Chapter 11

Together Through It All

"So, where do we look next?" Spike asked when they were walking back toward the cemetery.

"I don't know," Buffy responded softly, obviously upset.

"Buffy, are you all right?" Spike put his hand on her back.

"Yes! Would people stop asking me that!" Buffy shrugged off his hand and walked away quickly.

When Spike found Buffy she was sitting on a bench in the park, her face covered up with her hands. Her shoulders were shaking from her sobs.

Spike walked over and sat down beside her. Buffy didn't look up. Spike wrapped his arms around her and pulled her closer to him. Buffy laid her head on his chest and cried.

When Buffy calmed down she said, "In the morning when I wake up I always wish that I knew what my life is about, that I'll figure everything out, but I never do. I have all these friends behind me, but they don't understand. They can't help me."

"What about me, luv? I don't think I'd call us friends."

"I don't know anymore." Spike wasn't surprised by her answer, but he wondered what the 'anymore' part meant. "Everything's messed up now. Nothing makes sense. I thought I had it figured out at one time, but then...I don't know.
"
Buffy just stayed in Spike's arms, letting him stroke her hair. He made her feel so alive, so complete. He made her forget everything for a minute. She just wished he knew that she loved him. She had to tell him.

"I love you," Buffy whispered.

"What?" Spike asked, surprised.

"I love you. I've been meaning to tell you, but I didn't because I thought you didn't love me anymore."

"What made you think that, pet?" Spike couldn't believe what was happening. Was she serious? Did she really love him?

"When I kissed you the other day you acted all weird."

"Oh, that. I was an idiot. I've been regretting that since."

"It doesn't matter," Buffy said. "Not anymore."

Buffy pulled away from him and kissed him as he kissed her back. She never wanted this moment to end. She felt like she was in Heaven again.

When their lips parted, they both smiled at each other.

"We better go back and tell Giles what we found. We need to know when this sacrifice thing takes place, if it hasn't already," Buffy said, getting up.

Buffy and Spike walked toward Giles', their fingers laced together, content. Buffy leaned her head on his arm. One thing finally made sense to her again: him.

"It was empty?" Giles questioned after Buffy had told him everything
.
"Yup, empty. It was weird because the candles were still lit and everything. I don't know why they would've left," Buffy said.

"Well, the good news is the sacrifice doesn't take place until...oh, tomorrow night," Willow said, thinking it wasn't quite so soon.

"We have to find them, Giles, and fast. If we don't Dawn and the other girls don't stand a chance," Buffy said, urgently. "I'll try my best, Buffy, but I'm not making and promises. Not a whole lot was written about them, I'm afraid," Giles informed Buffy.

"Just try," Buffy pleaded, "Dawn needs us."

That night Buffy, Willow, and Spike walked to the Summers house to get some sleep.

Buffy and Spike seem awfully happy, Willow noted, watching the two smiling and talking. Buffy must have finally told him. Willow smiled. Buffy had confided in Willow a couple weeks ago about her feelings for Spike, and Willow told Buffy that she had to tell him. Buffy hadn't said anything since, but, judging from the way they were acting tonight, she must have.

When they walked into the house through the backdoor, Willow pulled Buffy aside.

"You and Spike seemed awfully friendly and happy tonight," Willow smiled and Buffy blushed and smiled. "Did you finally tell him?"

"Yes. It felt so good. I've never felt so happy before in my life," Buffy told her.

"Have you kissed yet?" Willow asked, anxiously.

"The perfect kiss," Buffy spilled, and Willow grinned.

"I'm so happy for you!" Willow said.

"Thanks," Buffy replied. "I'm happy for us, too."

"Well, go be with him, you lover girl you." Willow gave her a push.

Buffy smiled and went up to her room, where Spike was waiting for her.

She went over to him and wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him.

END OF CHAPTER 11

I luved writing this chapter soooo much! It's my favorite chapter, I think. The whole thing is Spuffy, practically. The next chapter's going to have a few new characters in it and you find out where Dawn and the other girls are.

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