Dealing With Things

Summary: Its six month after the book but Ponyboy cant seem to move on. Will he ever be able to smile again ?

Author note: This is my first time writing a story so please be kind. And also English is not my first language so if you see mistake feel free to tell me about it.

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters they belong to S.E Hinton Voila now on with the story.

Chapter 9

Soda Face Steve and Pony's Return

Soda Pov

I'm so worried about Pony boy. I have no idea where he could be and this is killing me. But even though I'm worried sick I can't seem to push Steve out of my mind. How could he. Damn it he's my best buddy. I love the guy to death and he goes and stab me in the back. How the hell am I suppose to take it. I need the sun of a gun in my life. And I though he felt the same way about me. But no he had to go and attack the thing I cherish the most in my life. What was wrong with him. No I couldn't take it. I couldn't accept it. There must be some kind of explanation or something. I had to go and confront him. I had to find out. Yeah I just had to understand.

Steve Pov

When I open the door and saw him standing there... I almost die right away. He had this haunted and confused look in his eyes. I knew he wanted some answers. But i didn't though I was ready to answer them. Oh hell let's just face it I just didnt want to answer them. It was raining outside and the stupid guy wasn't even wearing a coat so he was soaking wet. I told him to come inside and he did without saying a word. There was a tense silence but then suddenly he start.

Damn it Steve why did you do this

Because it was need to be say

What the hell are you talking about ? Asking Pony how come he was still alive was need to be say ! Are you out of your mind or what.

See you're doing it again reply a frustrated Steve

What ? I'm doing what again

Taking is defence

Of course I'm taking his defence he's my little brother what else did you expect

That just it man. You and Darry and even Two bit are always protecting him. He's not just your brother he's a greaser man he need to be tuff and hard if he wants to stay alive and not be hurt. How can he became hard if you keep protecting him. Putting him in a shield and treating him like he was made of glass. Life is hard ok he ought to know that and to understand that there's not always gonna be someone behind to protect him.

Shut up Steve you don't even know what you're talking about. He saw his best friend die and another one of his friend being shot. He was jump so many times that I lost count of it. People at school treat him like shit everyday and you still think that he doesn't know what life is about. In all this shit he's the one who suffer the most and that's why I'm going to stand beside him no matter what. And you know what. You're so wrong when you say that there's not always going to be someone to protect him cause as long as I'm alive nothing you understand nothing will cross him or hurt him. So the hell with you're bullshit about life. You know nothing about it anyway.

Whatever man you're the one who's wrong

Shit Steve said soda with a breaking voice My little brother is somewhere alone out there thinkinghe's not worth a shit and this is all because of you. You my best friend. How could you do something like that to me. I love you man. Like a brother andI though you felt the same about me. GuessI was wrong uh.Damn it Steve if something happen to him I'm never going to forgive you.You get that never.

With that Soda ran outside without turning back missing the tears rolling on Steve's cheeks and he's quietwhisper reply

I love you too man

Pony Pov

I was going back home. But was it really home ? If yes then why was I feeling like I was going straight in hell. Maybe I was being too dramatic. Of course I was being too dramatic. I didn't even recognize myself or my reactions anymore. I'm so damn mess up. It seem like since Johnny... I can't even bring myself to say it. It seem like since everything happen I've lost a part of myself ... like something die inside of me. Is that even possible. Can you die but still be alive at the same time? What had happen to me ? Life happen I guess. Nothing else nothing more. But could I really go back ? Could I face them all again ? Somehow the people who I loved more than anything on this earth had became my worst nightmare. Their eyes always remind me that his eyes were close for always now. Their voices remind me that he would never talk again . Their love cause somehow they love me remind me that he was never loved and that he would never fall in love. Everything always brings me back to him. He was my best friend my companion in everything. The one that saw me as I really was. An hopeless dreamer an impossible romantic and most of all a life believer. But where was all that now ? It was still there I could feel it. I was going to come back because that's what he would have wanted for me. He wanted me to stay gold. I was going to do just that. For me , for Darry Soda Two bits and even Steve. But mostly because I wanted it for myself. I didn't want to be an half living anymore.

Taking a deep breath i walk toward the door not knowing what was going to happen. I was scare stiff and nervous like hell. But still I manage to push the door open.

A.N: Yeah i know i'm a bitch to cut it here but come on ... Lol anyway i'm going to update more often now since i have a 2 week vacation coming BIG SMILE