Title: holding on to it all...

Summary: A continuation to my fic " Secrets from their past."...

Disclaimer: I don't own anything

Chapter 5

Rating: CSI 2..i guess

Catherine pushed passed Gil and Brass and coninued toward her vehicle, not bothering to look back.

Gil who had tried to stop her ran aftre her as Brass pushed inside the house to deal with Eddie.

Catherine speed down the street and out of sight, she wasn't exaclty sure where she was going or why she hadn't stopped a while back, all she knew was that she had to get away..far away.

For a while longer she drove aimlessly around the neighbour hood untill she reached the church. Getting out of her car she sighed and wiped away her tears as they were falling.

Gil pulled up just nehind her as she rested on bench in the courtyard. Not wanting to smother her, he hesitated for a moment before approaching.

"Cath?" he whispered in to the darkness of the night.

Catherine looked up and once again wiped her tears. " Gil?" she looked back at the Denali " What are you doing here?"

"I had to know if you were hurt. Physically I mean."

Catherine sighed " I'll be fine." she repleid

Gil sat down next to her " Cath?" he spoke resting a hand on her shoulder

"Don't" she pulled away " I don't deserve it."

Gil ignored her reaction and pulled her close

"Gil please" she tried once more but he wasn''t letting her go.

"Stop it." he whispered to her " Don't push me away, I'm not going anywhere."

"I don't deserve this." she sniffled " I treated so bad...I.I was horrible to you."

Gil sighed " Cath, I understand why you had to do what you did. He's her father and he will always be her father. I understand that you loved him. Cath, you had a daughter with him. I don't expect you not to feel anything when it comes to Eddie. And you were right when you said he needed help, at one point he was hurting, he lost people close to him. And you being the understanding, campastionate, and caring person that you are wanted to help him. He took advantage. " he paused " Cath, I know.."

"I was holding to everything." she interuppted " I know the things he did to me were horrible but..I was holding on to this feeling ..this feeling that I owed it to him to be there for him there were good times with him too, I guess it was.. maybe because I ..I thought he changed and I was stupid to ignore you and listen to him...I'm so sorry."

Gil held her tight " You don't have to apoligize, I love you and I don't want you to hold onto this, I want to marry and I want us to be happy and move on, Eddie won't hurt you and Lindsey ever again. He's not going to."

Catherine pulled away " He said he would, he said he wouldn't let me marry you, He said he won't let me go."

Gil smiled taking her face in his hands " I wouldn't want to let you go either but he's going to have to."

Catherine nodded " I'm really sorry about rehersal."

Gil hugged her once more " It's okay..I rescheduled, we still have time, but I need to make sure this is what you really want."

Catherine nodded " I want be your wife." she replied " I love you."

Gil faced her "And I love you.. so much." he whispered as he soflty carressed her bruised cheek " Let's go back to the station and talk to Brass and then get you checked out."

Catherine nodded and took his hand as they walked toward his vehicle.

TBC