May 6th 2005 I couldn't do it. J.t. looked at me with those deep brown eyes and they made me melt. His eyes are nothing compared to Jay's though. I don't see how I got my self into this again. As J.t. stirs slightly in my bed I notice I may never be able to break up with him. I like him a lot, but I love jay. I don't know what I'm going to do. These are the kinds of times Jay "helps" me through. Well, if I would not have "helped" J.t. last night and broke up with him I wouldn't have the problem. Now would be a goo time to talk to a so called friend who because of her dramatic wardrobe change wants nothing to do with and I quote, "Prude Princess" like me. Emma Nelson, Environmental Crusader, Nurse, Baby-sitter. I might want to add cheater to that list. I guess I'll break up with J.t. today, once he wakes up, but knowing me he'll look at me with those deep brown eyes and we'll be "helping" each other once again. I can't take this any more. -EMMA NELSON