Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Song
Summary: Harry and friends live life as if it were a musical, sort of. Good songs here I promise.
Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter or any of the songs I use. They belong to their creators, writers and singers. Thank you.
Act One: Scene Ten- You Don't Know Me
Numb
By Linkin Park
Neville Longbottom
Neville Longbottom stared off into space as usual. He often did that now. He was thinking about a lot of things now. Hogwarts, Voldemort, the world in general. The one thing that often came to his mind was his parents and how he thought he had not lived up to their expectations. Not that his parents even knew him, he was just a shadow in their world of black and white and gray.
Then again, he was also angry with his family in general. They had always said he would be a great wizard but he wasn't and their idea of him was terrible. He would never be as wonderful as his parents.
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
That's what made him angry. That he had to be as great as his memory stricken parents to get attention from the rest of his family. No one understood him, well except Susan Bones, that cute Hufflepuff. But there was something missing from him. He was always going to be enough for his family.
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
He would have to live with that, he guessed, being a failure. As long as someone excepted him he was fine. No one ever seemed to notice the times Neville had done something right but all of his wrongs. His first flying lesson, his accidents in Potions and the countless times he had blown something up.
No one seemed to remember the time he tried to stop Ron, Harry and Hermione from going into that room with the three headed dog, or the time he had helped Harry during the last year. There wasn't much there to know but it was good enough for Neville.
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
He was tired of everyone trying to get him to be great. He wasn't going to ever be great. That was the truth and he had already learned to deal with it. The only problem left was the fact that no one seemed to remember that fact.
He walked through his empty house and thought to himself. Gran had left to get some food and his other relatives were wherever they were. When they came back he would have a talk with them about the Dark Lord.
Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
He sat down in his living room and turned on the tiny Muggle TV he had gotten to keep up with the Muggle News, in case there was a strange attack somewhere. There was nothing on about anything and Neville found himself staring at the turned off TV.
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
Why was life so hard for him? Why hadn't he been born with a healthy family and with a good life? Why? He had asked that almost every minute of his days when he was alone to think. Now that he was all he could do. Wonder. He dropped the remote on the couch and stood up, looking out the window near him. It was getting late.
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
He walked into the kitchen, looked around, then decided he needed to get some air, so he walked out into the evening air. It had been a long time since he was able to go outside. He hated being stuck inside. Gran had freaked the first time he had gone out, thinking he might get killed by the Dark Lord while he was all alone.
Not that he really would see in difference in living and dying.
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
Then as the night started to appear in the sky, Neville started to think about it again. The only time he had been with his father that he could remember, they were outside, looking at the stars.
"Dad?"
"Yes Neville, son?"
"Are you going to die?"
"Everyone has to die sometime."
"Don't die Dad."
"I'll try Neville."
Dad… Neville looked at the sky. He didn't die so he at least kept his word.
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
"Neville! Get inside now! You know you shouldn't be out there!" his grandmother was home. She yelled at him as he entered the house, ignoring her as usual. Maybe he could find time to see his parents alone and talk to them and thank them. Yeah, they needed to be thanked. Neville wasn't going to sit by anymore and take this annoy pressure of his family.
I've become so numb I can't feel you there
I've become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
"Not anymore."
Is be more like me and be less like you
End Act One
-Sad but the perfect song for him. I think it's kind of sad that his entire life is full of problems and he can't seem to find a way to get through them. It's a good thing he has Susan.
Hog OUT!