Chapter 7: To win her heart

Authors Note: Hm? I wonder who this chapter's going to go too.

Sango and Miroku sat at the school doors, the bell had already rung to let them in but Inuyasha or Kikyou hadn't shown up. "I wonder where they could be" Sango looked at Miroku worriedly, "What could have happened with about 6 hours?" Miroku said looking at Sango who shrugged slightly.

"Oh look there's Kikyou!"

"Is she with Sesshomaru?"

"Yea…"

"Strange…"

"Kikyou!" Sango called out waving to her friend urgently

"Sorry, we were just released from the hospital; they didn't want to let Sesshomaru leave"

Sesshomaru grunted towards Sango and Miroku acknowledging there presence, the two giving a stiff nod back, Sango turning towards Kikyou.

"What happened to you two?"

"Um…" Kikyou sighed looking down "I broke up with Inuyasha"

"What?" Miroku and Sango cried in union, Sesshomaru looking to the side almost disgusted with there outbursts.

"It's nothing; it just wasn't working out…" Kikyou said looking down sadly, "it had to be done" Kikyou looked up smiling weakly.

Sango looked at her sympathetically her eyes running over to Miroku as his hand clasped firmly in hers. Kikyou looking away sadly, Sesshomaru catching her pain feeling a little jealous in away, even after everything she still missed him.

It was silent for a moment the silence was almost deadly, no one knew what to do to or say and everyone looked like they were struggling to keep there emotions locked in, their question and concerns. As if to make matters worse, Inuyasha walked up to Kikyou, he looked a mess his hair was frizzing and bags were under his eyes.

"Inuyasha…" Kikyou looked away quickly to the side, 'I can't look in his eyes' she thought desperately squinting her eyes at the pain.

"Kikyou" He muttered softly placing a hand on her shoulder, Kikyou flinching at his touch. "I'm sorry"

Kikyou's Pov-

I can't help it. I want to forgive him, but I can't forgive him. I want to know why, I want to know how, and I want to let him go. I don't want to love him anymore; I don't want to feel this way. I want to be able to trust him and that's something…I'll never be able to do.

I managed to turn and look into his eyes and I felt my heart melt once more, those soft eyes… I shook my head mentally. No….Don't give in be strong.

"I'm sorry Inuyasha but… sorrys just not going to work" I tried to sound brave, I really did but I could hear the tiny bit of hope that still rose in my voice, no one seemed to notice no one except Sesshomaru.

Sesshomaru was very observant. He noted things I did very well; he was very quick at picking things up. He turned away, walking past us a look of jealousy in his eyes. That's quite weird though since Sesshomaru doesn't get jealous, there was nothing to be jealous of was there? Maybe I'm just seeing things.

Sango and Miroku hadn't moved yet, there hands were still clenched tightly, I could tell they were worried, I just wish I could ease their fears, but I couldn't even ease my own. I saw the look of pain in his eyes and I reached out to touch him, I couldn't control my hand it seemed to move on it's own up to his face. He smiled softly, and I slid my hand slowly away, "I'm sorry Inuyasha but after that, I don't think I could ever…"

"I know Kikyou, I'm sorry; I never meant to hurt you"

"Then…why?"

"I thought I'd be helping you, I'm an orphan, you're so pure and Kagome's as sinned as I am, and her words she manipulated me…Kikyou I…."

Helping me? How? I wanted to shout at him, but it was all I could do now not to hold back the tears.

"I love you Kikyou"

His words snapped me back to reality, loved me? He never said that while we were going out so why? Why now? Was he trying to torture me?

"I never told you because I wasn't sure…but Kikyou the thought of losing you, I can't. I need you Kikyou, I've never felt so strongly about this about anything... I'd do anything for you to forgive me"

My heart fell drastically, why did he have to use his words? His sweet words? Oh how I long to believe them, to forgive him as if it never happened, but words change and so did he. But did he change again? What if we can ignore it? No…we could never do that… I sighed and I looked at him, Sango and Miroku were still a bit confused obviously but it was more or less like that they weren't even there. It was just me and Inuyasha.

"I think…" I said slowly "I need to talk to my sister" I turned around as I walked into school, Sango and Miroku standing next to Inuyasha looking at him confused…

Normal Pov-

Kikyou walked down the hall sadly, her shoulders hunched down as she sighed stopping at Kagome's locker. Kagome came up from around the corner, pausing and continuing walking towards her sister.

"Looking for me?"

Kikyou looked at her hurt, a small fire glowing in her brown eyes, her hands clenched into fists.

"Why?"

"Why what?"

"Why did you do it to me! Why Inuyasha?" Kikyou was shaking now, tears brimmed her eyes as she looked up at her sister, Kagome almost looking somewhat sad compared to her normal blank stares.

"I'm your sister, don't you feel any guilt?"

"Do you?"

Kikyou paused "Why should I feel guilt? I'm not the one who slept with my sister's boyfriend!" Kikyou shouted angrily, Kagome looking at her just as mad.

"Do you know what it's like to live in your sister's shadow?" Kagome said harshly. "To have to be like you? Mom doesn't give a damn about me and you don't give a damn either, so neither do I! All my life I wanted to be like you, you got everything, you even had a perfect boyfriend. But you know what Kikyou you were stupid; you didn't see his hurt, the look of need in his eyes! Some people can heal with words and some people like me heal with body. We all have needs Kikyou and you didn't try to help anyone's but yourself."

Kikyou paused and looked at her sister, her tears had seemed to stop, but her sister's had started. It was the first time Kikyou had ever seen her sister cry. She had no idea her sister even COULD have feelings; I guess it shows anything is possible.

"Kagome I…"

"Don't say it"

"What"

"Don't say you're sorry, because I don't regret what I've done. I don't regret hurting you, it serves you right"

Kikyou looked as her sister walked away the late bell ringing as she stood there. 'Kagome isn't just a slut?' Kikyou thought almost stunned 'She has feelings, barely but…there still there'

Sesshomaru watched from behind the corner, 'She cares about him so much…I have to do something to win her heart.'

Authors Note: Sesshomaru wants to win Kikyou's heart? When did his crush begin? And what happens when Inuyasha find out about this crush?

Next Chapter: The crush