May 12th
I can't believeJay said no. I don't think it's the fact that he said no but the way he said it. "Emma were just sex nothing more." Those words keep ringing ing my head. I don't kno why i thought we could be anything more. Jay Hogart doesn't have girlfriends he has sluts. Which is exactly what I've turned into. Emma The Slut. I dunno maybe this isn't do bad. Sex with no strings never hut anyone. And it won't hurt me. As a matter of fact I plan to go to the ravin right now.
-EMMA NELSON
May 13th
Well I went to the ravine and guess who I say there? None other than Mrs. Ashley Kerwin and where was she? With Jay, in his van. Ashley Kerwin was in Jay's van. I'm sure she must have been druck because when she saw me she didnt look surprised she kept kissing him like I wasn't even there. I wanted to know why she was there, so I asked Jay. Why was she there? Simply because they have "history" I'm starting to think that all those nights that Jay said he couldn't "help" me he was off "helping" Mrs. Ashley Kerwin. She makes me sick. No one can have Jay me and only me. ME ME ME ME ME. I will not give up Jay without a fight.
-EMMA NELSON
May 14th
Well I didn't give Jay up without a fight. Literaly i fought Ashley. Not only did I lose, but I got suspented for 2 weeks. What did Ashley get? NOTHING! All that happened was she was taken to the nurse. She had one cut above her lip and i look like a frickin truck ran over me. My ribs hurt and my mom hasn't stopped yelling at me. "Emma how could you" "Emma what did Ashley ever do to you?" BLAH BLAH BLAH. And the worst thing is that I STILL don't have Jay she does. Word around school is that they're dating now. Ashley and Jay are going out. A day ago Jay was telling me that he didn't want a girlfriend and now he's with her. I HATE HER FRICKIN GUTS!
-EMMA NELSON