Xenosaga: My Angel With Crimson Eyes

The characters from Xenosaga are owned by Monolith Soft and Namco. Therefore, I don't own them.

Just so you know, KOS-MOS Is an android.

The Elsa is the ship their on.

Don't take these two quotes the wrong way, I'm only writing them for people who haven't played the game.

Part One, Sadness Within My Beloved:

I'm sitting in my room pondering what could be going on in her mind.For that matter, I am curious as to why I created her in the first place. I just don't understand how she could be so cruel to everyone else. I sit and remembers the escapade that happened earlier that day. Absently, I stand up, put on my jacket, and soon, find myself in front of the Elsa's Elevator.

"You shouldn't be wandering around at night. Staying up to late Is bad for your health. You of all people should know this." A voice from in front tells me.

Huh. I look up to find a boy with platnum hair, teal eyes, orange boots, and a orange jacket with some areas where gold buttons reside. Oh, it's just you chaos. The silvery haired boy presses the elevator button and, in a few seconds, the doors close and we start to decend.

"What are you doing up so late chaos?" I ask.

"I guess the same reason as you. I couldn't sleep."

"Oh." I reply puzzeled.

"Is something wrong?" He askes.

"No. Why?" I return.

I don't know. You just seem to be down. He tells me, sheepishly.

It's...it's just the way KOS-MOS acted in the diner. She could at least show a little consideration, even if she is an android. I reply.

ThreeHour Ago:

"Water!" Captain Matthews said pushing the cup he was holding towards me.

"Oh, right."

I pour him another glass from the water pitcher sitting on the table. Allen for once, pours himself another cup. I turns my head to look at KOS-MOS who at the time, was serving food to the ocupents in the room. Momo suddenly got up from her seat.

"Can I help KOS-MOS?" she asked.

"I do not require assistence in this task." replied KOS-MOS

"But..." Momo started but was cut off by her monotone voice.

"There is a 43.63921 chance that you will drop a plate's contence on the floor while, If I am allowed to continue, the chance is reduced to a mear 13.29548. Now, if you do not mind, I would like to return to the task that I have been assigned."

Momo turned and ran out of the room crying. KOS-MOS, who was now finished setting out platters, departed for her mantinence lab. I finally got the nerve to chase after her, managing to catch up with her in the hallway leading to the elevator.

"KOS-MOS!" I yelled in her direction. She stoped and slowly turned around.

"Yes Shion," She said in her monotone voice.

"How... How could you say somethink so cruel to Momo." I scream.

"I was just stating the truth." She replied, without a shread of emotion in her voice. " my skills at the task that was assigned to me far surpassed that of Momo's.

Soon after, I felt my anger slowly beginning rise in me. So much that I found myself digging my fingernails into my hands.

"You...you, you really think that gives you the right to tell her off like that!." Before I knew it, my hand flew up and struck the side of her face, palm first. I hit her so hard that my palm still stung a few minuets after the slap; so hard that it arked her head to tha side. I then turned and stormed off towards my cabin, fuming with rage. Once there, I collapsed onto my bed and began to cry. Meanwhile, KOS-MOS was left standing in the hallway. Oddly, she had her hand on the cheek that I slaped. She then turned around and traveled down to the basement floor of the Elsa, her eyes beginning to water. As she was about to enter the lab where her mantinence bed resided, chaos exited from the room.

"Oh, I was wandering where you were." he said cheerfully.

She stared at him for a few seconds then without warning, collapsed to the floor crying. chaos immedeitly droped to the floor and pulled her into a hug, despreatly trying to calm her down, his cheerfulness replaced by a feeling of sympathy for the beautiful android. Meanwhile, back in my cabin, I laid there for a few minuets more then, finally out of boardum, decided to go and see if I could find Momo. As I entered the corridor leading to the elevator, I was starteled when I herd chaos In front of me.

Now:

"She is sitting in her mantinence lab crying right now ." He informed me.

"What?" I reply confused.

"She told me about what occured between you two in the hallway." He explained. I think you made her really upset when you hit her"

"Oh, I didn't know she even had feelings." I snaped back.

"She does Shion. Please don't be angry. I mean you of all people must know that under all of her computer banks, wires, and bolts, she is just another woman who, like everyone else, needs someone to be there for her. Someone to care for in her times of need."

"I...I know but..." I just couldn't find the right words to say.

"Shion, she deaply regrets what she did and although I tried, I couldn't really comfort her." He exclaims whild lowering his eyes.I can tell that, this fact pains him. He suddenly looks into my eyes. "She wasn't ment for me but, to be honest, I think she was made to be yours."

"I...I don't know if I could face her again." I reply as I begin to weap.

"you may mot now but, you will eventually." He wipes the tears away from my face.

"If you can't be there for her, she will never understand the value of true happyness." A voice calls out from behind me.I finally turn around to find Jr. and Momo standing where the voice originated. It is evident that they have also been crying for I can see fresh tearlines streeking their faces.He then says something to Momo which seems to chear her up a little, and they depart, although I don't know where they could have been going. I see both of them holding each others hand as they leave. Momo and Jr, I know, they where made for each other.

" But me and KOS-MOS, I...thought I was just her mother" I thought to myself outloud. "Or at least her friend."

"Then you have to let her know, otherwise she may never be happy." chaos informs me. " right now she is toarn between what she should do."

"I...I will try."

"Shion?" he whispers. "You must know that she loves you." "She called you her mother." "The main question here is, do you feal the same way about her."

Then I remembers a phrase my father told her.

"If you don't find someone to chearish in your life, what is the point of you existence anyway?"

"I...I..I don't know what I should do."

"No one usually ever does but does that stop them, usually no," He replies as he lets go of me.

I meen, I do love her. She is like the daughter I could never have but, what does that mean...I just don't understand. What right do I have to judge her? Sometimes I think that the only reason I created her was to fill the void that Kevin left when the first KOS-MOS went berserk and murdered him. Do...do I love KOS-MOS? Not like a daughter,but as a lover. That is the question that I ponder while heading to the mantnence lab, To my angel. I am now standing at the door leading to the room where my beloved weeps. Even now, I can hear her inside, crying after all that has happened. chaos couldn't be there for her, Thats my job but, a voice in my head keeps asking me the same questions over and over.

"Am I the right person for this?"

"Am I the right person for her?"

"Do I even deserve a person like her?"

These are a few of the many question of which I don't know the answer.

END OF PART ONE