Deacon's Pov
The drive home was mostly silent we were respecting each other's thoughts. We pulled up to our childhood home and were surprised to see the lights still on. I pulled out my keys and we both went in. Mom and dad were watching a movie on the couch.
"Hey guys" I said
"Shh I just got Xander to go to sleep" Mom said
I sighed Xander was not an easy person to get to go to sleep he would fight you all the way. I looked at the clock in the kitchen it was almost 2 in the morning.
"Well parents I must be going" Destiny announced as she grabbed her car keys and he bags and exited the front door.
"Deacon why don't you stay the night it is really late and you must be tired" mom said
"Yeah sure why not" I said knowing very well I wasn't leaving even if I wanted to. My house was about a 30 minute drive from here.
About a half an hour later I was staring out the picture glass window in the family room when I felt a hand on my shoulder. My mother looked at me with a puzzled look.
"You wanna talk?" she asked
"How come you never told us you were engaged to Dave?" I asked
"I'm not really sure about that one I guess it never came up" she replied
"Did you love him?" I asked
"Yes I did but I never realized it until he died and I regret to this day not telling him I did" she answered
"Everybody keeps telling me I should move on but I can't ,I don't want to, it would be like I was cheating on Sarah" I explained
"Honey I'm sure Sarah would want you and Xander to have a good life and if that means having a relationship and getting married to another woman I think she would be ok" mom said.
"Why does god take people away?" I asked in a strained voice.
"I've been asking myself that question since Dave died" she said.
"Sometimes it hurts so bad and other times like when I'm with Xander it's not so bad" I said
"I remember a time when you wouldn't even look at him" she said
"Don't ever tell him this but for a while I blamed him for Sarah's death, how horrible is that but I did" I said breaking down into tears. My mother took me into her arms and rubbed my back until I had stopped crying.
"I remember one time I was like if this kid ends up calling me mommy I'm going to kill him" mom said with a weak laugh. I appreciated her trying to make me feel better and it worked a little.
"Well I'm going to bed" she said.
She left and I sat there for a few minutes before I went down into my mother's recording studio. I picked up her acoustic guitar and started to play it and after a while a song came to me.
If I ever write the story of my life
Don't be surprised if you're where it begins
Girl, I'd have to dedicate every line on every page
To the memories we made, while you loved me
I was born the day you kissed me
And I died inside the night you left me
But I lived, oh how I lived
While you loved me
I'd start with chapter one, love innocent and young
As the morning sun on a new day
Even though I know the end, Well I'd do it all again
'Cause I got a lifetime in, while you loved me
I was born the day you kissed me
And I died inside the night you left me
But I lived, oh how I lived
While you loved me
I was born the day you kissed me
And I died inside the night you left me
But I lived, oh how I lived
(I lived)
I was born the day you kissed me
And I died inside the night you left me
But I lived, oh how I lived
(I lived) While you loved me
Like my mother I've found the release of my feeling is easier to write into a song then being shared in words of the mouth. I smiled when i had finished the song.
"I think you would have liked that one Sarah" I said.
Author's Pov
What Deacon didn't know is that Alex was standing right outside the door. She smiled and said
"That is it baby boy sing your heart out" the she went upstairs and went to sleep.
A/N: ok Deacon's song was actually written by Rascal Flatts but it fit so well and it is a great song so we'll pretend like he wrote it. Also I think I might use the band later in the story so pay careful attention to this song.