May 27
How am I supposed to start a new life with Hazel, Ashley, and Paige harassing
me? On top of that Rick came back. No one wants him here. I tried to get people to help
get him out of our school but none of them want to help a slut like me. Then the weird
thing is Manny started passing out the orange ribbons and everyone took them, EVEN
PAIGE! What make her less of a slut than me? I didn't get pregnant did I? NO! And it's
not like everyone knows about me and Sean so what make what she did better? Oh that's
right she didn't beat anyone up. But wait Ashley didn't get hurt did she? NO, I DID. The
bald spot in the back of my head will most likely NEVER grow in. Everyone acts as if
Ashley's the queen and I'm some Court Jester that attacked her. Oh but that's right
Ashley's only a princess, Paige is the queen. GOD KILL THE QUEEN.
Paige told Rick that I like him so now He's following me everywhere. Him and
Toby are having this weird competition thing to see if they could get a kiss from me.
Automatically Toby became my friend again and Master wasn't very happy. J.t. basically
started yelling at him. All because I kissed him on the cheek BIG DEAL. I was surprised
though. Toby actually stood up for me and told J.t., yes I did cheat on him but that doesn't
make me a different person and that I was sorry and he should just forgive me. He was
wrong though. cheating on J.t. and being with Jay have made me a different person. I'm
sleeping around with guys who have girlfriends. The only thing he had right was the part
about me being sorry. I am sorry, I am. I never meant for anyone to get hurt, especially J.t.
I love him a lot and if I knew how he would've felt if he ever found out I wouldn't have
done it.
And then there's this whole Sean problem. Ashley said that she's going to tell Ellie
which means I probably shouldn't go to school tomorrow. Id give anything for all of this
to blow over. All of my problems could be settled if people would forgive and forget. But
that NEVER happens in Degrassi. Everyone holds the biggest grudges and over nothing.
Maybe I should just forgive and forget about what Rick did. I know I wish people would
do that for me. I officially forgive Rick. Then again I don't. I'm a Feminist and he's
basically a wife, well, girlfriend beater. And that goes against everything I believe in.
Well tomorrow a new day and things should be better.
-EMMA NELSON
Brittney )