The song is EVERYTHING YOU WANT by Vertical Horizon. So listen to it if you want while reading the chapter.
Chapter 9
Buffy had looked just about everywhere for Spike. She had even come home and asked me if he was there. I could tell by the look on her face that she was stressed out.
"How about I make you some cool iced tea?"
I saw her contemplate it, but she shook her head and said, "No, but thanks Dawn. I think I'm just gonna head out-just for- yea a bit."
I nodded my head in understanding. I totally understood. She wanted to be alone, and it was fine with me. After all she had been through, she needed time to sort things out in her mind. She needed to find herself one more time...how she planned to do it...Well, right now I left that up to her.
She sat a table in the bronze. She had given up on searching for him. He would show up eventually, if not for her, he would come back for Dawn. She stirred her soda with her straw as she contemplated why she couldn't just drop her and Spike's differences and become friends.
She looked up towards the stage where the band was playing. Her ears almost literally perked up as she caught on to the lyrics that were being sung.
Somewhere there's speaking
It's already coming in
Oh and it's rising at the back of your mind
You never could get it
Unless you were fed it
Now you're here and you don't know why
But under skinned knees and the skid marks
Past the places where you used to learn
You howl and listen
Listen and wait for the
Echoes of angels who won't return
[Chorus]
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why
She almost scoffed at the fact that the words were had hit her right on the mark, but she would never admit it. The song was basically a recitation of her current life situation. Spike had been her only true strength after coming back. He could sense what was wrong, and she felt comfortable talking to him. He was strong, pretty hot she settled, caring, LOVED HER, understanding, funny. Some how she kept trying to claw onto someway that she could like him, but she couldn't...and she couldn't understand why.
You're waiting for someone
To put you together
You're waiting for someone to push you away
There's always another wound to discover
There's always something more you wish he'd say
Buffy thought to herself, 'Yeah like I wish he told me he didn't love me, so that I wouldn't have to go through all of this.' She sighed in frustration.
[Chorus]
He's everything you want
He's everything you need
He's everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
He says all the right things
At exactly the right time
But he means nothing to you
And you don't know why
But you'll just sit tight
And watch it unwind
It's only what you're asking for
And you'll be just fine
With all of your time
It's only what you're waiting for
Out of the island
Into the highway
Past the places where you might have turned
You never did notice
But you still hide away
The anger of angels who won't return
'The angels won't return, because I've been ripped out of heaven,' she sulked, being reminded once again about her bad fortune.
Buffy suddenly felt a feeling of familiarity wash over her. She turned and saw him standing next to her, with the most vulnerable look she had ever seen. She didn't think that he would have ever come back to face her so soon...especially after all the horrible things she had said to him. She looked in his eyes, searching for any emotion, but found none. His eyes turned cold and for the first time...she was frightened.
As the band sung loudly in the background, however, all their past arguments slowly faded as they both let the lyrics sink in as though Spike was speaking to her through the song.
[Chorus]
I am everything you want
I am everything you need
I am everything inside of you
That you wish you could be
I say all the right things
At exactly the right time
But I mean nothing to you and I don't know why
And I don't know why
Why
I don't know
The song ended and everyone applauded except for Buffy and Spike who held their gaze.
Buffy felt the water rush to her eyes and melted into his chest clinging to him.
"Spike, I'm so sorry. Please. Give me another chance." She spoke softly, her voice slightly hoarse, but almost as though she was whispering into his chest.
Spike stood there, really unsure of what he was to do. He was expecting so many things. He was expecting 'Spike, what are you doing following me?' or 'Spike, you're still a pig, you're still a monster. Now leave!' or maybe pushing it...'Spike. Just forget about it OKAy?'. But NEVER in his unlife had Spike expected Buffy to be pulling him into an embrace. He didn't care whether he was mad at her or whether she was mad at him.
He wrapped his arms around her, and ran his hand through her hair multiple times, while comforting her with words.
"Luv, it's alright. I'm here....I forgive you...Stop cryin' Slayer, you're makin' me feel like a bloody poof...Buffy...god pet...you have so much on your mind already...forget about me...just let me help you...you're strong...you're brave...and I'll be here always to help you..."
She was here, in his arms, because she wanted to be...at least for now.
And it was more than he could have ever asked for.
End of Chapter
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Sorry it's kinda short...but i wanted to post as soon as possible!!