Chapter 8: Something I Never Had

A/N: Sadly, nothing has changed. I still don't own any of the characters of One Tree Hill. Thank you to all the reviewers! You guys are great! This song is Something I Never Had by Lindsay Lohan. I love the song, and I think that this chapter and the song come together perfectly. Enjoy! Please review!

Do you see me
Do you feel me like I feel you
Call your number
I can not get through
You don't hear me and I don't understand
When I reach out I don't find your hand

"Hey Jake."

"Nikki."

"What did you want to talk to me about?"

"I'm giving you a chance."

"To see Jenny!"

"To be in front of us, seeing Jenny. You are not her mother, you are an old friend who likes to watch her grow up."

"Thank you! Jake…Thank you so much!"

"Nikki…listen, for you to even see a little of Jenny, I want to make some agreements...First of all-"

Nikki cut him off by kissing him.

"Jake, listen, I was thinking about what you were—"

"Peyton. I can explain."

"Really? Well, if I were you, I'd start now."

Were they wasted words and did they mean a thing
And all our precious time but I still feel so in between

Nathan saw Haley going out of her house as he was running.

"Haley!"

Haley turned around and saw Nathan, and started walking back in her house.

"Haley! Haley, please. Just wait. Let me explain."

"You should right a book, Nathan. "Why I'm An Ass, By Nathan Scott."

"Haley.."

"Nathan, why do you act like this! I remember that night, punk. I remember you comforting me when I was crying. What changed Nathan? I understand you don't like me, but does that really make you want to use my rape as something to bother me with!"

"Haley, I'm sorry! I'm an ass. Can we just start fresh?"

"No Nathan. And right now, I don't even want to look at you."

"Haley, please. I didn't mean it like that!"

"There's not that many things you can get from what you told me!"

"Haley!"

"Nathan, forget it. Forget everything. I forgive you. Is that what you want to hear? Well, good luck, because even in your dreams you won'-"

Nathan cut Haley off by kissing her. Haley started to respond to the kiss, then abruptly started to push away.

"What the hell is wrong with you?"

"Haley, just listen."

"Get away from me, Nathan."

"Haley."

"No."

Some day I just keep pretending

That you'll stay dreaming of a different ending
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had

"So, man what's happening with Brooke. Got her to commit, yet?"

"With Brooke…it's complicated. I told her I wanted to be with her. She told me no. She went looking for me. She saw me with Kara. She freaked, and didn't let me explain."

"Kara! Oh wowww! You need to explain!"

"What about you?"

"I messed things up with Haley."

"What? Cause in my world, things with you and Haley were always messed up."

"Yeah…Listen, man. I'm gonna tell you something, but you have to swear you won't tell anyone else."

"I'm your brother. Trust me."

"Okay…The night of the party, Haley and I sat on the deck, just talking. She told me about the rape and everything, too. She was crying and stuff. And for some reason, I just comforted her. I went and gave her a hug, and I was trying not to be a complete ass to her. Cause I'm really not."

"I know."

"So, then, she got like crazy drunk. So, I took her home, and made sure she was okay, and left. Let me just say, she says some strange things when she's drunk. She asked me to marry her, dude. It was hysterical. Then she went all ballistic on me, cause I guess I told her I didn't want the rape to happen again. And then I said that thing, when that guy hit on her…then I tried to get her to forgive me, but I ended up kissing her."

Lucas nearly choked on his water.

"You kissed her?"

"Yeah."

"You like Haley."

"I know. And the weird thing is…it used to just be about sex. But now, it's different. I actually want to be with Haley. Don't get me wrong, she's as hot as hell, but it's different with her."

"I know what you mean."

"Man, you should go to Brooke. Tell her the truth. About Kara. About everything."

"I guess the Scott boys are growing up."

"Yeah. But the only thing is I lost Brooke…you never lost Haley. You never had her. You can get her."

"I feel like I lost something I never had."

I keep telling myself things can turn around with time
And if I wait it out you could always change your mind
Like a fairy tale where it works out in the end
Can I close my eyes have you lying here again
Then I come back down
They I fade back in
Then I realize its just what might have been.

"Lucas. I told you—"

"I know you hate me. But you never gave me a chance to explain. Please, just let me explain, Brooke. After that, you can scream, yell, throw things, whatever, but please, I need you to know the truth."

Brooke looked into Lucas eyes, and slowly nodded, letting Lucas in.

"Sit down."

Some day I just keep pretending
That you'll stay dreaming of a different ending
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had

Haley was going for her daily walk, silently cursing Nathan for kissing her. Why does he affect me like this. We haven't been friends for years, and within a week, he's befriended me, hurt me, hurt me even more, and kiss me.

"Oh, my goodness, I'm sorry, I wasn't looking where I was going."

"No worries, I wasn't either. You look troubled."

"Eh, just a lot on my mind."

"Listen, I know this sounds weird and everything, but do you want to- go get coffee. I'm a good listener…"

"Sorry, but I don't go for coffee with people I don't know."

"If I told you my name, would it help?"

"Try it."

The stranger leaned down in Haley's ear and whispered something.

"Well then let's go," Haley said.

"Oh, and by the way, Chris Keller, it's very nice to meet you…I'm Haley James."

Am I a shadow on your wall
Am I anything at all
Anything to you
Am I a secret that you keep
Do you dream me while your sleeping after all
Some day I just keep pretending
That you'll stay dreaming of a different ending
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had
That I never had
I wanna hold on but it hurts so bad
And I can't keep something that I never had
You don't see me, you don't feel me like I feel you

Up next on Accidentally In Love:

"Nikki's gone."

"Your kidding me! That's grea-"

"And she took Jenny with her."

Then Some...

"Brooke, Nathan and I had a very hard childhood."

"What does that have to do with that girl?"

"She's my sister."

And for the Naley...

"Who's that guy, Haley?"

"Someone called my boyfriend."

A/N: I know I know. Chris? To be honest, Chris is going to hold a major part in the story. I'm not saying it's good, but I'm not saying it's bad either. Don't worry...he won't be around for too long. Enjoy!