Title: holding on to it all...
Summary: A continuation to my fic " Secrets from their past."...
Disclaimer: I don't own anything
"Dad?" Lindsey whispered shaking Gil from his sleep " Dad where's mom?"
Gil quickly opened his eyes and jumped up " Linds! What's wrong?"
Lindsey shrugged " Nothing, I just wanted to know here mom was. She usually gets up and drives me to school."
Gil looked at his watch "eight thirty.. what time do you guys leave?"
"Now." Lindsey replied.
Gil nodded " Okay. give me five minutes and I'll drive you."
Lindsey nodded and headed out of the room. Gil grabbed his clothes and got dressed, he ran out of the bedroom and grabbed his keys and met Lindsey outside.
"So where's mom?" Lindsey made conversation
Gil sighed " you're Dad called last night, he's not doing to well."
Lindsey nodded " He's misses his family."
Gil nodded " Yeah and it's hard for him. But you're mom didn't want him to hurt himself so she went over there early this morning.Just to make sure he's okay."
Lindsey nodded " Oh..well tell her I'll see her after school." he leaned over to kiss Gil on the cheek " Love you dad" she smiled
Gil nodded " Love you too Linds."
Lindsey climbed out of the denali and headed toward her school.
"Hey Linds!" Gil called out the window " Breakfast?" he had forgotten after sleeping in.
Lindsey waved showing him her pop-tart.
"Okay hun, see you later."
Lindsey nodded and ran inside as Gil drove off.
Gil was on his way back home when he found himself taking a detour toward Eddie's house. After sitting out front debating whether or not to go inside he ending up turning around and going back home.
Inside the house Eddie was the first one awake. He looked over at Catherine to find she had fallen asleep in the reclining chair.
"Catherine?" he gently shook her arm. "Catherine wake up."
Catherine's eyes opened and she took minute to realize where she was. " Eddie what.." she sat up and rubbed her eyes " What time is it?"
"Just after nine." he paused " You want some coffee?"
Catherine shook her head " No Eddie..I ..I don't want any coffee, how about you explain what happened last night?"
Eddie sighed " I got drunk and I lost it. I'm sorry I called you over here, I didn't think you'd come and I just ..I just needed to see you that's all."
Catherine nodded " Eddie you need help."
Eddie sighed and walked into the kitchen " No, I'm fine, I'm dealing..I'll be okay, lately I've been holding on to it all. It's been four months and I can't shake it."
"You're not supposed to shake it Eddie you're supposed to deal with it."
Eddie nodded and slammed down the coffee pot " Easy for you to say , you're happy and getting married, your family wasn't stabbed to death."
"You're right Eddie, I am happy and I am getting married, but I took some time out for you because you called me. I came over here because I cared. If you don't want to admit you need help then I can't do anything for you. I don't know what you're going through but I can help."
Eddie scoffed "Yeah..does you're boyfriend know you're here?"
Catherine sighed ignoring him " Eddie, I think you should go to the hospital. They can help you get better."
Eddie spun around to her " No way, I don't need a shrink or a doctor or anything like that I just..I just need you to..be there for me."
Catherine nodded " Eddie, you'll always be a part of me, you're Lindsey's father. But I'm getting married and I don't want to sound selfish but I'm moving on. I love Gil so much and I know that if I were to run off to you every second you called, it would hurt what Gil and I have."
"So it's all about him?"
"No. Eddie it's not but you have to remember that you and I..were not married, and there are other people out there that can help you."
"Fine." Eddie blurted " I'm sorry I called you."
"Eddie don't be like that." she stood up and put a hand on his shoulder.
"Don't touch me" she pulled violently away from her.
Catherine stepped back. "I'm sorry."
"Yeah me too" Eddie replied " Get out."
Catherine nodded " Eddie, please get some help."
Eddie nodded " Yeah I got that part now..get out."
"Okay." Catherine replied grabbing her keys.
Gil was pacing back and forth in the kitchen when he heard her coming in the front door.
Cath?" he ran to the front door " What happened? Where have you been?"
Catherine sighed " If you were that worried you could have came over after Lindsey got off to school."
Gil nodded " As a matter of fact I did and then I figured I might rile him up or you might get mad so I left."
"Oh" she paused " So you didn't trust me."
Gil raised his eyebrow "No.I don't trust him." he paused " What's wrong with you?"
Catherine shrugged " I just...I 'm sorry, I didn't mean to be like that. I'm worried about him that's all. He's hurting, he's clearly depressed but he's to stubborn to want or ask for help from any one ."
"Except you." Gil replied
Catherine nodded "yeah well I doubt he'll be calling anymore."
"Why? What happened?"
"Nothing, he got mad and told me to get out."
"But what if he does call again?"
"I don't " she replied
Gil sighed " Cath.."
"What? What Gil I don't want to have my ex's suicide hanging over my head, he's Lindsey's father and I can't just.."
Gil nodded and pulled her into a hug." I know..but Cath..were getting married soon, this came at a really bad time is all."
"I don't think he planned it if that's what you're implying." she replied
"I know it's just..You know what I'm being over protective."
"You're not going to lose me Gil." she smiled kissing him " Just give him some time. Besides I told him I have a life and I can't just drop everything"
Gil nodded " You promise?"
Catherine nodded " Yeah...I promise."
TBC