crying. "Shut up!!" I cried even harder "shut it damn it!!" And I cried in silence.
As we droved to school he said." You're paying for what you did yesterday, you know that?" I didn't dare to answer. "I'm going to make your life miserable until you apologize!" I filed myself with courage. "I'm sorry" I tottered. "Why you so mean to me girl?" that was it! Now I was the mean one?! "I'm mean?" "Hell yeah, and you show me no respect!" respect? "Well I would give you respect if earned it!" I said fully confident now. "I don't have to earn it girl, I own you" I was shocked, I wasn't a possession for him to own!!! "You don't own me!!!" he laughed. "Just kidding, I just don't like when people hang up on me you know, it was like you were trying to step on me and let me tell you that will never happen! Neither you nor anybody is ever going to step on me"
"I wasn't trying to do that" I got closer. "I just, I fell like I'm being manipulated by you guys." "Manipulated?" "Yeah, you guys make me to all kinds of stuff that I don't want to do." "Fine, lets not get ice cream than, if you hated ice cream you should have said so." "It's not the ice cream, I don't like to break rules" "you don't huh?" I went no with my head. "Well I guess you can kiss good bye our friendship, because all me and the guys do is break rules" he chucked "That and other stuff". "See what you are doing? You are manipulating me" "No I'm not, I'm just giving you the choice"
"Well what can I do to make you want to do 'bad' things like us" "Nothing, I would never so something bad on purpose" "But you have done bad stuff" "No, not really" "Yes you have" "Tell me one thing" "this was just in one day, you slandered us by saying we where raping rag-doll, than you drank alcohol, and you are under 18, you kissed me" he paused and laughed, I just rolled my eyes. "And you had a boyfriend, than you entered my property without my permission, shall I go on?" "No, I get the point, but still it isn't the same" "Why not?" "It's just my bad things are in another level."
"Really?" "Yeah" "Does it make you a better person? No, does it make you a worse person? No, than I don't see the difference." "Let's just forget about this" "Fine are we still friends" "Sure, why you want to be friends with me so much Kakarott?" "First of all you're funny. 2nd in a way you are like us, you don't have any friends, and the fact that I just started to like makes it all worth it" "you like me?" "yeah, your different than other girls, you are naïve for once, and sincere and all that stuff those other girls can't be" "Ohh" I said not really understanding "So will get that ice cream after school, and you have to be were I told you to, understand?" I nodded. "Don't get a tattoo too?" "Hahaha no, that would hurt you, you know." "I know I still wanted" he chucked.
"Baby steps Chichi, baby steps" I listened closely. "1st we've got to do something about that attitude" "what's wrong with my attitude?" "You won't let it out" "What do mean" "You are being like the chicks from school, just be who want to be, say what you have to say, be honest, you know?" "But I do that" "No, you don't" he got out a cigarette from under the seat; I moved and sat next to him so that the smoke wouldn't reach me. "Well ok, I can do that" "cool, now all you have to do is show some spunk, which I know you have it in you, I saw the way you stud up to Rebaka in the cafeteria" "That was a long time ago like in the beginning of my freshmen year, how do you know?" "Well she was my girlfriend back than" "Rebaka?!!! But I thought you liked people who where original, and she is unquestionably not an original"
"I know, it took me a while to figure that one" he threw the cigarette out the window; I knew the subject made him uncomfortable. "I can't believe you went out with her, why did you?" he concentrated on the road "I don't know it was like an obsession for me I guess" "Obsession over someone so cruel and conceited?" "I don't know..I don't know" I looked at him closely; I could tell that he still had some sort of feeling towards this Rebaka girl. "C'mon you tell me. I'm your friend remember?" "Well first I thought she was hot, because she was so innocent and" he bounced his head once. "Naïve" I faked laughed "her naïve?? Hahahaha please!!!"
He looked at me concerned. "She wasn't always like that" he paused trying to remember. "She was kind of like you, but she was stronger, and more ambitious, hell she was gorgeous" that stupid sentence about someone I hated so much made jealous as hell. "And my world rotated around her only, back than" I just kept listening it made me jealous as hell but, I knew he needed to get that out of his system.
"God I was stupid!!! I fell like an idiot into her tramp, she was a lion dressed in wool" "what's that supposed to mean?" he looked at the road. "Look she was like this huge faker; she faked to be innocent and defenseless. Than I made her my girlfriend, and she just fucked me the very first day, I didn't know much about that shit back than so I thought it was normal, than time showed me the real her." Conversation was getting interesting. "Turns out she was a fucking whore. Turns out everyone knew but me, turns out she was faking just to get my money, how stupid and pointless it that?!!!!!" I backed away a little he was getting angry. "Fuck a guy for money, that's fucking trippin'"
"You're money? Why? Didn't she have any or why would you let her dot that?" he looked at me disappointed like if I were Rebaka. "I was so stupid man, even do every one told me what she was doing I wouldn't listen, I didn't want to believe I stayed with her because I hoped that she would go back to the sweet naïve girl she used to be, silly me." "So, you ." I got cutoff "so I got obsessed I guess" "Obsessed with the sweet girl?" he chucked. "No" "Than?" "Sex I guess." "Just that? You could get that in a cat house, why stick around?" "No, she did it different than anyone; I think I still want her, which is sick 'because she is a fucking whore and she makes me sick to death."
"Well get a stripper. I'm sure they do a better job" he laughed now calmer. "Maybe but, I fuck a lot and I've never met someone who fucks as amazing as Rebaka" He looked at me. "That girl can fuck" I just turned red as a tomato, I wasn't used to talk about sex at all. "Have you ever tried drugs? Any kind?" "NO" "Well she was like a drug to me, and they say you never leave drugs, she even said so herself, she said she was like a poisonous drug, and when I dumped her, she warned me that I would never forget her, its true, I'll never forget her, I'll never forget her damn taste."