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AN: Here a new chapter! Please tell me what you think! Please Review! Thankyou future goddess for the review. I do know I made James a jerk. I don't think he was like that and I'm going to go back and try to fix it. I had another review on another site saying the same thing.

I had some free time so I'm putting this up, now.

Never Meant To Hurt You

Chapter Six

The ball was on the day of Lily's birthday. Remus was still worrying that the gift may suck. How would he know unless he saw the look on her face when she got it? Remus tried to think of the way Lily would look when she opened his gift. He knew immediately that it wouldn't change. He got her a gift every year and the same expression came; she smiled at him and he knew she loved it.

The traditional thing would happen; Lily would hug him, he would asked her if it was what she wanted, she would say yes and she would use the gift immediately. She always had a way of making people feel like they did something really good for her or got something really good, even if she hated it. It was part of her. Lily was strange in that way she hated some things that people got her, but it was the thought that counted for her and not many people thought as she did.

Remus' mom sent him his dress robes for the dance or ball, whatever you want to call it. His robes were the color of red with gold stitches on the sides and a smooth texture. He looked amazing in it. He looked immediately in the mirror of the prefects' bathroom. He looked very formal and very handsome, which made Remus feel a bit better about the dance.

He would wait till after the dance to give Lily her card. His gift to her would arrive earlier, but he would give her the card and that's when he would tell her. He decided on that yesterday, when he was lying awake on his bed imagining how beautiful she would look in her dress. That's when he would tell her the truth… He loved her… And he always had…

Remus decided to look at himself one more time in the mirror with his robes on. He knew he was being silly and that if anyone saw him they would think that he was acting like a schoolgirl before a date. He was twisting and turning like a girl would well most would, this was when he stopped. He looked around, seeing if anyone was watching him. No one was, he was ok, but that didn't stop him from taking the dress robes off. He hung the red robes on hangers; magical hangers, the kind of hangers that wouldn't ruin the robes.

He was bored. He didn't know what to do. Normally, he would go and hang out with the other marauders, but James and Sirius were in detention for being disturbers of the peace in the kitchen. Peter wasn't there, but he wasn't around. He was talking to his other friend, Frank Longbottom. They weren't best friends, but they were close. Peter and Frank had met when they were in detention. Peter had done the potion wrong for the fourth time and Frank had made rude comments about the professor, who no longer was a professor at Hogwarts. It was in their first year and Frank agreed to help Peter with potion, since Frank was pretty good at it, not the best, but better than Peter. They had become friends from there and both had a crush on a certain girl named Alice, though neither of them ever admitted it.

Remus decided to go out to the quidditch field and play with a few other kids from Gryffindor and Hufflepuff. Remus didn't play on the house team, not because he was no good, he was, but he had never 'loved' quidditch like others who played on the team did. He never developed a thing for quidditch like every other boy had growing up, instead he had developed reading and writing. It was nothing he was ever upset about, he loved those things and he loved loving those things.

Sometimes reading and writing so much made him compare himself to Serverus Snape, an intelligent student of Slytherin who buried his nose in books when ever he was awake. Although, he wasn't obsessed with books, they did take up most of his time, and he was happy they did.

He was walking up to the quidditch field when he saw her on a bench, just watching the kids on brooms. He walked up to her, with him clutching his broom in his hand. "Lily, its quidditch, why aren't you playing on the field with them?" Remus asked, standing a few feet away from her. Her hair was blowing slightly as they breezes of October swayed around the castle. Lily looked up at him. 'She must have been out her a long time,' he thought, 'her face has red spreading all over it and that meant she was cold. Of course it made sense she had no jacket or anything that would keep her warm.' Lily smiled at him and then asked, "Remember the last practice the Gryffindor team had?" Remus nodded, he wasn't there, but he knew when they were. Lily continued, "Well, I crashed into a player and my broom went flying and hit the Whomping Willow." Remus didn't need to here more, he knew how violent that tree was; he goes there every month. He sat down next to her on the bench. "I'm sorry," he said. He was just inches apart from her, and he could smell her conditioner she used as her hair was blowing in his face. It was a beautiful smell and all Remus wanted to do was stay there and smell her hair, but he worried someone would notice. "Its alright, they look like there doing better without me anyway. Its better if I don't play," Lily said, moving her eyes towards the players in the air. Remus noticed her look of longing; she wanted to play quidditch.

Remus understood it; he loved books and could barely go a day with out them and this was probably how it was for Lily and quidditch, although Lily did love books. "But you want to play, don't you?" Remus asked her. Lily turned her head to the left where he was sitting and nodded. Remus handed her his broom. "Then play," He told her.

Lily smiled and Remus' heart jumped. There it was the most beautiful smile he had ever seen. "Are you sure?" Lily asked him. He nodded and Lily practically jumped on him when hugging him. "On one condition, though," he said. Lily looked at him, wondering what that 'one condition might be. "You have to wear the coat," he said taking his coat off and giving it to her to keep her warm. "What about you?" she asked as Remus was helping her in it. "Me? I'm fine as long as I see you play quidditch," He told her. Lily gave him another hug and stood up. "I'll give it to you when I'm done. Thank you so much, Remus," Lily said and Remus smiled as Lily ran off over to play with the others. He wrapped his hands around himself and said, so no one would hear, "anything for you."

He sat on the bench watching Lily shoot goals every thirty seconds. The air around him was freezing and he knew he would have frostbites, but he wanted to watch her play, and see how happy she was when she scored. Lily was looking down from the air and saw Remus watching her. She smiled and waved at him and he waved back. After he waved she went back to killing some of the players on the opposite team. Remus watched her and the more he did the more he saw how much she resembled an angel.

He had never seen one, but he had heard about them in stories his mom told him as a kid. Remus' dad dies just after Remus was born and Remus spent most of his time wishing he had one, but grateful he had his mother. His mother was something like an angel, too, to Remus. She had advice and stories that helped Remus deal with real life. She made sure Remus grew up liking other things than most boys did when they were your. She let him play sports, sure, but she always made him do things around the house that most young girls did with their mom. She told stories to Remus all the time and from the first moment she carried Remus in her arms an amazing bond grew; one that was not meant for breaking, nor would it ever.

It appeared to Remus that Lily was on a cloud, a beautiful bed from heaven, and was hovering over the ground, protecting anyone who needed the protection and healing anyone who needed healing. She looked like she was saving the world from the 'bad guys' that were what people called, Pain, Suffering and worst of all; Dying. But not the dying like the people who die from natural causes in hospitals, but the living things that have to live with the loss of someone, who had to keep going, who had to live when someone they loved left… Lily would protect everyone of that in anyway she could. She would sacrifice herself if it made those things happen, if it made one of those things happen.

Suddenly, Remus felt as though he was suffering, but not physically or mentally, but emotionally. He felt as though a part of him was becoming distant… And he knew immediately what that part was; his heart. Everyday his heart would drift out further and further away from himself, as would Lily…

AN2: I tried to stay with the describing a bit more… Please tell me how I'm doing… I had to put more of Remus' feelings in here… Please Review!