Bad Choices
The bright morning sun shone through Terra's window. Ice and dew hung on the glass outside, making it's shadow look like daggers on her carpet.
Terra awoke shortly and sat up gently, not to wake Beast Boy who was sound asleep. She swung her legs over the edge of her bed and put her jean shorts back on and a white tank top, letting her bra strap show, but she didn't care.
She laid back down in the soaked sheets next to Beast Boy and rested her head on his chest, her eyes starting to close.
Terra felt Beast Boy's hand begin to stroke her wet hair and she smiled to herself.
"Mornin' beautiful," he said and yawned.
She sat up and smiled down at him.
"Mornin' yourself," she bent down and kissed his lips affectionately, "Didja have a good night sleep lastnight?"
"Hell yeah."
Terra giggled, "You're so cute," she kissed him again, this time his arms wrapping around her, pulling her down on top of him.
Beast Boy kissed back, slowly moving from her lips to her throat. Terra tilted her head up, letting his lips wander down her neck and begin nibbling her flesh.
His teeth began to clamp down on her soft skin, making her start to moan softly, not from pleasure, but from pain. His finger tips ran up and down her spine, making her shiver in excitement, forgetting the pain in her neck.
"You're mine, my sweet geomancer," Beast Boy whispered into her ear, licking the lobe, then moving back to her neck.
Terra began to think about what he had just told her, as he began nibbling on her neck again, harder this time.
Finally, she realized what he was doing and pushed him away, rubbing her neck in pain.
"Terra, what's wrong?" Beast Boy asked, concerned.
What do you think you were doing, huh? You don't own me, remember?" Terra said, a look of hurt lingering in her eyes.
"So...?" Beast Boy thought nothing of it.
"So don't mark your territory! That's what you were doing, in case you forgot."
Beast Boy began to get angry.
"So now I'm stupid?"
"Basically! I told you before that you don't own me and what do you do? Try to give me a hickey! That's claiming territory, Beast Boy! You don't own me, remember? I'm your girlfriend, not your dog."
Terra crossed her arms over her chest and scowled at him.
"Terra, I think you're taking this a bit too personally..."
"Beast Boy, I have gotten raped before. Don't tell me what I should and shouldn't take personally, okay?"
"Yeah. Okay. Whatever, Terra."
Terra's eyes narrowed at Beast Boy.
"I knew I shouldn't have fucked you lastnight. It so wasn't worth it."
"Oh, is that why you stopped me? Admit it, you loved it."
Terra crossed her arms over her chest, "I did not love it, BB. It was exhilarating, but I did not love it."
"So you'd admit that it was fun?"
"Of course."
"Then admit it."
"No!"
Beast Boy wrapped his arms around her back, pulling her into his lap.
"C'mon Terra, say it..."
"This is just a lame excuse to try to get me to say it..." Terra said, kissing him lightly on the lips.
He rubbed the inside of her thigh, feeling her velvety skin underneath, "C'mon Terra, you know you wanna say it. Don't make me make you."
"I don't care what you do, I'm not saying it."
An evil grin came over Beast Boy's face, "Are you sure about that?"
"Shut up."
Terra pushed him down on his back and got off him, running her brush quickly through her damp hair.
"Well, I'm going down to breakfast," she said, pulling her hair up into a ponytail.
"I'll be down in a bit," Beast Boy said.
Terra walked down the halls and into the main room where everybody was already awake.
"Mornin' guys," she said pleasantly, pouring herself a hot cup of tea and sat next to Raven.
"Morning," they all chorused.
"Hey Tee, you and BB catch up on everything?" Cyborg asked, elbowing the blonde.
Terra smiled to herself, "Yeah we did."
"You didn't stay up too late, did you?" Robin asked.
"Not too too long, I don't think," Terra said, "I'm not sure what time we actually did go to bed."
Raven stayed quiet, though. Something, she knew, went on lastnight that Terra didn't want found out.
"I'm gonna go find Beast Boy," she said dully, getting up and heading off towards Beast Boy's room.
'Oh shit...' Terra thought, knowing exactly what Raven was going to do.
Raven knocked on Beast Boy's door and waited for a reply.
"Go away," came Beast Boy's muffled voice.
"Beast Boy, we have to talk," Raven said.
"About what?"
"Just...can I come in?"
"Fine..."
The door slid open and Raven stepped in carefully and sat next to Beast Boy on his bed.
"What do you want?"
"I wanna know what went on lastnight."
"Nothing happened."
"Don't try that. Terra already did downstairs and I saw right through her."
"She told you?"
"No."
"Good."
"So something did go on lastnight? I bet I know what it is."
Beast Boy looked sheepishly back at Raven, who folded her arms over her chest and scowled at him.
"You fucked her, didn't you?" she asked, knowing the answer already.
"Well..."
"Do you know how completely stupid you are? Do you know what that's gonna do to her? You could get her pregnant, you asshole! She's going to be a mother a fourteen!" Raven had completely flipped out.
"I'm sorry Raven, I..."
"Oh, don't tell me sorry. Why don't ya go downstairs and tell Terra how sorry you are for putting her through childbirth. Fourteen, Beast Boy! Does that sound like a reasonable age to start taking care of a baby to you?"
Raven's purple eyes were now burning with fire at how completely pissed she was at Beast Boy.
"You have no idea how much I want to slap you right now..." Raven growled in a low voice, getting up, "You're a prick, Beast Boy and now you've managed to fuck up your girlfriend's life forever. Nice going."
With that, she left.
Raven passed Terra in the hall, heading for her own room to meditate.
"Raven, please don't be mad at me," Terra said, seeing her best friend's angered expression.
"It's not you I'm mad at. It's the prick that you have for a boyfriend," Raven stormed off and slammed her door shut.
Terra wrapped her arms around her torso and began walking again down the hall and into her room. She leaned against the wall and thought about alot of things.
Her mother had always told her that God wants everyone to stay sexually pure, meaning that you shouldn't have sex until your married and talk about it first with your mate.
"Oh God did I screw up big time..." she murmered to herself, her fingers running through her hair.
Terra got down on her hands and knees, feeling it was her only option left. She folded her hands together, bowing her head and began to pray outloud.
"Dear Jesus," Terra prayed, "I come to you today, as humble as I know how. I know I've made some really bad choices the last few hours, and I'm really sorry. Please Jesus, forgive me of what I've done. I was wrong to do it and I know I should've waited until I was married. Please forgive me. In Your name I pray, Amen."
She felt a bit better asking God to forgive her, and yet she didn't. She felt that she should just face it and if she gets pregnant then she'll give the baby up for adoption.
Terra sighed and stared out the window at the waves crashing on the shore. She needed some fresh air to clear her mind. She walked out of her room and out of the tower, keeping her mind on other things.
She alighted into the air on a rock and sat down, soaring high over the city.
She thought about life, her home, her wonderful friends, her awesome city, and especially Beast Boy.
Terra knew that they shouldn't have let their love go that far. She knew she wasn't ready for it.
Tears began to stream down her face at the thought.
'Why did I do that lastnight?' she asked herself, 'It's cause I love him, that's why.' She answered her own question.
But she did love Beast Boy. She loved him with all her heart and no doubt he felt the same.
Why couldn't we have waited?
What if he's not the right guy for me?
What if we get kicked off the team for him getting me pregnant?
Terra stood up and sped back to the tower.
She got there and scribled down her note on a piece of paper, leaving her butterfly clip and communicator behind with it. She slipped the note on Beast Boy's stomach, seeing that he'd dozed off and left his room quietly, not to wake him up, for fear he'd protest her departure.
Terra ran out the door of the tower and never looked back, not sure if she'd ever come back.
Yes, I do realize that I made Terra a bit of a cry baby in this. Please bare with me and sorry for the lack of update. I think I"m going to get rid of all my other stories and just keep this one and 'Beast Girl'. I don't know though, cause I've lost my light for the others.
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