AN: Thanks for all the great reviews. Special thanks to GirlGoneCrazy, So-Over-Him , caramelswirl11, LilaFreakk, for the awesome encouragement. I know there was more people but those are the one's who stood out. Also if anyone can help me what does OOC mean? If you know e-mail me at Thanks!

June 4th

Nothing exciting is really going on right now. Ashley and I have gotten closer and I guess you can say we're friends. Paige isn't too happy about that. Craig, Jay , Sean, who Paige is now dating, Paige, Ashley and I are supposed to go to a rave tonight. Really, I don't want to go, we're going as a group and I know for a fact Paige doesn't want me there and if she doesn't she probably convinced Sean that he doesn't either. Everyone has a date but me and Craig.

Even though we went to the dance together doesn't mean we're going to the rave together. Ashley says that if it wasn't for him I probably wouldn't be going. He convinced Paige to let me go. Craig's nice and all but I don't like him that way. It was fun with at the dance, but we were at school so he had to be tame. This isn't school for all I know, this rave can turn into a ravine incarnation. For all I know by the end of the night Craig might be giving me blue bracelets. I've learned not to trust guys and I know NOTHING good can come from this rave tonight.

Ashley's making this big deal out of it and all she's been saying to me is 'Emma, he likes you' 'Emma, you have to find something hott to wear' 'Emma nothing is going to happen tonight' BLAH BLAH BLAH. To tell you the truth I could care less. I don't care about having a date to this rave, I don't care about looking hott for Craig and I don't care about ANYTHING happening tonight. I don't want anything to happen it's not like I'm going to sleep with Craig. At least I don't think I will. NO I KNOW I won't. I have had nothing but bad luck with guys this year and the year before that and I DON'T need anyone else to add to that list. Besides I still have feelings for jay and who knows maybe Ashley and him will break up... maybe. I dunno.

Can't wait till the rave... NOT. Emma Nelson

June 5th

Boy was I wrong. Something did happen between Craig and I and I was also wrong about me not sleeping with him. We did sleep "together" technically. We shared me bed last night. He was kind of drunk and couldn't drive home so he stayed the night. We stayed up talking and after a while he asked me out. I said yes of course. He was sooo sweet and nice, and I had a lot of fun at the rave and unlike what I thought would happen I'm blue bracelet free. Ashley on the other hand is not.

Paige and Spinner stayed the night as well, Paige broke up with Sean at the rave. NOTE TO SELF: Never, ever, ever, give Spinner spray cheese. I almost died. I was soo sick. I think the smell of is permanently imbedded in my clothes, blankets and walls. Craig and Jay thought it was funny... IT WASN'T it was hazardous. Someone could have choked, it was that bad. But needless to say I did have fun last night. And waking up to see Spinner, Jay and Craig wearing nothing but boxers when we all woke up this morning.

Paige and I aren't fighting any more we're becoming really good friends. Just when I thought she was the worst person in the world and the last person I'd ever be friends with she showed a whole new side of herself. And so did Jay.

We all went over to Paige's house to go swimming and Jay, being the show off that he is ran and jumped into the pool, he came out but his swim trunks did not. I found it REALLY funny. He didn't notice until MARCO & DYLAN came out and said 'Wow Paige I didn't know you hired a stripper', it was too funny.

I can't believe I'm friends with these people, but I have to remember, don't trust anyone no matter how nice they seem. Emma Nelson