Day 1, week 1, 4th month, year 50

I can't sleep, every time I do the voice comes to taunt me, filling my mind with terrible images. I'm going to try to keep myself awake. Maybe he'll decided to give up if I do that.

Day 2, week 1, 4th month, year 50

It's hard staying awake. I worked on my homework all night and made another model starship.

I wonder when Qui-Gon and Xanatos will be back this time? I miss visiting them everyday.

I made another friend today. His name is Bruck. He's shy but he tells great stories. Garen told me that Bruck can be stubborn but I don't think that's a bad thing. I don't think Garen likes Bruck. I hope this doesn't become a problem.

Day 5, week 2, 4th month, year 50

I'm back diary. I'm sorry I was away so long, I was in the healers ward. I had caught some kind of virus. I heard whispers from the healers, they were talking about me. They said that it was an odd virus and that is was a miracle that I had survived. Personally I think the voice had something to do with it. I'm not sure how but those days I spent asleep were the most horrible. I saw people in black cloaks, red lightsabers slashing people to pieces and a lot of other things. I even heard words of Sith teaching. I would see myself in a black cloak and wielding a lightsaber. I would be in the temple and cutting down the Jedi.

I would never hurt the Jedi or my friends. The voice lies.

I must do something about this voice. I must tell someone, no matter what the consequences.

Day 6, week 2, 4th month, year 50

I decided to tell Garen about the voice and swore him to secrecy. He said that he wouldn't tell anyone. He's a good friend.

Day 7, week 2, 4th month, year 50

The voice didn't bother me last night. That bothers me, I was sure he would do something because I told someone about him.

Qui-Gon and Xanatos are back. They were gone a long time. Xanatos said that they had encountered a problem and had to go elsewhere for the supplies. I asked Xanatos if he could watch me do my Force exercises to make sure I was doing them right.

I haven't see Aalto today. Usually I see him once or twice during the day because we walk in the same direction to reach our classes that are at the same time but in different rooms.

Bant pulled a prank on me today. Who knew girls could do pranks without help? Anyway, Bant had put a little bit of very hot spice into my vegetable soup when I wasn't looking. It felt like my mouth was on fire. Reeft gave me his chorevins, not very tasty, and I gulped them down without a thought as I tried to cool down my mouth. Bant and Garen were laughing so hard that I thought they would burst. Well I would have if I wasn't desperately trying to put the fire out in my mouth. Bruck came to my aid cave me a piece of hard candy that immediately cooled down my mouth and also began to make popping sounds in my mouth. I looked at Bruck with a questioning look and he just shrugged. He said that it was better to have something popping in your mouth then to have your mouth on fire. I agreed with him.