VampireYoukai
Kaishi
Chapter 3: Remember the tears
Inuyasha jumped from the tree. Stretched and yawned. Today, he was going to ask Kaede about those damn dreams. He didn't sleep much, but this was ridiculous
He entered Kaede's hut, Kaede was talking to Shippo about something.Inuyasha could here the silent whispering, the occasional stop of the whispers.
He entered the hut, Kaede and Shippo noticed the hanyou's presenceThey stopped their chatting and turned to him.
"Keh, who died?" Inuyasha said sarcastically. Before they could answer, Inuyasha started again. "I keep having dreams Kaede. Not the goody happy kind either."
Shippo noting the air was going to become ugly, he scampered out of the room. "Dreams Inuyasha?" Said the old miko. "Yes hag, ever since you gave me that damn book." Inuyasha folded his arms in irritation. There were bad dreams, but dreams that were so real like. That seemed you were actually there. To where you could feel, touch, taste, and even smell. Inuyasha has had bad dreams before, but nothing like this.
Kaede sighed. "I warned ye Inuyasha, I told ye that men have gone mad over that book." Inuyasha frowned. "They were humans weren't they?"
"From what I know, yes they were humans. I know what ye are thinking. But still Inuyasha, you are half. No amount of demon blood that flows through your veins will change that."
"Keh, I know that! Are you saying I'm at risk even though I'm half demon?" Kaede nodded slowly. "Well gee thanks Kaede for giving me the book." Inuyasha waved his hand and went to leave. But Kaede rose from her spot and grabbed his arm.
"Yes I know Inuyasha, it may seem that I am putting ye in danger but. Perhaps it was wrong and inconsiderateof me to hand ye the book, I'm sorry for that. But I have a feeling Inuyasha that what was ever in that book, you could answer." Kaede sighed and let go of his arm. Kaede did feel bad about giving him the book, but after meeting the youkai. The youkai wanted Inuyasha alive. And with Inuyasha's 'popularity'. That was uncommon for a foe to want him alive.
"Come and sit down Inuyasha, tell me about these dreams ye have been experiencing."
"Kagome Kagome Kagome!" Shippo panted as he reached her feet. "Kaede was right! There is something wrong with Inuyasha!"
"Shippo?" Kagome asked puzzled. "I was very sneaking Kagome, When Inuyasha came into Kaede's hut. I darted out side, and listened to what they were saying."
"Shippo, do you think you should have done that? Inuyasha probably knew you were there." But Shippo shook his head no, and smiled brightly. "No, I don't think so Kagome. I was very sneaky and quiet."
Shippo got on all fours and began acting how quiet he was. He would stalk stop and look right and left. Kagome couldn't help but laugh. Shippo was so young, so easily amused But he had grown in the time she had been here. Not so much physically, but mentally and emotionally. Yeah sure he cried easily, but he could stand up to more demons bravely. And even though he cried easily, he would toughen up and say 'Men don't show their tears'
But Kagome knew that this was untrue. Even that one time, when the Band of Seven had tried to kill them all. And Inuyasha had thought they had died, but Myouga had sucked out the poison from their blood just in time.
Kagome could just remember the look on Inuyasha's face when he had realized that she was alive. He had suddenly become flustered and quickly set her down from his arms. She could remember him spinning around and staying there. She could only look at his back, she had tried to speak but the words wouldn't come out. And maybe for the better.
Shippo had pounced over to his side to check on his fellow companion. Shippo had said. 'I thought men didn't show their tears.' Even Myouga had come to Inuyasha's side to check and see. Inuyasha didn't move or say anything until Shippo had said enough.
Inuyasha had thumped the kitsune on his head. Kagome remembered watching Inuyasha's head snap back to look at his human companions.
'Everyone is fine so there is no sense in crying.' But the tears that were nested in his eyes told otherwise. Kagome had seen these tears but had said nothing, she knew better then to press the matter.
Kagome had decided then and there that Inuyasha had to be the biggest man of all. It took a real man to show how he felt in front of others. To say, 'yes I am sad' or the 'BIG ONE' 'I love you.' To think simple words like these and others alike, were so hard to say.
For Kagome is was easy, maybe it was she was raised where it was okay to cry. On Inuyasha's side. He had been left and orphan at an early age, there was no time for crying. Not when so many youkai's would love him as a snack..
But, Kagome had to admit. She had become an influence on Inuyasha, he would open up slightly now and then. But it was brief and awkward for him.
She had so many moments where she felt her heart skip a beat. He didn't know it, but when he said his feelings for her. He said with grace, with feeling, sincerity, and beauty.
It was funny to say or think that Inuyasha's words could be beautiful. But it was true, only when she was around he would say something that totally surprised her. She knew he wouldn't say or do something like this when the others were around. She could tell by his movements that he felt awkward saying things that would make him sound 'gooshy'.
In the future, she would tell him exactly how she felt about him. But right know she wasn't sure herself, her mother had told her once that love takes awhile to show. Love takes time before you can say it is love.
But for now, she was happy. And there was too much to think about, school, the jewel shards, Naraku, the jewel shards, The new youkai, the jewel shards...
Kagome smiled, she had totally forgotten herself again. It was happening a lot lately. Looking at the brilliant blue sky. Something in her compelled her to whisper. "Remember the tears."
AUTHOR NOTE: I'm back from my vacation. Sorry I didn't post this chapter before I left. I did my other story and totally spaced this one's. So I'm sorry. -I miss vacation--'
By: Vampire Youkai (don't copy this poem)
Kaihsi
Haunt
The more you wish and cry,
The more you wish you would die,
There aren't many things that can console
These feelings inside you wish you could control
There are too many sorrow feelings ahead
That make you scream at the taunting voices in your head
The haunting in your mind is eating at your spirit
A hand is trying to reach you but you are too numb, to feel it