Did my last chapter made you think about your outlook on life and some other things? If it did good for you! Back to the story. I have to make this short though, I have to go to some gay Algona band day festival. Lucky me. I hate band and almost everyone in the band loves band. I'm surrounded by band dorks. God help me!

"God Yususke, do you have to be so negative about this?" Kayko asked him. They were arguing about what they should do to help Hiei. And to make matters worse Kitty is in a trance a deep depression. Every night she has been going out to bars and coming home drunk. She doesn't take Hiei with her anymore. She doesn't want to hurt him like last time.

"Kayko, they lost! Kitty is a drunk. And Hiei won't talk, eat, and he cuts himself," Yusuke said, "This is getting serious."

"I don't know what to think any more," Kayko said frowning.

Hiei POV-

So I got sick. I don't feel any better. I'm not going to tell them though. I don't want them to care. I still cough up blood, but I force myself to swallow it or spit it out later. My sides still hurt, but I don't say anything. I don't care if I get better. I can't trust anyone.

Kitty POV-

Yea so I became a drunk. It helps me forget about things. I want to stop, but I can't. I tried cutting myself yesterday too. It was great! I could feel my blood rushing, my world spin. And just for a moment my past didn't exist. I love that feeling. The feeling of being free. But I'm not going to try it again. I don't want my friends to worry. They have enough problems with Hiei anyways.

Yukina POV-

It's odd. None smiles anymore. At least very rarely. I feel bad about Hiei. He's like a brother to me. I wish I could help him but I can't. At least not until he wants help. But I'll try to cheer everyone up.

Hiei POV-

"Ok Hiei, time for another talk," Yusuke said.

He can try all he wants, but I won't say anything.

"What is up with all his?"

I watched the clock.

"Come on. Why don't you talk?"

It's been one minute thirty seconds. If he thinks I'm going to answer he's stupid.

"Can you remember why you are doing this?"

Two minutes. Of course I remember. I remember everything that happened. I remembered the first time I cut my self.

Flash back

I walked into Kitty's house for another pointless meeting. I went to the dining room to see if any one is there. All that was there were some ribbons and a craft knife. Then I placed the blade next to the skin on my arm. A tingle went across my scalp. The floor tipped up at me and my world spiraled away. Then I was on the ceiling looking down, waiting to see what would happen next. What happened next was that a perfect, straight line of blood bloomed from the edge of the blade. The fine grew into a crimson bubble that got bigger and bigger. I watched from above, waiting to see how big it would get before it would burst. When it did I felt satisfied. And then Exhausted. I never cut myself too deep, never enough to die. But enough too feel pain. Enough to feel the scream inside.

End flash back

I knew he was trying to get to me. I couldn't let him help. I had to keep thinking negative. Who I really am.

I hate everybody.

I'm alone

I don't need any one.

I don't want any one.

I don't care.

They don't care.

I am no one.

I have never been any one.

I'll never be any one.

I am a shadow.

Rarely seen.

I'm dark and alone.

I blend in with my surroundings.

I don't matter.

I am a shadow and nothing more.

I'm alone.

Always have been,

Always will be.

I'm like a dark room,

Lonely and empty

I'm hard to see.

I'm dark and unwelcoming.

Nobody wants me.

I don't care.

Never trust any one.

Not even your self.

You don't need friends.

Friends will only weaken you.

They will get in your way.

I'm alone and always will be.

"Hiei? Hiei? Can you hear me?" asked Yusuke.

My consitrtion came back. I won't talk. I won't talk

That's all for now. I'll update later. Got to go play my fricken clarinet. God I hate band!