January 5th, 2021

I feel like Ive entered hell. Yesterday we found the ruins of Salt Lake City, Utah. The walls and buildings were ash now, and we are searching for survivors as well as trying to keep out of the gun fire between the UN and the terriorists. So far we had been lucky.

Til today that is. We walked in right on an ambush, and we just barely got away. Well Sapphire dragged me away, literally. Three of the stray bullets from the fight had found there way to me. One pierced me in my side, just right of anything vital, but it still hurt. And the other two hit me in my right leg. I basically left a blood trail from where Sapphire had grabbed and started to drag me to the cover area, which was what was left of the crumbling wall. There were still several hours of day light left when this happened so we just stayed there. Sapphire pulled the bullets out and fix the wounds in a very painful way I might add. We are going to be stuck here for awhile til my wounds heal some. Thank god she hadnt been hurt when pulling me away.

She still is getting sick in the morning. I think she knows whats wrong with her and refuses to tell me, which makes me even more worried. What could be so bad that she would hide it from me?

January 28th, 2021

I awoke to find myself in a different tent, not the one Im use to. I was laying on a cot and my wounds had been looked at by a professional. Only reason I know that is because the bandages actually look like bandages, instead of the pieces of cloth Sapphire or myself slaps on. I found that Sapphire was on a cot next to mine. She was awake but just laying down. She explained everything to me. I had passed out apparently, and the UN found us. I had apparently been sleeping for like 2 weeks straight and they were wondering if I was dead or something.

Sapphire is having a baby. She finally fessed up to it in her explanation on what all happened. I am going to be a father again! I am so happy. But now that I think about it. It worries me. What if we dont get to canada before the baby is born? I dont want the child to be born in this hell. Another thing is, lets face it Im getting old. I just turned 54. I dont want to be the 'old man' to the child. Will I be able to go through this all again? Its been a long time, since Kim.

February 10th, 2021

Two weeks ago we parted with the UN. They gave us some supplies, the stuff they could give us meaning. Which was alot more then I could ask for. Just helping us for that short time was more then enough. They headed off in the opposite direction that we were heading in. They showed us on the map the safest route to Canada, and said it would take no less then 3 months on foot. Which is good, the less time the better. Sapphire told me she was about 3 months along, so I need to get us to Canada quickly.

Weve been taking the less traveled road, trying to stay away from the gun fights, but the bad side of that is that we are running into alot of hungry animals. I dont think we have gone a 4 without running into a bear or wolve that tried to make us a meal, or at least one of us. Its gotten alot colder, and we are walking through at least 2 feet a snow at the moment. I have given Sapphire most of the warmer cloths. I want to keep her as comfortable as possible, though she is argueing with me basically every morning to wear some of the warmer clothing. I always refuse politely. Though I admit that it is getting a bit cold out...

February 25th, 2021

All is still going good. Good and cold. I think its only gotten colder. A couple days back there was a blizzard that delayed us for a day. It was snowing so hard I couldnt even see my own hand infront of my face. I never liked snow that much. My fingers are frostbitten, or at least I think they are.

Sapphire is fairing a little better then I. Thankfully, Ive been able to convince her to let me give her the majority of the good supplies, shes given up on argueing with me. I noticed she is starting to show, really show that shes pregnant. She would be close to 4 months now I believe. We are edging on the border or are in North Dakota now. We are past the rockies now I think.

March 12th, 2021

We are now offically in Minnesota now. The refugee camp is just over the border in Wisconsin, up by Lake Superior. I hope just in a few more days we will be able to reach it, a month at most. We have been moving incredibly fast, not much has happened to delay us thankfully.

The last big thing to delay us was when Sapphire was attacked by a big wolf. I literally had to put my arm in its mouth to stop it from bitting Sapphires' neck. I managed to pull it back off of Sapphire and it wrestled with me for few minutes in the snow. The thing bit off my left index finger though. I really didnt feel that til after I killed the wolf and Sapphire pointed it out to me. I didnt really feel it after either, I think it was frozen to the point where it would just snap off. The blood fell everywhere still. From the sickness that I seem to be getting from the coldness combined with this wound, managed to make us stop and rest for the day. Sapphire forced me to because she knew I had a habit of ignoring it then passing out later, and she said that was an unnecessary risk. So we spent the night in the middle of no where, assumed to be Minnesota.

April 2nd, 2021

We made it to the camp finally! We just trudged into the camp this morning, they set us up with a tent and explained to us how the area works. Apparently every 2 weeks they have a transport to Canada and they just choose randomly who goes and who doesnt. The camp is nice. I spent most of today in the Medical tent, as well as Sapphire. They checked us over and gave us good bandages.

We were able to get caught up on the world news. There is apparently World War III going on. The terriorists had taken over Spain, France, and Germany. The fight over in Europe was going good though, England had just won back Spain and France and was now working on Germany. The war has been going on for 5 years now. Canada is working to free the US, on its own right now. They said once Europe gets back to its original state it will help Canada. They predict the war to be done by 2030 at the latest. I dont really care, I just want to get to Canada. I just want Sapphire to be safe and healthy, and the baby as well.

May 27th, 2021

I am offically a father now. Of a baby boy. Sapphire had the baby early this morning. She was 2 months early, but the doctor at the camp said the baby was fine. His name is Shawn. There were complications with Sapphire though...she didnt survive. She didnt get to see him. I ... I dont know what to feel... I mean I didnt understand. We were careful. The doctor said that these things just happen. Why us? Why did it have to be us? Shawn will never get to meet his mother. I will never see Sapphire again. Shit...Im crying again.

This apparently appealed the chances of us getting to go to Canada, Shawn and I are heading off tomorrow. But it wont be the same without Sapphire. I wanted to marry her when we got to Canada. Now I will never get that chance.

I have to be strong though. For Shawn. We will start our new lives in Canada.

THE END