Chapter 12 - Never.
Summer was out cold. She couldn't cry anymore. She could barley move. It was 4:00 in the morning by the time Cohen got a handle of himself, and got the courage to go over to Summer's house. He knocked on the door lightly. Her parents were gone, and the front door was left unlocked by Marissa and Kayleigh. He walked into her room, knowing that he had the recording, so she would have to not be mad at him anymore. He started walking into her room, looked down and saw the blood stained rag, wondering what it was from. Walked over to her bed and saw she was sound asleep. Her shirt was blood stained too, he knew now she had cut herself. She grabbed her hand, pulled down her sleeve, and saw the fresh slit on her wrist. He let tears fall down from his eyes, that hit her cut.
He planned on sitting there until she woke up. An hour later Summer's thirst woke her up. She looked up to see Cohen holding her arm in his hands. Wetness on her arm and on his face. His eyes closed, he looked so peaceful.
"What the hell are you doing here Cohen?" She finally said.
"Summer, wait." Seth popped his eyes open.
"Why, do you want to say more to me that wasn't on your adorable little letter?" Summer was so hurt.
"I want you to know I didn't write that letter."
"Cohen."
"No Summer. Does it even makes sense that I would write it, and then deny writing it?" Seth knew he was right.
"Well.."
"Summer, it was Meg. She was jealous. Marissa and Kayleigh got her confession." Seth said.
Summer was easing up. "Well lets hear it." Summer looked up into Seth's eyes.
He pushed play, and let Summer listen, and looked at her face the whole time.
"You know Cohen, I couldn't understand why you would do that, it hurt me so bad when I thought you would say those things to me. Now that I know you didn't.."
"Summer, I would NEVER hurt you like that. I would never do anything to make you cry so hard you can't breathe, and i would certainly never do anything to make you cut yourself."
Summer looked down at her arm. Remembering how it felt like the pain was easing together when she cut her wrist.
"I'm so sorry that you thought I hated you. I'm sorry that it hurt you." Seth said.
Summer looked up at him. He smiled at her. There it was. That undeniable smile.
"Are you going to say anything?" Seth was getting worried.
"What do you want me to say Cohen? Oh great, now all that crying I did today was useless. I cut myself for nothing, and now that Meg's out of the picture we can just lay on my bed and kiss each other all night?" She breathed out deep. "No, Cohen. I can't say that. Because that's not how it is. Whether you wrote it or not, I still got hurt. I still cried. I still cut myself. It wasn't your fault, and I'm sorry I yelled at you like I did, but I think you should go."
Seth looked down at her like she had just done to him, what she thought he did to her.
"No." Seth said quickly.
"Do you think you're earning brownie points with me Cohen? I don't need you to see me like this for one more second, ju.."
He was cut off by his lips. His came crashing down on hers. For a second it felt like all her problems were solved, then she pushed him away.
"Get out of the way Cohen. What gives you the right to do that?" Summer was trying hard to be mad.
He kept blocking her way out of the room until finally she just slammed herself into him, and put her arms around him. She started crying harder every second against to his chest.
"Its okay Summer, it's okay, I'm here." Seth said stroking her hair.
She felt silly for crying, but she couldn't move if she tried from Cohen, he held her so tight she had to breathe hard to get air since she was crying. She wiped her eyes.
"Sorry you have to be seeing all this Cohen. I need to take a shower, and get all this sticky make-up off my face. I'm sorry." She said it again, and walked off.
He watched her walk off like she was okay again, happy with that, he went into her closet and found a book lying there. He picked up and turned it to a page from a long time ago.
"I feel so bad for being mean to him on the first day of school. When I first saw him, I thought 'god who thought a skater boy could be any hotter?' That smile. Who could resist? Well I guess I blew it. Seems like he's that guy who had a million girls, I sure wish I could apologize."
Seth closed the book, figuring out that she liked him for a while before they kissed. Summer had been in the shower for 30 minutes, what the hell could she be doing? He thought. Oh well. She walked out of the bathroom in her towel. Her hair all wet and pieces across her face. She looked over at Seth, forgetting he was there. She walked into her closet and shut the door. She came out in an outfit similar to what she wore the first night they kissed. He smiled at her with that cute smile that he had. She could barley resist it. Seth sat there staring at her for almost 2 minutes.
"Hello? Cohen." Summer finally said.
"I'm sorry Summer." He blushed. "You, you always just look perfect."
"That was original Cohen." Summer smiled.
"So what now?" Seth said.
"Uh.. What do you mean 'what now?' Cohen?" Summer was curious.
Seth just sat and stared at her again. He finally got up, and gave her a hug. Summer was confused. He kissed her forehead, and she smiled.
"Well, It's almost morning, you better go Cohen." She said.
He leaned down and grabbed her face in his hands, and pushed his lips up against hers. He kissed her for a little bit, before opening her mouth with his tongue. Their tongues collided and he started kissing her passionately. She wasn't sure about how hard he was kissing her this same night, but she didn't really have long for that thought, he pushed her up against the wall. She had her hands on his shoulders and on his face and head. She had never experienced a kiss like this before. He was putting his hands up her shirt. He thought she looked so hott, he couldn't resist. She felt like Seth wanted to get into her pants, he was kissing her hard like he wanted something else.
"Cohen." Summer said finally.
Cohen stopped kissing her, and looked down and saw where his hands were.
"I'm so sorry Summer. I just got caught up in the moment, and you looked so gorgeous. I- I-uh, I'm sorry." Seth turned away.
She didn't care. She pushed him on the bed. She was up in the moment.
"Its okay Cohen, I am too." She looked down at him.
He pulled her face down towards his and starting kissing her with his tongue. Summer knew she wasn't going to have sex with him, but they could fool around without it going that far, unlike other boys, who would probably have forced themselves into her. Pretty soon Summer and Seth were rolling around on her bed, with her shirt completely off and his too. She couldn't get enough. She stopped for a second to catch some air.
"Cohen, I'm not going too.." Seth had started to tug at her shorts.
"What?" Cohen thought they were in the process.
"Look, not right now. I can't just, I just can't."
"Okay." Seth smiled at her.
He wasn't a virgin, but he wasn't too proud of it. Especially since he'd had sex with 6 or 7 different girls. He'd had sex with Meg twice. He kind of felt like a pig now laying on Summer's bare chest with his shirt off having had tugged at her shorts.
"I'm so sorry that just, I'm sorry Summer." He was looking right in her eyes.
She pulled his head down close to her chest and laid it down. Kissed his forehead, and smiled.
"It's okay Cohen. I just. I've never, I, well you know." Summer was embarrassed.
He stroked her arm. Then it hit him, that she'd never had sex. He was surprised.
"Oh, that's really good for you Summer." He was serious.
"I would never, presume, to force you to, you know, lose .. ... it." Seth said finally.
"How many girl have you've been with Cohen." Summer asked, realistically.
He didn't want to lie.
"Like 5 or 6."
Summer's eyes widened.