Hey. We put up or Christmas decorations yesterday and today. It's so sparkly. I hate it. And the never-ending Christmas music is driving me insane. I made it through Thanksgiving, hopefully Christmas. Also I have to go back to school tomorrow. I hate it because the work and the stuck up rich snobs. If I ever get the chance I will murder them the bastards. Sorry about that. Also I have to get revenge on a 'friend' for making another friend cry. Fun fun fun. Can you say BLACK MAIL!! Oh and I did find my little brother and sister. They were in their beds sleeping. I put the to bed almost an hour before I wrote that. I forgot. I can be a blonde (that's because I have blonde hair) sometimes, every once in a great while. And I had to go see Polar Express with my family. I choked on my pop during the previews, cause they were showing something for a new Pooh Bear movie and my sister said heflelup while they had a big pause and then rabbit said a funny way. So that caused me to choke on the pop. That movie was weird. And stupid. Well on with the story. Oh yeah what's an authors note?

(Kitty- blonde hair, long white shirt with a black shirt over it that has My imaginary friend says you have serious mental problems written in blue, and is wearing black jeans)

Kitty POV-

I'm so bored. Nothing changes everything just repeats. The only thing that changes is the black notebook when Hiei updates.

(Kitty reading)-

Listen

Can you hear me?

No

To you I have no voice

No heart

Not even a soul

I listen

Listen to you

Every word

Every sentence

I listen to the hate voice

You're talking to me

Killing me

Killing me with words

They seem to bounce off me

But they sting inside

The pain lingers in my heart

And in my soul

Nut this means nothing to you

So leave

Let me die

Don't try to save me

So listen to me

I don't care

And neither do you

You ignore me

Ignore me pain

My tears

My tears of suicide

My tears of blood

Every mark you make

Every punch I take

Brings me a step closer

A step closer to towards death

A step towards life with no pain

Life without you

So listen

I won't cry

Only because I want to die

Hiei POV-

I as walking though the forest when I was met by Quizzical. We both stopped for a brief moment. Without warning he had me pinned up against a tree. I knocked out of his grasp. "What do you want?" I asked him getting annoyed. He only smiled. He had an abnormal smile. It didn't seem real. It gave me an uneasy feeling.

"You know what I want," He said still smiling.

"No I don't," I said to him. His smiled never left his face even though I could see fire of anger and frustration in his eyes.

"Don't toy with me," he said, "You know. I know you do."

"Can you read minds?" I asked him.

"No."

"Then you don't know if I know," I said to him folding my arms across my chest. His smile got sicker.

"You're cute when you do that," he said to me. I dropped my arms to my sides.

"You are one bizarre thing," I said to him. He just smiled. Nothing seemed to get him mad. What was he planning? His remark left me dazed in confusion and discussed. Before I knew it he had me pinned up against the tree again. He pulled out a small carving knife, and stabbed me in the upper arm. He smiled and twisted the blade around inside me hoping to cause me to scream in pain. I only smirked. He took out the knife and stabbed me again over and over in the arm. "Why won't you scream? Why won't you scream?" He yelled.

I smirked, "I don't scream," I said. He only smiled more and stabbed me harder.

"Why? Why can't you? He said grinding his teeth.

"Pain doesn't bother me," I said. "At least not any more." He stopped. I took this moment to my advantage. I kneed him in to the stomach causing him to roll on the ground screaming in pain. "That wasn't fair!" He said through breaths.

"Just using your stupidity to my advantage," I said holding my arm trying to keep the blood in, but it wasn't working that well.

"I will get revenge for this. I swear," he said smiling. And with that he got up and left. He slumped to the ground and took in a few breaths. I got up and staggered back to the temple.

Yep that's all I can write for now. Don't know if I will have much time to update cause of the holidays. But I'll try. That poem was called listen. It's dedicated to my friend Toki. And I didn't get paid for babysitting! That's completely messed up! Especially since I had to play Barbies with my little sister. And one Barbie's head "accidentally" fell off. He he he. Well bye!