Third chapter... Still no internet. -.-' If you're reading this then I'm not dead, but I suggest you download or (god forbid) buy The Best of Inuyasha II CD… Very great music on it, makes even more sense if you understand Japanese and broken English, and even more sense still if you can find a decent translation. ' Since I'm just randomly babbling, I'd like to announce that Gackt is a god, but HYDE is Satan. Who do I love more? Choices! Choices! I really did have a nosebleed during Kei's (A.K.A Hyde) outburst at Sho (A.K.A Gackt) during MOONCHILD. Perhaps I love HYDE more… Damn their hotness. Damn their hotness to my room… XD Of course, Sheeshmoo (Sesshy) is higher on the hotchain then both of them. If I had the chance to kidnap just one then it would Sheeshmoo and I would be eternally happy. Bwahahahahahahahaha!
I heard the words come out,
I felt like I would die,
It hurt so much to hurt you.
And you look at me,
You're not shouting anymore,
You're silently broken.
-Forgive Me, Evanescence
I'm not sure how much time has passed, but it must be a few hours because dusk it closing in. Shippo fell asleep on my lap, and now he's curled in my arms, his thumb in his mouth. He yawns and snuggles in closer to my breast.
It's sort of funny how he must be at least fifty, but he's still got that baby scent on him.
"Kagome?"
I give a slight start at my name, and jerk my head toward his voice.
"You've been out here for a while. Kikyo was worried."
Inuyasha comes into view, and sits beside me tentavely.
Kikyo was worried… but not you? You weren't thinking of me then?
I'm glad it's dark because I don't think I can hide the hurt look in my eyes.
He sighs, and I can feel the warmth radiating off his body at my side.
"Kagome, did something happen between you and Kikyo?"
I didn't answer. How can I tell him what happened when I don't even know myself?
"Kagome? Hey! Kagome!"
He poked me.
"Are you listening? Hello?"
I glared at him.
"Oh gee, I don't know. I'm just sitting out here for no reason at all while you and her pick up right where you left off!"
His mouth drops open, and mine does too.
Did I say that? What's wrong with me?
Suddenly I felt my hurt turn into anger.
"Obviously, I'm no longer of any use to you. After all, without the Shikon no Tama, you don't need a Jewel Detector around, and now that Kikyo's alive and healthy, you don't have to pretend I'm her substitute either!"
I pushed Shippo into his arms, jumped up and pointed my finger at him, jabbing his chest.
"I know Inuyasha! Why don't you stop beating around the bush and just tell me what you really came out here to say? You choose Kikyo? I know that. I'll always be second best? I know that too. You wish you never met me? That's more apparent then anything. You don't even have to say it. I can see it in your face. I'm the intruder here. I've come along and because I was the stand-in princess, now that the real one's here, I'm ruining your fairy tale!"
I turned around and took a few steps toward the forest. My shoulders are shaking. I can't believe I said that. I can't believe I could be so harsh. It was like… those words weren't even mine.
"K-K-Kagome?"
His voice is disbelieving, dripping with the hurt he's trying not to show.
"I hate you, Hanyou." I told him bitterly.
Oh Kami. What is the matter with me!
"What the hell did I do to you? Snap out of it stupid!" He yells angrily
I can't stay here. I can't face him. I take off into the forest, leaving him still sitting there with Shippo in his arms, darkness all around us.
Branches whipped at me, slicing open my flesh, grabbing me with their leafy claws.
I ran until I couldn't run anymore. My sides were aching with fatigue and I couldn't stop the tears from running.
How could I? How did I manage to say those awful things? I called him a Hanyou! He hates being called that! I said I hated him. I… I said so many terrible things to him…
I'm a horrible person.
I fell to my knees, sobbing.
How he must feel right now. I treated him like…
"Trash?"
I nodded.
"Trash!"
Huh? What the…
I looked up, and stared at the speaker with my mouth wide open.