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Sam turned over in bed and could just make out Jason's silhouette with the moonlight bathing the bedroom she was unable to sleep the baby was kicking constantly as if to wake her up and make her deal with all that was on her mind. Tears poured out her eyes and down her cheeks. Finally not being able to take it anymore she slowly turned over and got up out of bed and made her way downstairs. As she got to the bottom of the stairs she sat on the bottom step and began sobbing. Jason had gone out of his way in the time span of a little over a month that he had come and she had moved back in to tell her how much he loved her at every turn. The only problem was that the more he tried to hit it home the less she tried to catch it and hold it in her heart. And Gd help her thoughts of
Lucky ran through her mind all the time and she felt bad, her heart was torn in two. She never in a million years thought she would ever see Jason again, when he told her to get on with her life, she didn't want to believe it but as each day passed into the next and those became weeks she lost more and more hope and then she had found out she was pregnant and the love that she had turned to such resentment for him and she just couldn't deal with it, she remembers that fateful morning. Walking along the pier so broken and unable to face the reality that Jason would never come back she was beside herself with hurt and that's when Lucky found her...
Jason turned over in bed and realized she wasn't there, putting his hand where she had been the sheets were cold, throwing the blankets off he sat up and listened to the quietness of room. Swinging his feet out and down on the ground he got up and walked out rounding the corner he heard her crying. And for the first time he knew he just knew she was going to go. To much time had gone by and her heart no matter how much she tried, she couldn't come to grips with the fact that he had gone. She understood, but it should never have ever come to that. He saw her slipping away from him, he could see it in her eyes, and in her touch. His decision had destroyed them and he didn't know, he didn't know how he could live without her. Thinking back over a year ago now he had told her that he wanted to be with her even if it had meant that he had everything to lose, tonight, right now, in this moment he realized that he would never love another again, she was his and always would be, but right now he had to let her go.