Author's Note: I know know I'm cruel to Sage! Also there will be some time skips which I'll mark. Any ways sorry I've been so slow with up dates... I've got a lot going on.

Disclaimer: I don't' own the Ronins but I do own Paul.

WARNING: Yaoi fic and there is masturbation in this chapter.

Chapter3) Hate him!

Sage sighed heavily staring at the place where his journal rested. Sage walked over and removed the book from under his pillow. He clenched his fist so tight that his nails began to bit threw his skin. He wanted to get rid of the book, burn it maybe that would sooth him. Sage groaned and shoved the book into his nightstands door. Sage laid down and closed his eyes but there Sai was again. Maybe it is better this way. Sage snapped out of his thoughts and looked at the door as someone tapped on it.

"Come in." Sage rolled over facing away from the door.

"Hey… You alright?" Rowen asked shutting the door behind him.

"What the hell do you think?" Sage snapped.

"Sorry." Rowen winced. "Sai's nervous that you don't like him." Rowen said referring to Paul.

"That's an understatement… I hate him." Sage muttered.

"I told him you're just in a bad mood today." Rowen smiled weakly trying to help Sage.

"Thanks…" Sage sat up and looked over at Rowen.

"Come on. You better come down stairs." Rowen smiled a bit opening the door. Sage sighed and let his every day mask fall back over his face. As Sage reached the bottom of the stairs he could see Paul and Ryo talking like they had been best friends forever. Sage took a seat on the couch and stared at the TV screen. He never saw what Kento was watching though, he was to caught up in the what ifs, and the slowly dawning realization that he may never have Sai. It felt like an eternity before Sai emerged from the kitchen and announced that dinner was ready. Sage barely said anything while they ate and tried his best not to glare at Paul.

"So how long have you two been um… together?" Ryo asked.

"Just started dating actually. Though we've known each other for a while." Paul smiled and Sage wished he could knock the guys teeth out. Sage quickly stole a glance at Sai who looked sad or hurt by Paul's answer. The more Paul talked of them just getting together the more it seemed like Sai was hiding something. Throughout dinner Paul kept talking of all the great things he did and how kind and nice Sai was. Something bothered Sage though, and it wasn't that this guy was with Sai, it was how much this guy referred to his exes as if he still liked them, or something. It just bothered Sage. Once dinner ended Sage excused himself and headed up to his room. Sage hadn't even had time to get his book out when Rowen came in.

"Hey." Rowen smiled and sat down on his own bed. Sage just glared at him. "God Sage! Don't take this out on me! Besides you should be happy for Sai. It looks like he really likes Paul and Paul seems to be a nice guy." Rowen ranted.

"Fuck off! I don't like him. Sai's far too good for him any ways…. There's just something about him I don't trust." Sage said. Rowen rolled his eyes then sighed.

"Come on Sage give him a chance… For Sai?" Rowen asked and was answered by a pillow hitting him in the face. "Damn you Sage!" Rowen yelled throwing the pillow back at Sage. Sage leaned back and watched the pillow hit Rowen's bookshelf.

"Learn to aim Rowen." Sage smirked teasing him. Rowen sighed and shook his head, he knew it would take Sai long to see that Sage is just being cold to the guy. Rowen grabbed a few book then glanced back at Sage.

"You gonna be alright?" Rowen asked giving him a worried glance.

"Yeah…" Sage sighed and watched Rowen leave. Sage pulled out the book Sai gave him, and removed his favorite picture of Sai from it. He couldn't help but wonder if it would be wrong to fanaticize over Sai now that he had… No it could be wrong. With a sigh Sage set down the picture and picked up a pen. He turned to a knew page and started a new entry first on how much he hated Paul then on how much he wished he had told Sai earlier. Sage shut the book and glanced at the clock, it was only 8:30 pm. Sage grabbed his towels and his favorite body oils and headed towards the bathroom. He stopped to glare down the stairs once when he heard Paul laughing. How could Sai find someone so annoying attractive? Sage shook his head and went into the bathroom. He locked the door behind him and turned on the water. He stepped into the shower and let the water pour down on him. He tilted his face up towards it feeling it traced down his face. He imagined that the soft caress of the water was Sai's fingers. Sage let his eyes slide shut, and his hand wonder down his body. Sage could see Sai so vividly in his mind, he had seen Sai many time with out his shirt but nothing more. Sage imagined hearing Sai's voice tell him that he loved him. With each new image and forged word his hand moved quicker. Sage bit on the inside of his bottom lip till it bled holding back the sounds that wished to pour from his mouth. A stifled moan broke from Sage's lips as he reached his climax. Sage stood there for a moment under the shower before turning the water to cold, and actually taking a shower. (Note I mean washing your hair and what not.) By the time Sage made it back to him room it was 9:00, and the loud sound coming from the room down the hall from his, he felt his stomach twist into knots. Grabbing a blanket and pillow Sage opened his door to find another place to sleep where he would not have to hear the guy he loved with someone else.

"Sage where are you going?" Ryo asked coming up the stairs.

"I can't get to sleep with Sai and what's his name making all that noise!" Sage tried his hardest not to growl but this day in general had just pushed him so far.

"Come on Sage deal with it. It's not like any of us complained about you're girlfriends." Ryo crossed his arms and blocked Sage's path.

"I never had my girlfriends spend the night here!" Sage glared at him really getting annoyed.

"Yeah but you always had your hands all over them when ever they were over!" Ryo yelled. "You can deal with Sai and Paul for one night!"

"Hey, hey cool it you two!" Rowen rushed up the stairs and stepped between the two, worried Sage might deck Ryo. "Come on Sage." Rowen put his arm around Sage and led him back to their room. Rowen shut the door and winced as a moan filled the air muffled by the walls but still. "Hey, I know Ryo's being a dick but come on. You've been trying all day to put up with Paul, and if you sleep down stairs Sai will know something's up… He's always first up and it's not like people haven't had sex in this house before." Rowen said, and then looked over at Sage. "Hey Sage could you turn around, I don't want you staring at my ass." Rowen smirked.

"Shut up, asshole!" Sage raised his finger in Rowen direction. Rowen smiled even more, as he tried to suppress his laughter.

"Hell no Sage! You're not shoving that up my ass! Go get some other…" Sage hit Rowen square in the face with a pillow. "Jesus Christ Sage how many time are you going to fuckin' throw a pillow at me!" Rowen yelled, throwing the pillow back and missed Sage.

"Just until your aim improves!" Sage laughed. "Hey Rowen…. Thanks." Sage smiled and Rowen smiled back crawling into his own bed.

"Yeah sure… But this still doesn't mean you can jump in my bed." Rowen smiled getting a kick out of teasing Sage.

"Go blow your mother!" Sage glared. Rowen muttered something and turned away from Sage. Sage stared at the ceiling for a while before sleep found him.

(Next Morning 4:30 am)--------------------------

Sage groaned and looked at the clock. It was way to early to be up, than again he hadn't really slept well at all. With in seconds of being somewhat awake thoughts of Sai and everything involving him flooded Sage's mind. Sage sat up and turned so his feet landed on the floor gracefully. He quietly padded over to the door and left the room. He needed a drink, or something to get his mind off of Sai. Sage hadn't even reached the kitchen when he heard Paul's voice. He knew it would be wrong to ease drop but he didn't care.

"Hey, it's alright. I'll be up in six days. 'Kay sweetie? Of course I miss you, you're always on my mind…. Look I know it's longer but I have to stay…… I love you too, I'll see you in six days. Oh and no more calling me this early… I'm in a different time zone. Okay I love you too Akito. Bye." Paul closed his cell phone and Sage casually walked into the kitchen.

"Akito?" Sage raised an eyebrow at Paul.

"He's my cousin." Paul shot rather defensively. Sage wasn't fazed at all as he grabbed a glass from the cupboard. "Why were you listening any ways!"

"I was coming down stares and you were being rather loud!" Sage answered filling the glass with water. "Why are you so defensive." Sage asked knowing full well that Paul was lying and that he'd been caught. Though he hadn't really wanted to last night he forced him self to pay attention to what Paul said and he had told them the only family he had was just his younger sister.

"Just a bit cranky that's all. I didn't think any one would call me at four." Paul smiled weakly and patted Sage on the shoulder before heading up stairs. He was lying, Sage was sure of it the question was why. Sage shook the thought from his head and headed back up to bed.

Author's Note: Yeah! It's finished, anyways review and I'll update!