Ahaha! Making this a songfic thing in every or most chapters is a brilliant idea! I should go back and put Polly in the first chapter. Hmm… yes I should.

Notes: About my story.

This story.

This story is about listening, so that you can hear what something has to say.

This story is about finding the deeper meaning in things, instead of just looking at the surface.

This story is about having the courage to achieve the things you want in life.

This story is about getting to really know someone you love, so that you can be closer to them, so that maybe you can help them.

This story is about how each of us really and truly does have at least one… real… person who cares about us. (We just may not know who they are yet)

This story is about feeling dead inside, and needing someone to show you how to live again.

This story is about dealing with pain. (The kind on the inside)

This story is about hating yourself, and needing someone to "take you away from you".

This story is about…

Life.

This chapter is with Everybody's Fool by Evanescence. Because… well… you'll find out how it relates. No, like it should be used... Draco is not "singing" the song to someone else, because they are the "fool" who lied about themselves. It is being "sung" to Draco, because he is the "fool". Simply spoken, he is/was not who people thought he was. Not at all.

Okay, so yeah, don't rub it in that so far we're just learning/figuring out who Hermione and Draco really are. Nothing has really happened yet, and we haven't gotten anywhere except closer to them. Never fear, m'loves. There is stuff to happen yet.

More Notes: Lyrics in bold, Draco's thoughts in italics.

Chapter 4: Everybody's Fool

There is definitely something more to Hermione Draco thought. Just like there is to me.

Perfect by nature
Icons of self indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world that…

Can they not see? All this time I've been lying. No one knows who I am. No one knows that unlike anyone knows, I understand pain. I have felt it all my life. I understand how tricky evil is. Because right when you think you have it cornered, it changes its form. I understand how love is in a sense… evil… because all it does is cause pain. There is no love withought trust, but you cannot trust anyone. Because no one is real. Every part of everyone has been touched or altered in some way. No one is truly unique, no one is all their own. No one is true, no one is innocent. No one is real.

Never was and never will be
Have you no shame? Don't you see me?
You know you've got everybody fooled

No one knows why I chose "evil". Because, in it, and in hatred, you can get somewhere in life. You don't just stay "stuck" in one place. And as I said, love just causes pain. Naturally, as humans, we attach ourselves to those we love. And an unimaginal pain is resorted when we lose them. No one knows my father abused me… physically/emotionally all of my life. No one knows just how much I hate the world. Because I know the truth about it. I know what it really is. I seem so mean on the outside, inside… I have hopes and dreams like everyone else. I'm optimistic. Sometimes.

And it's true that I can love. Because I love Grang… Hermione.

Look here she comes now
Bow down and stare in wonder
Oh how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know she…

People think I'm so perfect. That I'm the toppest of the top. It's sickening. I'm far from perfect. I haven't really made any big mistakes in life though, because I have never had anyone close enough to me for me to hurt. And then for me to care about that hurt. I've heard girls say they were in love with me, and why? For what? My appearance? How shallow. How… sickening. This whole fucking world is sickening. Oh… how I wish to escape.

Never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled

The only person who could ever know all of this is Hermione. Some day I'll tell her. Because I know she will understand. If anyone else did know… how much I have betrayed them… I'm not evil. I'm just… intelligent. I know what things really are. If my father knew… my opinions on him and Lord Voldemort… he would surely kill me.

Without the mask, where will you hide?
Can't find yourself lost in your lie

I so rarely think about all of this, I had almost forgotten who I am. I almost started to believe I was perfect, that I was everything I said I was. Just goes to show, thinking is good for you. You can find out who you are, if you can sort through all the lies you've ever told about yourself. No one tells the truth about themselves.

I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore

What if, when he tried to make Hermione understand him, she didn't love him anymore? Then I have truly lost everything. There is nothing here for me anymore. I love her so deeply, that it is unconditional. I ask for nothing in return. I just want to be able to give her peace. Is that so much to ask? I hate seeing her in such pain. It kills me.

It never was and never will be
You don't know how you've betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled

It never was and never will be
You're not real and you can't save me
Somehow now you're everybody's fool

What if… I can't save her. What if… it turns out she does hate me. I've been wearing this mask of hating her for so long, she probably thinks that I do hate her. Then, she won't trust me with her. I can't save her. I've failed. Well not yet…

I haven't tried enough yet to fail.

Yeah umm… maybe Everybody's Fool wasn't exactly perfect for this chapter, but oh well. I like it. Only problem is, in writing it, I've started to think like a guy… it's scaring me. Umm… anyway I'll shut up now, and I hope you enjoyed this chapter. I'll probably be in writer's block for a while, because I can't decide where I want to take the story next.