KyoKyon: You might have noticed that I deleted the other chapters...I decided on making this like a one shot…it's better that way…hahaha, sorry about that…enjoy…
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From afar, I watched you walk…
Everything seemed so disoriented…
I held out my hand, hoping you would catch it…
A mess no one could seem to sort out…
With a smile, you walked towards me, your pace quickening…
The loss, the pain seemed to drive everything out of focus…
And you flitted right past me towards a future where I no longer existed…
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To live with the knowledge…
Someone dear to you living so close to you and that someone not knowing that you even exist while you are tormented with memories of days long past…
With her words ringing in our memories, the words we never deserved, the love we never thought we could find and the forgiveness we could not seem to receive; I absolve your sins…
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Silence had always been golden for him...But not now...It tormented him and plagued him of memories of her.
He couldn't stand the stillness his heart seemed to be frozen in. It was like Time froze and he was still in its deathly yet comforting grip, locked together with the memories of yesterday. Longing to break free yet afraid of the pain that would threaten to consume him.
School was the only time he felt at ease. When he could watch her with yearning...From afar, he watched her as she laughed and talked. She couldn't remember anything...not him, not them...
There were nights when it seemed almost too much. The glass in the mirror seemed shattered as he looked at himself. Who was he? He had found himself when he found her and yet now, he couldn't recognize himself.
Droplets of blood splashed the white tiles. It seemed blood rained down in this house, which was devoid of words. Only emptiness existed within. The occupants chose not to talk to each other, flitting through the house like ghosts.
They could still hear her voice, her soft footsteps within the house...it still retained memories of her. Others would visit the house where she once lived. To simply be there.
Momiji watched as Tohru walked all alone, her arms full of books. He felt a tiny smile of remembrace as she walked carefully. Tohru always was clumsy. True to his thoughts, she stumbled and with a soft 'Ohh', she fell down on the hard floor, the books spilling all over the floor. Immediately, Momiji rushed to her side, forgetting for a moment.
" Tohru! Are you alright?" he asked, worriedly as he grasped her hand.
Tohru looked more startled by the fact that this stranger was holding her hand, rather than her fall.
" I...I...Yes...thank you very much..." Tohru thanked as the stranger helped her up. She gave him a puzzled frown. He seemed so familiar. Was he someone she knew? Her fisted hand rested at her chest, near her heart. Her heart wasd aching...why? Was he someone she used to know but forgot? His sad smile...
" You weren't meant for sadness..." she said softly, gently taking his hand and giving it a slight squeeze. The stranger seemed to be jolted at those words. Tohru smiled and gave a final wave before setting off with her books which had at some junction been picked up. She never saw the tear filled eyes of the stranger, nor the longing in those eyes. Unknown to both of them, someone was watching from the corner. A certain red head.
It took so long...and so much effort. There were times when he felt like giving up but just the memory of her pulled him through. He wasn't the selfish boy he used to be.
You weren't meant for sadness...
Those words...none of them were ever made for sadness...through her words, he found hope...Maybe he never noticed how her words affected them and gave them hope and allowed them to take a chance, to live with courage. When she was lost, he found her words...she left them with more than just memories...she left them her legacy of kindness, words and courage. She gave him the will to defy, to live.
The hardest thing had been the easiest to think of.
The surprise in his violet eyes, the reluctant outstretch of his hand and the firm warmth of his hands made everything alright.
It took time to change...it took even greater strength to change what had changed when she left. Maybe she changed them, so softly and yet so firmly, that they no longer were surrounded by complete darkness.
There were times of laughter, times when tears were rampant, when tempers flared but still he persisted. But most importantly, he forgve himself.
For all the times he was weak, for all the times he hated himself, for all the tears he shed, for all the times he missed her so bad that he tried to end it...
I'm sorry...
Your sins are absolved...
Why?
Why?
Why?
Those words were always uttered by the cursed ones...
"I don't know...I may not know how you feel, how it may have affected you, but i know that same feeling of helplessness and pain you feel...but in my heart, I feel glad that...she forgave me...regardless of how much i try to push it away...none of us were ever made for sadness..."
Years passed so quickly.
He was there, waiting for her. He knew she always went this way towards her work place. She lived nearby with her best friends. At 26, she was a far cry from the innocent girl whom they used to know but she was still kind and still Tohru-like.
Momiji fiddled with his shirt while Yuki seemed more at ease if he had tried to stand upside down. Hatori, Aya and Shigure sat down at the bench, silence ruling for once. Kagura was beside him, looking at the far horizon while Haru and Rin stood in silence next to each other. Hiro and Kira held hands as they too waited.
None seemed too uncomfortable with the silence. The red head man, who was once a boy, slowly touched his beads. Would she still accept them? Would she be afraid this time?
So many questions...so many doubts...so much pain...
Soft crunching footsteps amid the fallen leaves.
Kyo looked up to see the distant figure. Wrapped in a muffler and a coat, she still looked 16. His heart ached for her. Before his brain could kick in, he was moving towards her. In his memory, he was still 16...
She walked towards him, her smile lifting his heart ever so slightly. How he missed her! He held out his hand, hoping she would take it. She smiled even more when she saw him and quickened her pace. And she ran...straight towards him...
" Hi...my name is Kyo Sohma..."