Full of Grace
July 29th, 2005
There were times it made him so angry he could spit.
But there were times when he was so glad that it had happened this way.
Sometimes he was petty and he was selfish enough not to care that he was.
Sometimes he felt selfless enough to care about her happiness.
He wanted to be happy. He wanted to keep her for himself.
But he wanted her to be happy, too, so he smiled.
For her.
For Kyo.
And for their son.
There would be enough jealousy and pain and anger when Akito was told what had happened between Tohru and Kyo.
They didn't need Yuki to give them all of those things, too.
Sometimes he could imagine that she wore the yellow ribbons he had given her because she loved him the way that he loved her.
But sometimes she wore the orange ones Kyo had given her and Yuki felt selfish again.
There were times it made him so angry he could spit.
But then there were times he was so glad that it had happened this way.