Day 3, week 1, 4th month, year 51

I helped my Aunt with all the inside chores today. We washed dishes, changed and washed sheets and curtains, swept the floors, dusted, washed windows, and threw out spoiled food. At least I didn't have to do the outside work. Uncle Cev came back in really dirty. It was hot outside too and so that also put my uncle in a bad mood. He felt better after he had a good shower.

Guess what I dreamed about last night? It wasn't a bad dream, it was actually a good one. I dreamed of people with flaming swords of light. The funny part was that it seemed like they knew I was watching them. Of course that's not possible, it's only a dream. Still, when the tall man with shoulder length hair looked at me, a sense of belonging filled me. Perhaps I'm wishing to hard that these people are actually real but then how do you explain how I am able to move things without using my hands or any other body part?

I wonder what Daruu will think about this strange ability I have? If he ever visits I think I'll show him. It's getting late now, I'll talk to you tomorrow diary.

Day 4, week 1, 4th month, year 51

It's my aunt's birthday today. My Uncle and I made midday meal and made her favorite meal. Juppa, Ratnus steak, and Tangaroot. I helped my Uncle with the garden outside. A few of the plants were ruined but we were able to save most of them.

I'm planning to go exploring tomorrow. There are woods beyond the creek that's behind our house. My aunt said I couldn't explore them until I'm older and that was when I was five years old. Perhaps I should ask my uncle first? He usually lets me do things that my aunt is opposed to. I'll go do that right now.

Day 5, week 1, 4th month, year 51

Something weird happened today. I should start from the beginning. I talked to my uncle last night and he said that in the morning he would mark a path for me in the woods to follow. He got my aunt to agree to let me go into the woods and she packed me a light midday meal to take with me.

It was a very nice morning when I left and it was warm out. I found the path my uncle marked for me. He used yellow pieces of thick rope and tied them on low tree branches and shrubs. Well anyway near the middle of the day I spotted what looked to be a cave outside of the boundary that had been set for me. I felt a strange pull towards it and went off the trail. When I got closer I saw that it was a cave but I also felt cold at the same time. It was a nice warm day, it shouldn't have been cold near that cave.

I went inside the cave and didn't go far when I spied a glint of something buried in the ground. I went to dig it out when a voice spoke. The voice said that I was strong in the Force. I looked around but no one was there. The voice spoke again and said, join me and we'll rule the galaxy together. It was scary. I ran out of the cave and ran all the way back home.

I didn't tell my aunt or uncle, they might forbid me from going into the woods again. I wish I had someone to talk to that would be able to understand. I mean, yes I can write in you but you can't talk. I need someone to actually talk to. Now I wish I hadn't gone out to the woods today. There are so many new questions and none of them can be answered.

What is the Force? Who was the person that spoke? Where was this person? What is the galaxy? Did the person mean among the stars? Why was I cold in the cave? Is there anyone who can answer these questions?

Goodnight diary.

Day 6, week 1, 4th month, year 51

I stayed awake all night, I just couldn't fall asleep. The voice came back, it wants me to go back to the cave. What do I do? I don't want to go back there.

Day 7, week 1, 4th month, year 51

The voice won't go away. I tell it to go away but it won't leave. The voice keeps me from sleeping. The voice is scaring me. Maybe I should go back to the cave. It wants me to find something. Maybe if I find what it wants then it will go away.