Author's Note: So sorry I haven't updated sooner but all my muses died but last night a muse attacked me so this story will be updating a lot.

Disclaimer: I don't own the Ronins but Paul is mine.

WARNING: Yaoi!

Chapter4) Try to smile

Sage looked at the last picture of all before placing it in his journal. It had been a year in a half since any of them saw Sai. As soon as Sai moved out to live with Paul they'd lost all contact with Sai.

"Hey Sage." Rowen smiled. Sage nodded to acknowledge then looked back down at the bed. "You're worried about Sai huh?"

"Yeah. He hasn't talked to any of us since he moved out with Paul." Sage said bitterly.

"God Sage I come over for a small visit and all you do is worry about Sai?" Rowen shook his head.

"Sorry Rowen. It's just…" Sage placed his head in his hands.

"We'll hear from him don't worry." Rowen smiled trying to cheer Sage up. "Are you still going to the party tonight?" Rowen asked heading

"Yeah I'll be there." Sage said and watched Rowen leave. Sighing Sage stood up and stretched out. He had to get out of the house to clear his head. Slipping his shoes on Sage decided to head to the park.

Sage had walked almost the entire park when someone caught his eyes. "Sai..." He whispered not really sure if it was Sai or not. Sage walked over to the bench his eyes widening as he realized it was Sai on the bench.

"Sai?" Sai head shot up his eyes.

"Sage? I really should leave." Sai stuttered moving to leaving.

"Hey wait. Look why don't we talk for awhile? Everyone's worried about you, Sai." Sage placed a hand on Sai's shoulder.

"Sage I…" Sai looked down almost like he would cry. "I've missed you guys." Sai sat back down on to the bench and waited for Sage to sit next to him.

"There's a party tonight if you want to come?" Sage asked pecking over at Sai from the corner of his eye.

"Really?" Sai asked sounding hopeful.

"Of course, the other guys would really like to see you." Sage smiled.

"Come on. Why don't you come home with me then we can head for the party." Sai smiled grabbing Sage's hand and leading him out of the park.

"Come on in Sage." Sai stepped inside the small apartment. "I know it's not much but…" His smiled faded the more he said. Sage frowned but followed Sai in. "Are you sure the others won't be mad?"

"Of course not. Why haven't you called any of us?" Sage asked out of curiosity.

"Paul hasn't let me. He doesn't really like me talking with you guys."

"Damn it Sai. You don't have to listen to him." Sage shook his head.

"But, it's not like I can't he's my boyfriend." Sai sighed sitting down on the sofa.

"You're letting him change you Sai." Sage said placing a comforting hand on Sai's shoulder. "Sai can you really tell me you're happy like this?" Sai looked up at Sage wide eyes. Sage licked his lips staring at Sai's slightly parted lips. He couldn't hold back any more Sage pressed his lips lightly against Sai's. Sai's eyes widen as Sage cupped his face in his hand. Sage pulled back and looked away from Sai.

"Sage?..." Sai stood up touching his lips.

"Are you happy, Sai?" Sage turned around still wanting Sai to answer him.

"Of course he is." Sage and Sai looked over towards the door.

"Paul, what are you doing back so soon?" Sai quickly moved towards Paul.

"What's he doing here?"

"Sage and I were just talking." Sai said.

"I was just on my way out anyways. Sai please come tonight, everyone's worried about you." Sage handed Sai the address to the party. Paul smiled and stepped aside to let Sage pass then shut the door.

"You're not going." Paul said sliding his shoes off.

"Paul please comes with me it's just one party." Sai begged.

"No that's the end of it!" Paul growled taking the address from Sai.

"Paul please they're my friends and I miss them."

"I said we're not going!" Paul struck Sai across the face. "Don't even think about it any more… Sai tell me you're mine." Sai stared at the floor his cheek stung. "Sai!" Sai winced as Paul grabbed his arm roughly pulling him to him. "Tell me!"

"I'm yours." Sai said looking away from Paul. He jumped when Paul kissed his cheek.

"That's right." Paul smiled pulling out a lighter and setting the piece of paper on fire. Sai's eyes widen as he swallowed the lump in throat Sage's question played over and over in his head.

"No I'm not happy." Sai whispered to himself as Paul left the room.

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"Sage what's wrong it's not like you to be late?" Rowen asked.

"Yeah he's right." Ryo added everyone waiting for the reason.

"I saw Sai today." Everyone looked shocked. "I gave him the address to the party."

"How is he?" Kento asked.

"I don't know..." Sage sighed. Rowen put his hand on Sage's shoulder.

"I'm sure he'll show up." Mia smiled. Sage smiled slightly and they all went back to the party but ever so often they'd look over towards the door. As the party came to an end their concern for Sai grew since he hadn't show up. It was three in the morning when Rowen and Sage agreed to clean up and shut the lights off to the room.

"Hey maybe he couldn't come tonight." Rowen shrugged.

"Rowen Paul was right there when I gave the directions to Sai. I don't think he let Sai come." Sage said shutting off the lights. "Either that or I scared him I couldn't stop myself I just kissed him."

"Hey do you want to stay over at my place then?" Rowen asked knowing full well Sage probably would want to talk or would need some one to get his mind off Sai.

"Sure I just need to grab something from my place." Sage said.

"Then why don't you let me clean up and you go grab you're stuff and met me at my place." Rowen smiled throwing Sage the extra key he had.

"Thanks." Sage smiled slightly.

Author's Note: Thanks to the hit system I won't ask for reviews for me to update but they still are welcomed even those that point out mistake but if you do that could you maybe suggest ways to help me beside spell check.