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Sam looked over at Lucky holding his hand in hers. She had told him over a month ago that for right now, because she was so messed up that she couldn't commit to him... The day she left Jason had been the hardest thing she ever had to do. Looking back at him as he watched her go, it was like her heart had broken allover again. She never wished to hurt him, ever. Sam wasn't like that, to give up so easily but she knew what she knew and what she knew was that she had to be away from him. It had been a few weeks since seeing him, but here right now as she lay here in the hospital E.R. today their baby would be born. The baby she only had wanted with him, when she closed her eyes she saw them, it wasn't Lucky, it was Jason and if she could just get over the fact that he hurt her as deeply as he did, truly forgive him and give him the chance to make it right, she would but she couldn't at least not right now. It had all come down to choices, right and wrong ones that had been made and the consequences of them.

Lucky held her hand in his as he looked at her; she had tears in her eyes as she looked away from him. He knew her heart was being torn in two. Jason would be here soon and for her sake he wanted to be supportive. She hadn't really talked about what happened between them, and personally he didn't want to know. He had been elated the day she called him and let him know she needed to come back. But it had been very hard on her, he saw it everyday in her. Her tears were a constant and she had become so withdrawn not to the point of him being worried sick but still he was worried. She loved Jason, with everything in her and that was a harsh reality to come to grips with. He had seen him coming and going around Port Charles and there was a disdain between them, both in love with the same woman, they couldn't talk let alone look at each other.

Jason rode up the elevator to the third floor. Their baby was going to be born today he missed her so damn much, more so than when he had been in prison, here there was little distance between them which made it worse for him. He couldn't stay home at night so he ended up a lot of times at Jakes then some local hotel room. When she left the life that was in her and in them went with her making his life dark and miserable. The day she left was the worst day of his life, ever. He felt so helpless to be able to do anything. Making his way to the nurses' station he found Dr. Meadows as he made his way down to the E.R. and looking in he saw her with Lucky, then as if on instinct she turned and saw him and in that moment he saw a look in her eyes that gave him hope, even if it was just a little. They had been through to much over the course of almost 2 ½ years. He wouldn't miss this day for the world, and he knew in his heart that she would never make him, it wasn't in her to be unfair, she was just so screwed up. As he pushed through the door he walked in.

"Hey." He said as she started to really cry.

"Can you give us a few minutes Lucky?" Sam said between sobs.

"Yeah." Lucky said.

Jason walked over to her and leaning down he hugged her close to him. She cried into his shoulder. His touch on her was a welcome like a long awaited letter. He just held her so close to him feeling within him that she needed that much more than anything else. Everything in him knew along with that look that she shot back at him from the bed when he looked at her spoke volumes to him. She loved him, more than that she was in love with him. Their love would never fade away, it was to strong.

"I'm so glad you're here Jason."

"I wouldn't miss it for the world Sam."

"I miss you Jason, so much."

"I know you do, because I do so much to Samantha, more than you'll ever know."

"Sam, are you just about ready to get things underway, in about 15 minutes?"

"Yeah."

"Oh by the way, Mr. Spencer told me to give this to you." She said handing her a note as Sam reached out and took it from her she took it and opened it up.

Samantha,

I look at you and I see the deep love you have for Jason. A love that won't die no matter how much you try to put it to death. I love you, but I also know that loving you isn't enough... not when your heart is with someone else. I wish you, the baby and Jason all the best.

Lucky.

She said out loud then breathed a heavy sigh of relief as she looked at him and smiled. Jason looked at her drinking her in beauty. " I am so in love with you Sam...I just want you to come home, but I know it has to be your move and not mine. I will wait for you forever, just let me know if I have a chance of winning you back." He said as the nurses came in and prepped her for surgery.

"I've thought of nothing else Jason, but I don't want you to live in hell that I have created out of anger."

"Let it go Sam, just let it go. I am here and nothing can stop us or our love and that is apparent to everyone, even to you Sam that's why you are so scared...You are scared that the next time I leave I am never coming back...I am committed Sam, only to you, I know that I have made stupid choices, but I beg you don't keep raking me over the coals for something that has already been said and done..."

"I don't want to Jason, I just need you to be there for me, to love me again and the reassurance that you will never go again. It screwed me up, and I want to be a family Jason more than anything. You are the only man for me and I know it, and I know I have been so damn moody, my hormones have gone completely nuts."

"Shhhhhh." He said trying to get a word in as he leaned in and kissed her, she kissed him back. Pulling him to her with her hands her tongue crashed with his as she tasted him she told him she wanted him and everything that came with it.

"I have been such a fool Jason."

"No Sam, you have been hurting and I was just pushing to hard, I wanted it all to be back to normal again, but what we have been through will make us so strong. I don't know what the future holds for us Sam, but by god I want to be with you and our baby, and I want to marry you."

The nurse came in and gave her an epidural as she looked at him. The baby's monitor had been turned on and she kept looking back over at Jason as the little heartbeat fluttered within her. He took his seat next to her as Dr. Meadows came in and made sure that she was fine. The nurses continued to drape her and had her hooked up to every conceivable monitor to make sure she was fine.

"The baby's heartbeat is strong. You got one healthy baby Sam." Dr. Meadows said as she looked at her then to Jason.

"Are you ready?"

"Yeah."

"Okay." She said as the anesthesiologist made her way over to Sam and right before she got put under Jason told her he loved her, and then they put the mask over her as Jason sat right by her side holding her hand. A few minutes later Monica and Alan came by.

"Everything is going to be okay Jason. Sam is healthy and you are strong. I am so happy for the two of you; I want to be involved in this baby's life." She said as Jason nodded.

"Everything looks fine here." Dr. Meadows said. "Just two more incisions and this baby is going to be here. Jason, do you want to cut the umbilical cord?"

"Yes." Jason said.

"Okay."

"Blood pressures good, baby's heartbeat is strong." The nurse said.

"Okay, here comes the baby." She said gently easing the baby out "It's a girl." She said looking over at Jason who had tears streaming down his face. "Here you go daddy, cut right here." Dr. Meadows said as the baby started crying loudly he looked at her, she was beautiful and he looked at Sam as they lifted the mask off of her. The nurses whisked her off to be cleaned, weighed, measured, and pricked.

Jason walked over to her and kissed her awake. She looked at him kind of out of it

"We have a beautiful baby girl and I love you Sam."

"Congratulations Sam." Dr. Meadows said. "You have a healthy baby girl, you should have no problem having any more children, but I still want to check you out okay?"

"Yeah, thank you for everything."

"Sam my granddaughter is beautiful." Monica said "Emily should be here soon."

"Thanks so much."

"I want you to let me be a grandma to her."

"Of course." She said as she looked for Jason who was hovering near his daughter.

"How much does she weigh?"

"7 lb. 12 oz, 21 inches long."

"Daddy do we have a name?"

"Emma Rose Morgan."

Two weeks later...

Sam was busy nursing Emma in bed while Jason took his shower for the morning. Coming out he watched her from the doorway. She looked absolutely beautiful nursing their daughter. She was so at ease with the baby, since she had been home for the past few days she had been so much more peaceful and he hoped and prayed that they were over this bump in the road.

Sam could sense Jason's presence as she nursed their daughter. Looking down at her she had dark hair and for the moment had the bluest of eyes just like her daddy. For once in the past few months she was blissfully happy and didn't want to have anything to do with the bad memories. She wanted to be with Jason and more than anything wanted to be his wife.

Jason had one thought swirling in his head and that was to make Sam all his and soon. Enough of the waiting, waiting in Sam's mind had equated that he didn't want her and that he would put anything and anyone ahead of their happiness and that simply wasn't the case anymore. Looking at her he wanted nothing more than to be all hers, in fact he longed for the day when she was.

"Hey what are you thinking about handsome?"

"You Sam and how much I want you to be my wife."

"I'm ready to be your wife Jason." She said as he leaned down to kiss her. "No more waiting please. I don't even care if we get married in the luxury of our own place."

"Well, Sam I would love to give you the wedding of your dreams, remember what they were?"

"Yeah, I do, but I have changed so much since then. I just want it to be simple just you and I if you don't mind."

"Are you sure?"

"Yes I am, you and the baby are all I need and want and maybe later on down the road if we wanted to renew our vows someday. Then we could have something more, but for right now I just want it to be us."

"Sam..."

"No Jason, don't try to talk me out of it."

"I was just going to ask you if you are sure about all of this, about marrying me."

"Jason, haven't you heard anything I just said to you?" She said smiling at him "Come here." She said to him in a seductive kind of way, as he rounded the bed, coming close to her she reached out softly and took his hand and pulled him gently down to her as their lips brushed softly against one another at first, then parting their lips their tongues met and danced between them.

Six months later...

Sam lay in Jason's arms in the still of the morning, she thought about how much had happened but more than that how wrong and unfair she had been to Lucky, he knew what she had all along, that Jason Morgan was the only man for her, it was if fate brought them together and together they would always be. As the sun started breaking through the morning fog, she moved her arms around him and held him tighter to her, she was in love and today finally after all these months she was his, for ever, until death do them part. Jason moved the hair from off her shoulders and buried himself into her beautiful neck, as he remembered back to the time, when they danced after Em's wedding, when Sam fell asleep, when everything in him screamed for her, she had past out. Leaning down his lips made contact with her creamy skin as she moaned underneath him, wanting him so badly, that the ache was never satiated for him, she always wanted him and the fact was he wanted her all the time to, they pleasured each other perfectly. Turning over, her lips met his as they both struggled to take possession of the other's, Jason pulled her to him never wanting to let his woman go and knowing he never would, she was his heart and soul, his comfort and his rock, she was his everything and she always would be and yes, she had forgiven him.

The End