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AN: I try to update on this story once a day, but on weekdays it is hard… Please Review and tell me what you think! I working on making it not skip around too much and this chapter I don't think does. I pretty much stay with the characters… Thank you everyone for the advice!

Never Meant To Hurt You

Chapter Five

"Remus! What took you so long?" James asked waving his hand, beckoning for Remus to go and sit. James looked strange today, well, to Remus anyway. He brushed his hair, for one and now it wasn't so untidy. His tie was tied the way it should be and wasn't loose, but it appeared to be chocking him.

Remus walked down the Gryffindor table and sat next to James who seemed to have changed over night. 'The beers must have done it,' Remus thought, at least that was what he thought until Sirius nudged him and said, "Do you think Evans will like 'the new Prongs'?" Remus starred at Sirius and asked, "That's who this 'new' thing is for?" Sirius nodded. "Who else could have made James look like he does?"

'Of course,' Remus thought, 'It was for Lily,' Remus starred at James with disbelief. He knew he would have to answer Sirius' question, but he didn't want to. The truth was James did look nice and Lily would like that, but Lily would like the fact that James did it for her even more. Remus had to tell James he looked great. He couldn't be jealous or rude; he wasn't like that so he said, "James you look great, and I'm sure Lily will love it,"

"Stop it, Moony, you're making me blush," James said in a girlish voice, making Sirius and Peter laugh. James stopped the girlish voice immediately and was starring at someone. Peter, Sirius and Remus all turned in the direction that James was starring. There she was, Lily, the one that tortured Remus each and every time she cried, each and every time she would be upset. "Hello, guys," she said, as she sat down opposite of James. "Hello," they all said dully. "My James, you look good," She said, looking over to him. James smiled and Lily smiled back.

It was like they clicked. After one smiled the other one did too and the fact killed Remus. "So, Evans, I mean Lily, you know the dance is coming up and I want you to be my date," James said in his most charming date. "Oh, I know Mr. Potter, but the only way I'll go is it you call me by my first name from now until the dance," Lily said, leaning over the table. Remus and Sirius knew she was teasing James, and found it amusing when took a long pause. "Deal," James said.

Lily smiled, stood up from the table and left. James starred at her as she walked out of the great hall and when she did, he started jumping up down a moving his hands the way he would when he was playing Quidditch. "No one can resists me," he said, pointing his thumbs at himself. "You messed up your hair," Sirius told James. "Well, Evans isn't here any more She is the only reason my hair looked bad in the first place," James said.

"Bad, Evans thought it looked good, and you are not aloud to call her by that name; she said her first name other wise you don't take her to the dance," Sirius said, laughing afterwards. "Believe me it was bad, and she isn't here to know what name I use. I just have to be careful in front of her," James told them. "James I think your missing the point-" Remus began to say, but James' hands flew up in protest. "Nonsense! Prongs always knows about how everything goes!" He said, crossing his arms.

"Sure," the three said. James opened his eyes and saw that the other three marauders were walking out of the great hall. He took a piece of toast and ran out after them. "What do you mean?" He yelled once he was out of the great hall. Peter, James and Sirius laughed. "Lets play some Quidditch." Sirius suggested. They all agreed. "I hope you guys know this isn't over!" James said, "Even though it's not over who could pass an opportunity to beat to friends at Quidditch?"

"Ok, James, Remus and I versus you and Peter," Sirius said. James crossed his arms, "Why?" he asked. "So we can even the skill a bit," Sirius said, knowing James would go through with it if he were complimented. James and Sirius were both playing seeker while Remus was keeper, and Peter chaser. It was complicated, only having four people, but it worked for them.

The game ended when James caught the snitch the third time. "I got one goal!" Peter chirped. "Sure, if you count flying into the hoop with the ball," Remus said, raising his eyebrows. "Whatever you two! I had a good time except for the few times James knocked me off the broom," Sirius said. "The only time I will ever not knock someone off their broom is when I'm dead," James said.

"I'm hungry," Peter told them. "Why don't we go to the kitchen?" James asked.

"Ok," two of them said. "You know what, I'm not hungry, but I am tired. I think I'm going to just go to the common room. See you guys later," Remus said. He waved to them and walked towards the Gryffindor Tower.

Remus reached the Common room and took out his journal. If he wrote quickly he would be able to rest. He wondered how he would write. He thought about the day and remembered how he felt when Lily smiled, when she sat down and when she left.

He wrote:

i

October 2, 1978

She was there. Like she is everyday; at the Gryffindor table. Only problem was, it didn't seem like she was really there. It was like she was somewhere else, somewhere I couldn't find.

She smiled at him and he smiled back. He asked her to the dance, the same one I wanted to ask her to, but she sees me as a friend and only a friend. What I wouldn't give to be in James' position. When she agreed to go to the dance with him I felt jealousy in my heart. The kind of jealousy I never felt before,

I want to be happy for him, but it's hard when I love her and have to see her with another man. There it is, those same words, maybe one day I'll be able to tell her those words of torture…

I love her

I love her

I love her

Maybe I won't be able to tell her…

I love her

-Remus /i

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