A/n: Hello, here is the next chapter and I hope you enjoy yourself. I am indeed not feeling so well. So, um, blah….. just read… I'll do all of my rambling at the bottom of the chapter…
Disclaimer: I don't own Inuyasha or the song by Evanescence: Breath No More
Chapter 11: Breathe No More
Kagome narrowed her eyes coldly and disgustedly at the most horrible and dreaded picture she loathed so much. But deep inside, she could feel her heart cracking and slicing into many pieces that would be to hard to glue back together. She hide behind a tree, with her bitterness eyes, watching and waiting for them to break up. What does Inuyasha see in that girl? Is she not good enough for him. She watched as Kikyou broke the embrace, with tears forming in her eyes and she whispered a 'good-bye' in his ears, and slowly walked away, not bothering looking back. Kagome sighed in disgust and walked the opposite direction, hoping that Inuyasha didn't hear her or sniffed out her scent. She gave out a weak laugh. How would he be able to sense her there when he's so caught up with his precious Kikyou. It makes her want to rip Kikyo's skin off so show Inuyasha how ugly she is as a person.
Kikyou and Kagome had been rivals ever since they laid eyes on each other. Kikyou looking like Kagome. Kagome looking like Kikyou. They're identical to each other, like two twin sisters. It makes Kagome sick to her stomach. Thinking there's someone out there, who's cold-hearted and only judging people by look, wearing her face. Kagome strolled down a hardly crowed street. She decided to take this way back, hoping she won't run into anyone what she knew. Tears started to form. The images swimming in her thoughts kept on playing and playing over and over again. She desperately want to take a pair of scissors and snip the image into tiny little pieces. But she can't. She just have to leave with those painful memories stuck in her head. Forever
{I've been looking in the mirror for so long
That I've come to believe my souls on the other side
Oh the little pieces falling, shatter
Shards of me,
To sharp to put back together
To small to matter,
But big enough to cut me into so many little pieces
If I try to touch her,
And I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe no more}
After walking the way home, she finally made her way to the house of Inuyasha. She opened the door to ajar position looking around the area, finding no soul in sight. She sighed in relief. Thanking god no one was around to see her pathetic agonizing pain. She walked through the entrance, shutting the door behind her, and leaning against it. Sobbing her eyes out. Lucking no one was there to witness her sorrowfulness. She couldn't breath. Suffocating on all the pain that she felt. On all those painful moments. She just couldn't breath anymore. Bleeding from those scars and wounds left deep inside her soul. Her heart. Broken and sliced up into many pieces. Pathetic isn't? Mourning over someone you can never have. Never. So why even try? 'Because I love him, I can never stop loving him….'
{Take a breath and I try to draw from my spirits well
Yet again you refuse to drink like a stubborn child
Lie to me,
Convince me that I've been sick forever
And all of this,
Will make sense when I get better
I know the difference,
Between myself and my reflection
I just can't help but to wonder,
Which of us do you love
So I bleed,
I bleed,
And I breathe,
I breathe now...
Bleed,
I bleed}
'It is because I love him. Even what he says and does that hurt me so badly, I could never find the courage to never stop loving him… no matter how hard I try. I'm deeply in love with the man. Even though someone is in the way, I can just watch myself not breathing. I need to learn that I can never have him. This pain. This brokenness that I feel from you. It makes me grow stronger in a way. Stronger? How the hell can you become stronger? It only makes me weak and defenseless! I can't not let him take over my life….. But I can't. I just love him to much…. Buy why? Why do I love him this munch!'
{And I breathe,
I breathe,
I breathe}
Kagome whipped away those tears. She had sled down against the door from her soberness. She sat there, still leaning against the wooden door. Her bands hovering over her eyes, creating a dark depressing shadow under her bangs. She looked like she totally lost it all. All of herself, just from that image she saw that day, that month, that year. All because of him… 'Inuyasha.'
"Kagome?"
{I breathe no more.}
Chapter 11 is over…
A/n: Yes, it's over… sorry it's kind of short. I decided to use this chapter as a songfic. I don't know why. I just thought maybe I could use a songfic for it. It kind of made sense about Kagome…. her feelings and thoughts. So anway, review.. plz?