I hate school. I hate life. I hate myself. Hell I hate many things. My family doesn't really like how I dress. Or the way I act. And when they find my poems they freak out. I have an excuse for almost anything. O yeah I am very depressed cause my fish Freddy died. But he lived four days that's a new record for me with fish. When I was younger I put salt in the fishes water. Yeah.. big mistake. I have many things to do. So I will just make this a Hiei POV with some of my poems. I don't know if you will like it but what the heck I got stuff to do. But enough about my life, you people are only reading this for the story so on with the story....
Hiei POV-
I was bored so I started writing.
Do you know what its like to be hurt
To be hurt by friends
To be hurt by the people you thought cared about you
They all took turns
Took turns on killing me
They all stabbed me in the back
I felt every blow
The pain fades away
Till I see you
Your face brings back the memory
And the pain
You don't know my pain
You don't know why I hurt
Everything is all right
That's what you think
That pain never goes away
The pain of being hurt by your friends
It hurts too much
Maybe I just imagine it
But it hurts too much for it not to be real
So I let it fade
But it's still real
I'm lost
Lost in the darkness
Lost in my hate
For a second I hear you
But then you are gone
I am lost in myself
I am lost in my coldness
Nothing but black is around me
I can't see
I can't feel
I'm too lost to be saved
I wander on my own
Only being swallowed into the darkness
My heart
I wait for you
Wait for you to take me to the other side
But you forget me
I will remain lost
Lost in my darkness
Lost in my soul
I'm bleeding
You don't try to stop it
You made me bleed
Crimson surrounds me
My blood is on the floor
And at your feet
I want to stop it
But I cant
So I continue to bleed
My blood pours
And you stand
Watching
I'm falling
I'm going under
I'm dieing
Dieing on the inside
You let me bleed
But you haven't noticed
The blood is at your feet
And on your hands
You don't care
My pain is invisible to you
You made me bleed
You left me to die
I should be out of blood
But I'm not
I will bleed forever
Why did you hurt me?
Why did you let me die?
You drug me under
Under you
Under everything
You let me burn
You destroyed me
Mentally
And spiritually
I can't fly
I can't even crawl
You drug me under
But why
All I did was be a friend to you
But you hurt me
So I let you take me under
You say you care
But then I died
You let me die
I killed myself
You want to know why
Look in the mirror
And you'll see why
Why I committed suicide
Ok that's all I can write sorry if it seemed long but I didn't have time to think today for more to add. But next time I will. I have a big test and I can't think about anything else right now. And I already had these things written down so I just typed them quick. So did you like them? The first one was called hurt, the second one was lost and the third one was bleed and the last one was called why. That's all for now.
