Chapter 19: The Journey
When Raven opened her eyes again it was night time, She had fallen into a deep dreamless sleep. She looked around her and noticed that all of the other titans had fallen asleep.
Beast boys hand was placed perhaps a little high on Terra's thigh and her arm was wrapped around the snoring boy's waist. It almost made Raven giggle, but that giggle was off set by her memories of the peer, and holding one another close under that dock before he was stripped away from her. Her eyes wandered over to Star fire and Robin, who were cuddled up on the side of the vamp both sleeping happily. Her eyes wandered foreward to Cyborg who was still driving the van. She slowly, moving in between the four interlocked loved ones made her way too the front and sat in the passenger seat.
"How much Farther Cyborg?" she said quietly staring out the window into the black night, black...it reminded her of him. She turned her attention away from the window and a painful reminder of who she had lost.
"I'd say about seven or eight more hours, Don't Worry Rave, I'm sure you'll find what your looking for there, I mean, have your dreams ever steered you wrong?" Raven shook her head no, she wished so terribly she could be as hopeful as he was that they would find a way to bring Dallas back at her old house but the eternal pesscimist inside her told her that she wouldn't.
"I...I'm afraid Cyborg..." Her eyes lowered, she hated talking about her feelings yes but she had to get it out or she was going to explode and cry all over the place. Cyborg looked over at Raven, they had been friends sure but she had never been this open with him, he figured it was just the fact that her wounds were still open, and her old ways of healing weren't working.
"Don't be Rave, look I know your worried but you've gotta have faith in yourself and in your dream, Now come on, perk up will ya" Raven sighed. Cyborg was right if she didn't believe it then why was she on this trip in the first place. It was hard for Raven too even think about Dallas without wanting too burst into tears.
As she starred out the window once again the rain began to pour down on her, she let out a soft sigh. She remembered the day she realized she loved him, fighting that insane Samerui, him being pierced by that blade, saving her life for sure. How the rain poured down on them, she thought she had lost him then, and it almost broke her heart.
He had survived that, and she belived he could survive anything.
"Guess I was wrong..." she said aloud, obviously not on purpose.
"Wrong about what?" Cyborg asked her. Her head turned she hadn't realized she had said it aloud.
"Nothing Cyborg, Nothing at all" She turned her head back toward the window, the constant pitter patter of the rain occupying her mind, as she tried to push away the pain. Even after days of crying, she still felt the need and want too. She closed her eyes and slowly drifted to sleep.
Ravens eyes slowly flittered awake as a light hit them, there was a tugging on her pants.
"Mommy! Mommy!" she heard a young voice scream. She looked down and saw a small child, Dark blue hair and light greenish blue. Her hair flowed down past her shoulders and hung raggidly infront of her eyes, not as if it wasn't cared for, but as if it couldn't be tamed.
"What is it baby..." She heard herself say, could she really be saying that?
"Tora hit me!" Raven groaned and sat up, she looked down and blinked, she looked around the room and blinked. She was a full grown woman now, her room still dark, only one bed, but there were clothes around that were not hers.
"Go tell your father..." She yawned softly. Raven had no control now, she couldn't move or say anything, but yet her voice came out of her mouth.
"Daddy's not home! He went too go visit auntie Star" Raven rubbed her eyes and stood up, she looked down at the child and sighed.
"I told you honey, you have to stand up too your brother"
"But mommy! He's bigger den meh!" Raven picked the child up and walked from the room. As she looked around her eyes fell upon several pictures, her holding her children, them laughing and playing.
"Pheonix...where are the pictures of your Dad?" The little girl looked up at Raven.
"Daddy's Camera shy remember mommy" Raven nodded and sighed.
"Are there any pictures of your father around?" Pheonix looked up at her mother.
"Course there is mommy, in da locket" The little girl reached up and tugged on a black necklace around Ravens neck, on the end of it a light blue heart. Raven looked down at it and blinked, well might as well find out who the father of these dream children was. She popped open the lock and her eyes widened.
"D...d...dallas? "Pheonix giggled and looked up at Raven.
"That's daddy's name isn't mommy" Raven wandered into toward the front door her eyes wide with shock, the small girl looking curiously up at her. "Mommy whats wrong?" "Nothing Pheonix..." She moved too the front door and pushed it open, a warm sunshine hit her face as she walked outside. When her eyes finally lifted off the pendent they saw something even more shocking. A Garden, a beautiful light blue garden, she wandered into it, eyes wide with amazment, but slowly something entered her mind, she recognized this garden, but something was different then the last time she had seen it, it was more beautiful more alive, yet still dark and contemplative. She turned and her jaw dropped, the mansion..that run down mansion in the picture had been brought back to live, it was fixed up and painted a deep baby blue. "Could...this be...my future?" Raven's eyes suddenly snapped open as someone grabbed her shoulder.
"Raven wake up "it was Robins voice, she opened her eyes groggily and looked at him.
"Huh...wa...whats going on..." Robin shook her alittle.
"Come on Raven wake up, we're there" Raven looked up at Robin, he must be lying there is no way she slept that long.
"You're kidding me right...I mean I just closed my eyes..."
"No you didn't you fell asleep Next to Cy in the front seat, but we couldn't wake you, you kept talking about a Pheonix, and a Tora...Did you have another dream?"
Raven smiled. Pheonix and Tora, those are the names she had picked out for her children, yes she did do girly things like that, even if she didn't tell anyone about them.
"Oh its nothing Robin...nothing important" She slid out of the van and starred up at the mansion, it was nothing like the dream, beaten and run down, covered in weeds and some of the tiles were hanging off the roof, but it still brought a sigh from her as they all headed in. It was time, too search for a way to bring him back.
Authors Note: Gah! My hand hurts...anyway, long as I promised...hope you all like it..
When Raven opened her eyes again it was night time, She had fallen into a deep dreamless sleep. She looked around her and noticed that all of the other titans had fallen asleep.
Beast boys hand was placed perhaps a little high on Terra's thigh and her arm was wrapped around the snoring boy's waist. It almost made Raven giggle, but that giggle was off set by her memories of the peer, and holding one another close under that dock before he was stripped away from her. Her eyes wandered over to Star fire and Robin, who were cuddled up on the side of the vamp both sleeping happily. Her eyes wandered foreward to Cyborg who was still driving the van. She slowly, moving in between the four interlocked loved ones made her way too the front and sat in the passenger seat.
"How much Farther Cyborg?" she said quietly staring out the window into the black night, black...it reminded her of him. She turned her attention away from the window and a painful reminder of who she had lost.
"I'd say about seven or eight more hours, Don't Worry Rave, I'm sure you'll find what your looking for there, I mean, have your dreams ever steered you wrong?" Raven shook her head no, she wished so terribly she could be as hopeful as he was that they would find a way to bring Dallas back at her old house but the eternal pesscimist inside her told her that she wouldn't.
"I...I'm afraid Cyborg..." Her eyes lowered, she hated talking about her feelings yes but she had to get it out or she was going to explode and cry all over the place. Cyborg looked over at Raven, they had been friends sure but she had never been this open with him, he figured it was just the fact that her wounds were still open, and her old ways of healing weren't working.
"Don't be Rave, look I know your worried but you've gotta have faith in yourself and in your dream, Now come on, perk up will ya" Raven sighed. Cyborg was right if she didn't believe it then why was she on this trip in the first place. It was hard for Raven too even think about Dallas without wanting too burst into tears.
As she starred out the window once again the rain began to pour down on her, she let out a soft sigh. She remembered the day she realized she loved him, fighting that insane Samerui, him being pierced by that blade, saving her life for sure. How the rain poured down on them, she thought she had lost him then, and it almost broke her heart.
He had survived that, and she belived he could survive anything.
"Guess I was wrong..." she said aloud, obviously not on purpose.
"Wrong about what?" Cyborg asked her. Her head turned she hadn't realized she had said it aloud.
"Nothing Cyborg, Nothing at all" She turned her head back toward the window, the constant pitter patter of the rain occupying her mind, as she tried to push away the pain. Even after days of crying, she still felt the need and want too. She closed her eyes and slowly drifted to sleep.
Ravens eyes slowly flittered awake as a light hit them, there was a tugging on her pants.
"Mommy! Mommy!" she heard a young voice scream. She looked down and saw a small child, Dark blue hair and light greenish blue. Her hair flowed down past her shoulders and hung raggidly infront of her eyes, not as if it wasn't cared for, but as if it couldn't be tamed.
"What is it baby..." She heard herself say, could she really be saying that?
"Tora hit me!" Raven groaned and sat up, she looked down and blinked, she looked around the room and blinked. She was a full grown woman now, her room still dark, only one bed, but there were clothes around that were not hers.
"Go tell your father..." She yawned softly. Raven had no control now, she couldn't move or say anything, but yet her voice came out of her mouth.
"Daddy's not home! He went too go visit auntie Star" Raven rubbed her eyes and stood up, she looked down at the child and sighed.
"I told you honey, you have to stand up too your brother"
"But mommy! He's bigger den meh!" Raven picked the child up and walked from the room. As she looked around her eyes fell upon several pictures, her holding her children, them laughing and playing.
"Pheonix...where are the pictures of your Dad?" The little girl looked up at Raven.
"Daddy's Camera shy remember mommy" Raven nodded and sighed.
"Are there any pictures of your father around?" Pheonix looked up at her mother.
"Course there is mommy, in da locket" The little girl reached up and tugged on a black necklace around Ravens neck, on the end of it a light blue heart. Raven looked down at it and blinked, well might as well find out who the father of these dream children was. She popped open the lock and her eyes widened.
"D...d...dallas? "Pheonix giggled and looked up at Raven.
"That's daddy's name isn't mommy" Raven wandered into toward the front door her eyes wide with shock, the small girl looking curiously up at her. "Mommy whats wrong?" "Nothing Pheonix..." She moved too the front door and pushed it open, a warm sunshine hit her face as she walked outside. When her eyes finally lifted off the pendent they saw something even more shocking. A Garden, a beautiful light blue garden, she wandered into it, eyes wide with amazment, but slowly something entered her mind, she recognized this garden, but something was different then the last time she had seen it, it was more beautiful more alive, yet still dark and contemplative. She turned and her jaw dropped, the mansion..that run down mansion in the picture had been brought back to live, it was fixed up and painted a deep baby blue. "Could...this be...my future?" Raven's eyes suddenly snapped open as someone grabbed her shoulder.
"Raven wake up "it was Robins voice, she opened her eyes groggily and looked at him.
"Huh...wa...whats going on..." Robin shook her alittle.
"Come on Raven wake up, we're there" Raven looked up at Robin, he must be lying there is no way she slept that long.
"You're kidding me right...I mean I just closed my eyes..."
"No you didn't you fell asleep Next to Cy in the front seat, but we couldn't wake you, you kept talking about a Pheonix, and a Tora...Did you have another dream?"
Raven smiled. Pheonix and Tora, those are the names she had picked out for her children, yes she did do girly things like that, even if she didn't tell anyone about them.
"Oh its nothing Robin...nothing important" She slid out of the van and starred up at the mansion, it was nothing like the dream, beaten and run down, covered in weeds and some of the tiles were hanging off the roof, but it still brought a sigh from her as they all headed in. It was time, too search for a way to bring him back.
Authors Note: Gah! My hand hurts...anyway, long as I promised...hope you all like it..